I'm a failure...

I really hate myself because of my autism. My sister is much prettier than me and she has so many friends. I don't have any friends, and I've never had a long friendship. I can't stop being jealous of her and I'm the only one in my family who suffers from autism, and it sucks! They don't understand me, and I feel like I'm an alien in social situations. I don't belong anywhere. I probably never will accept myself and my awful autism. I just wish I had at least one autistic sibling or family member. But unfortunately this isn't reality.

So maybe you can make some friends that have autism? I'm pretty sure that here are groups and organizations that could help you out there. Have you tried aspieology dot com? Also, don't compare yourself with others, as there will always be prettier and less pretty people in the world than you! Friendship is very important, too, as is wisdom and interests or hobbies. Hobbies can turn into lifelong fun things to do that you will love. Good luck to you!

That's easier said than done. I don't know anyone that have autism too. I just want a normal life!

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I just wanted to hug you and let you know i'm reading

Thanks! I appreciate it

I just can't accept that I have to live this way forever. And my future is also very limited

I haven't been diagnosed with Autism but I do have symptoms of Autism so I think I have it too. There's a dating site for Autistics but there arent many members & they havent logged in for awhile. But you're not alone there are lots of other Autistics outhere. Maybe you feel like the only autistic cause you're from a small country(Denmark) where there aren't many autistics but in other countries such as the UK,USA or Canada there are a lot of people who are autistiyou should join an autistic group on meetup.com or search on google. Btw I dont have friends either just aquantainces

Why wish that your sibling had autism if you suffer from it? Isn't that kind of cruel? I don't mean to be harsh or offensive or something, just asking a simple question.
I also came here because I had nobody to talk about my problems with. Either it was because people didn't understand me or because I didn't dare to talk to people about it. I am not autistic but have my own set of problems and issues in life. Anyways, if you want someone to talk to, then know that people on PC, psychcentral, are very friendly and helpful in all ways. Also feel free to ask me anything. I am not an expert at anything, but I am a respectful listener.
I wish you luck, and greetings,

thegagagirl,
you need friends who understand autism or are autistic themselves,you need support from people who can show you the good in yourself as currently you only have your own thoughts to go on.
i know at the moment you cant see any good in yourself but you will get to a point one day where you will see your autism as a benign part of yourself and not something you suffer from,what autistics suffer from is neglect and misunderstanding and lack of accomodation from society.

i personally see autism as a good thing and im from the severe half of the spectrum,the struggles come from lack of understanding,lack of support... autism has good aspects,like for so many of us we cant lie or we struggle to lie and we have a innocent view of the world though this may have become distorted and cynical due to the suffering caused from society.we also arent led by emotion,we are built on literal fact.and when some of us are non verbal,its actually a good thing in some ways as we dont get the overload caused by speech,when i became verbal it destroyed me,i am so worn out by speaking.

i think one day when you come to terms with yourself,you coud be a buddy/befriender to a youngster with autism,have you thought about that?
itd be like having a sibling with autism in a way.

First of all, you are beautiful. My husband has Aspergers Syndrome and my children both are on the Spectrum. I have Schizoaffective Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder. You will get passed this and eventually will find others that will accept the beautiful human that you are. I was socially unaccepted in school, I didn't have friends and people avoided me like I was a walking plague. I was bullied, teased, thrown rocks at and treated like crap. My parents couldn't deal with my MI and gave me to the state when I was 15. I was abused in foster homes and ran away living homeless on the street. I became strong, like you will. I don't think this, I know. You will persevere, be brave, educate yourself. This is what I tell my children. You have amazing gifts, don't focus on what society deems as "normal". People like you child, change the world and I believe this with every fiber of my being. Be courageous and change the way people view the world. Much love and peace.

True...
I can imagine this is not what you expected (or maybe, wanted) to hear. But I'll bet that people see good thing in you that you might not see right now.
I have (well, it needs to be re-verified and properly diagnosed) Aspergers, or Autism spectrum class something as DSM-5 now calls it. And I can relate (although other possible issues really complicate things for me), my opinion of myself is, well, let's say "harsh", but there will be people out there who care for you, know what you're going through and want to help or comfort or just be there for you. I just know that (and I'm horribly misanthropic).

Now I don't know what life's like in Denmark (and I just live 550km from the border, go figure ), but I do believe that even you can find a place where you can be understood, and learn that, yes, you are worthwhile. And yes, there's more good in you than you see right now (or admit right now).

There's proof of that even here, read the posts above and you'll see that there are people even here (this is a really good place, by the way) who can, want to, and do see that you are a good person, and you are worthwhile.

Even I care... Enough so to post parts of my experience, think thrice about what I type and how I type it. To make you feel better about yourself and see that you're not a failure...

I may be hammering my point here, and I am sorry for that if it seems this way, but I know how crushing such low self-esteem can be.

Greetings. I have gone through this same thought several times before diagnosed with autism, and now I know why, but still feel the exact same. I see all these people around me and never understand how people are social. How is everyone able to focus on so many things at once to see how someone is feeling? It gets too complicated. But then I realize that though I don't have the greatest social skills, I am good at other things and people out there support me when I need to. There has been so many times lately where I look in the mirror and I don't think it's me because because of how socially awkward I am. But I'm there, and keep going until I know I'll find someone or get friends. I don't have anyone with autism in my family, but my soon-to-be stepbrother has it, but it's more noticeable so my dad believes I don't have it and ignores the issue.

Autism is life long sadly, but you can work around it. I try to accommodate the best I can, but people I ask to help me tend to forget, and I just have to keep reminding them. Sorry, I'm really bad at this stuff. Im working on it . Hopefully there is some useful stuff in here