[Shaymus]

When things go right i get scared. Im used to things going horribly wrong so when two good things happen(getting approved for GAMC,and cell phone coming in the mail for my girlfriend) it just seems like the world will make sure today stinks. Then i think how and my sister is getting one final test today and the doctor wouldnt talk to her til this one was done. If the test comes back bad and she does have cancer my life is over. Why cant i try to keep positive? All the other stuff has gone right thats why. Heres hoping the other shoe doesnt drop and i have three good things happen today.

[friedgreymatter]

I did not hear of the possibility your sister might have cancer, Shaymus. I hope she does not.
My cousin just finished radiation therapy to be sure her cancer is completely gone. She has returned to home after a few weeks at Sloan Kettering in Manhattan.

What type of cancer might this be, if you don't mind my asking, Shaymus?

I wish her health. Relax, Shaymus. It will be alright.

[wisewoman]

Shaymus, I wait for the other shoe to drop because it has so often. My head is wired that bad things will happen. However, thinking like that doesn't help us. If bad things happen then we can deal with them when it occurs but putting the energy into watching our backs and being anxious doesn't make much sense if we can't control the outcome? So, you can tell that I am working on this too. Just try to let your mind be positive and if it's negative you will have more energy to deal with it. By the way, cancer is not an immediate death sentence. I have friends and a son who survived so smile and take litttle baby steps. PEACE

[Shaymus]

They were testing for ovary and some other kind. Like brain stem maybe? Somewhere close to where the brain and spine meet. I finally just called her and they told her they will have the results Tuesday! Tuesday?!?! Why on earth did the doctor tell her that they were testing for cancer then dangle it for over a week. Thats just cruel to her,,,and from a selfish point of view me!

Great advice wisewoman,,maybe i can control my obsessive thoughts and force them to be positive. Its worth a try anyway. And yeah i have to keep telling myself its not a death sentence. The only person in my life who has ever had cancer(friends mom) died and i went with him once to visit her. That was incredibly tough and i felt so bad. This is definately not something i want my sister to go thru tho. Id sacrifice any and everything for it to be good news on tuesday. Live in the now,live in the now,,,but the future is so scary.

[wisewoman]

I'm sorry it's so hard. How come we dont's get to know the furture? Your right, here and now is good. Please let us know what you find out.