Anxiety Daily Check-In point #8

Some days are bound to be harder. Sometimes there are monkey wrenches. But I keep experiencing inbetween places of hope & new ideas that help me. At the moment I have to wait through one of those tough intervals.

Mostly, I'm in the house by myself hiding from COVID. I can't keep doing this. I figure the next few weeks will be the peak of the surge.

Even when the "surge" winds down, there will still be risk. Being around people is going to involve some risk probably for years to come. That really bothers me. I'm retired, so I'm not forced to leave my home to go to work. Instead, I can stay here feeling safe. But this is not how I planned on living when I retired. There were so many things I looked forward to doing. A lot of those things aren't even available to do.

I'll worry about COVID every day from now on. My health is quite decent, but I've had pneumonia twice in my life. I never smoked, but I'm prone to getting very sick when I contract any respiratory illness. Weak lungs run in my family. So I worry I might not recover from COVID as easily as a lot of people manage to do. This anxiety about COVID is taking over my life.

I contracted a mild form of Covid (Omicron I believe) and my symptoms were not bad at all. I feel that I have fully recovered, but am unfortunately still testing positive. Luckily I was triple vaccinated. I am, however, stuck in a foreign country due to the positive Covid test. I'm handling it better than I would have expected. A couple of years ago, if this had happened I would be freaking out.

I can so relate to everything you said. I'm not retired, but I might as well be. I've been disabled and now have no way of rehabilitating. I've been sheltering/isolating for nearly 2 years now. I hold many similar fears as you.

I hope you test negative soon, and I hope you can return home soon. I'm so sorry you are stuck in a foreign country.

My anxiety sucks today. It seems to be just straight up sucky anxiety. Possibly from an entire pitcher of matcha iced tea. I've had my valium. I'm wondering if I should just take my prescribed Geodon early and just say F whatever side effects happen as a result.

I have quite a bit of anxiety, & it's so frustrating.

A bit restless today. I did not sleep well last night but also my dad tested positive from Covid two days ago from his work and he is fully vaccinated.

Had not-so-great anxiety day. Starting to feel like a group of my friends are tired of me and starting to pull away. I can't tell if it's real or if it's just my perception of myself that I am projecting onto them. I've had this happen to me before, and I always get so paranoid that it's going to happen to me again. I'm fairly certain it's all in my head, but there will always be that tiny, nagging part of my brain that will think everyone secretly hates me.

Hoping for a better day tomorrow.

Hoping to stay calm tomorrow and keep the anxiety under control. It could be a great week.

I had a latte and an iced coffee and a couple sodas. But I also am having medical issues that require getting a painful exam done on Thursday. So I feel like my anxiety is understandable. I'm not being a crab about it though or making a big deal out of it it. My mom cant even tell I'm a nervous wreck about it. I don't think.

I feel like going out to eat . . . but the surge is on . . . so maybe that would be foolish.

I know it's way worse for a lot of the world's people . . . but I'm tired of worrying about COVID.

My anxiety is cranked up to an 11 today. I hope my therapist can help me out in the morning. Theres only so much I can do on my own. And I know I just have to accept that its going to happen but I would kind of like some help with accepting it.

I think I'm more worried about the exam then what they will find.

I seem to be doing ok today. Just feeling down a bit.

Someone on the radio said that some doctors are warning that we're all going to get COVID sooner or later. It's just a matter of when.

That's got me more afraid to leave the house. I'm sick of worrying about COVID.

I had a tough day of anxiety. I'm tired.

Sometimes I think depression is a way of escaping anxiety. I'm kind of afraid to go anywhere, though I did get to Walmart yesterday for grocery shopping. That's about the only thing I leave the house for. There's plenty I could be doing at home - like packing and storing all the Christmas stuff I've taken down. Instead I did nothing constructive today. Mainly read and watched TV.

I don't feel sad, but this level of inactivity is a form of being depressed. I'ld be better off, if I got out of the house more - like if I had somewhere to go . . . to do something. My New Year's resolution was to go to the gym regularly. I really was ready to follow through on that, until Omicron started going wild through the country. So I tell myself: wait another 2 weeks.

I did order N 95 masks online. When they arrive, I think I'll start going to the gym, with the better masks as a higher level of protection.

I have health anxiety and I know that something is really there but I also think these recent celeberity deaths and my mom turning 70 next month is getting me going more then I realize.

I Agree but…Grace Doesn’t Need to be Used to Excuse or Continue Intergenerational Trauma.

•Growing Up Many of My Immediate Family Members Would Do or Say Something Harmful Etc..

•They Would Never Apologize to Each Other. My Mama and Siblings Still Do This.

•They Go Months Without Speaking. Then Act like Nothing Happened and Start Speaking but Nothing is Ever Resolved.

•Just like Any Relationship, Once Another Situation Happens, Each of Them are Arguing about Old **** and the New Situation.

•My Dad’s Side is Exactly the Same, Except They Go YEARS Without Speaking.

•This is a Toxic Pattern of Functioning in Dysfunction and It’s Exhausting.

•If I Did/Said Something, I Will Apologize Even If We Decided to Desolve Our Friendship, Relationship Etc.

•Sometimes Relationships, Interacting Needs to End or You Feed ‘Em with a Long Handled Spoon.

•The Hurt can be so Deep, Painful or Traumatic. People Don’t Have to “Forgive and Continue” the Relationship…Including Relationships with Family Members. Forgiveness is Not Required for Healing.

•People Can Choose to Solely Focus on Healing *🩹 the Hurt, Pain, Trauma and PTSD.

#intergenerationaltrauma #family #intergenerationalhealing #healing #grace #accountability #aplogize #apologieswithoutchange #change #forgivenessisnotrequiredforhealing #siblings #neglect #manipulation #indoctrination #relationships

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I've had some anxiety but then I just take a Klonopin.

I forced myself to eat basically a whole bag of steam in the bag rainbow cauliflower. But my body really just wants meds right now.

My anxiety seems to have been situational lately. At this moment I'm doing ok.

I had health anxiety but my pscych meds took care of the anxiety part but not the health part. So idk. I had a lot of caffeine but it didn't seem to affect my anxiety. I still did ok with my meds.

I wish I had a med for my anxiety. Oh well. Today I am anxious about being depressed and not getting out of bed.

Anxiety has been hard on these last few days. I'm trying to learn to manage it, but it is such a difficult thing to do alone. I stopped therapy last summer when my online therapist quit. I probably need to find help somewhere.