[AzulOscuro]

I already wrote about this in the past. All I have suffered along years of obligatory social interactions, fighting day after day to live up the expectations, be the most close to a normal person and function, trying to put at bay my anxiety…all this filled my head of nightmares.

I have one of these nightmares nearly each other day (sorry if I didn’t use well this last expression) I mean, one day and maybe a day without a nightmare followed by a day with nightmares.
They are all terrible. I never find my way to the school I teach in. Or I can’t reach the classroom. It’s terrible. I always get lost. Streets change, buildings change. I have nightmares with my coworkers isolating me and leaving me alone or confronting me.
It may seem as a tiny thing but I was always very responsible and a person full of doubts towards myself. I always felt very isolated in the schools I worked. I was terrible at team working because of my sociability problems and my constant worries about doing things well.

These nightmares are suffocating and they made me want to cry.
Too long having these nightmares and they don’t want to go off.
I don’t know what to do if I ever could do something.
I don’t know. Is there something I can do?

[TishaBuv]

If you process these feelings, maybe the nightmares will stop.

FWIW, I find you to be nicely social.

[AzulOscuro]

Thank you, Tisha. It’s true that I’m friendly but not social due to my sense of inadequacy. It’s kind of not feeling deserved of the others’ company.
I tell you just for you to figure how I have been feeling all my life long.

How can I process it? Writing it down? Talking to a therapist? Visualisation exercises? Is there a technique? I never try any technique in this matter.
I kind of see it as similar to a post traumatic thing.

[AzulOscuro]

Maybe, trying to do similar activities to the ones I used to do and produced this anxiety. You know, facing to these fears and winning them the match. I don’t know.

[Discombobulated]

Sorry you’re getting recurring nightmares

First a question, are you on any medication that has side effects of nightmares/vivid dreams? I’m asking because I’m on a medication which causes them myself.

I haven’t had any success in stopping my nightmares/vivid dreams unfortunately. But I have got better at getting less disturbed/worried by them. I’m used to them now. Sometimes I even laugh about the ridiculousness of some of them. I don’t know if reframing these nightmares could possibly help?

[AzulOscuro]

Hello, Disco!
No, my current meds leaflet doesn’t say anything about having intense or lucid dreams. I have just read it again.
I took another antidepressant that I took at night and one of the effects were deep dreams but not this one that I’m now on for years.

Thus, all are nightmares and about the same topic, over and over again.

[AzulOscuro]

Again, that night. The nightmares are always around my fears and the obstacles I had to face when I was a teacher in active or at my Secondary Education when my problems began to rise up. Or a mix.