Funk

I cant get out of this funk... its like I have no drive or ethusiasm for anything. including my children, my husband and my job. whats wrong with me and how can I fix it?? I drink red bulls at work and still get nothing done. Im afraid Im going to lose my job and my children are going to think their mom has mentally left for good. I'm just really not happy but I'm not depressed I dont think either... I'm just here physically I guess. I am on Geodon and Prozac btw... I sit at work in front of the computer and just gaze off into space... and at home I sit in front of the tv and do the same.. i do get the kids in the bath and fed (i dont cook though) and honestly I dont do the housework either. my mother-in-law lives with us right now so she does all cooking and cleaning THANK GOD! otherwise it wouldnt get done... and in my head I think I would be a good stay at home mom cooking cleaning and baking but in reality I would just sit sit sit... is this how its going to be the rest of my life????? are we destined to be space cadets or what? I feel hopeless but cant really talk to my husband or let him know I do nothing all day at work because I work for his father and he would be pissed if he knew I was wasting his dads money. Plus he thinks mostly its "all in your head". I did quit smoking and am trying to cut back from drinking too but the only time I feel really alive is when I do have a few drinks in me. of course then I am usually pissed at the world and letting it all out... blah... sorry i am rambling... whats your suggestions for getting out of the funk? vitamins? anything?

I'd love to beable to help you but as I have been living in a funk for about 10 years. I have tried everything from vitamins to stackers to pills ,drinking and everthing I can remember ....anyway I would just talk to the doctor and ee what they can do for you...they say if your more active and eat right sleep right things could fall into place but how are people like us gonna do that when it takes all we can to get out of bed let alone do stuff and how are we gonna eat right when it takes too much energy to cook? good luck with this and let me know if you find something that works

I feel exactly the same way. I have no drive or enthusiasm for anything. I want so much for some mania to kick in so I can have some energy and get stuff done. My husband calls me lazy and asks what I want to do with my life? Huh. I tell him I just want to be happy.
I have no goals. I question myself why am I on this earth? I'm a waste of space. I don't do anything or go anywhere, except grocery shopping and dr. appointments.
I drink energy drinks, too. Sometimes I'll perk up a little at night and get in a party mood, but my husband doesn't like me drinking. And I suppose it's bad for me anyway.
I don't work, so I don't get out of the house for that. I don't have friends. We are totally renovating our house all by ourselves and my husband is doing 99.9% of the work. I do a little bit here and there but mostly I can't motivate myself to get anything done.
Unfortunately, I don't have any suggestions on how to get out of this funk. I could send my husband over, he'll hollar at you until you feel like crap that you just have to do something because he made you feel like a big loser.

I totally understand, in fact I feel the same at the moment. My motivation is zero. So yeah a Redbull can get me going for a while, but than I get again stuck on "I don't want to do anything...".

Why it is wonderful (and very sad) to see my thoughts being written by someone else. Coco- I'm sorry your husband is like that, mine trys so hard to understand but I know he prob. wants me to get the F out of bed and get off my butt and clean more than everyother week but unless I'm manic I'm so depressed or tired from the four days of not sleeping from the mania, I never can do anything. I have no drive, my stupid ***** got a phone call from an online school one day when I was manic and I signed up and now ( in a three month depression, longest run I've ever had) I am struggling to do the work. I am a rapid cycler with mixed episodes, So I can usually have 4 good days 2 bad 6 good 10 bad 1 good...I never know and there are few in between that are "normal"...now off my antidepressants, I have never wanted things to "end" so much. I'm trying to just "be" untill the new meds kick in but..........I'M SO TIRED!

wow im relieved to see its not just me, i have a husband that looks at me odd sometimes, like "how can i possibly be tired, i dont work" look. im a coffee addict, red bull is a true love too, but it wears off so quickly, i wish i knew the answer, i too feel like im a waste of salt, unproductive and crippled by social anxiety. but maybe we'll all figure it out somehow, and until we do take care

thanks everyone for the insight... so at least i know im not alone... im going to tell my doc whats going on.. i always tell him "im fine everythings good" when really its not... so this time im going to try to be honest because i really cant take this much longer. i feel like the nothingness from that one old movie with the boy and the book and the dragon... now i cant even remember what its called... blah

You are definately not alone. As others have mentioned, you could have taken this post from the tips of my fingers. I can't believe that so many other people feel EXACTLY the same way as I do. This makes me feel like I'm not just lazy like I sometimes believe. This disorder really does something to us to get us down and keep us there. I want to get it down on the ground and beat it's *** real good. Lately I've been thinking of trying some of my husband's adderal to see if it helps me. I've had them before and I feel great on them. I just know it's probably not a good idea to go on them since they are addictive... I'll talk to my doc first though. Wish I didn't have to be afraid of the things that help.

The Never-Ending Story...I that movie!

I know what you mean about being in a funk for a long time...I hate those depression assessment questions that ask "Have you lost interest in things you previously enjoyed?" Ummm...I haven't enjoyed much in my entire life. I liked to swing when I was a little kid, and I've always liked to read, but other things just kind of come and go quickly; I'll get interested in a craft or a computer game or something and lose interest after a few days whether I'm depressed or not. The only thing that always interests me is sleeping...I love sleeping. I wish I could tell you how to get out of the funk, but if I knew I'd be doing it myself. Take care

I love sleep too! I can sit down and take a nap even when I'm not really tired. I just love the feeling of falling asleep.