[thebelljar12]

Hi,

I have heard about mixed episodes but I really don't know how to clearly tell if I'm having one. I recently posted the "Am I coming to a Hypomanic episode?" thread.

Everything I read online is confusing and without real life examples, I feel like I don't understand it.

Has anyone on here had one and if so, what sypmtoms of depression did you have and what symptoms of mania did you have? Are they quick mood swings or do you literally feel them at the same time?

I have this feeling like I'm being torn between being lazy and staying in bed but I feel guilty about it and want to do so many things, that I end up doing nothing. HELP!

[Nessa213]

I think I just came out of one a few weeks ago.

It was a bizarre feeling for me. And I'm not sure if it was actually a mixed episode or what. Almost like I was drunk for days on end. My head was quite literally spinning. It was almost as if there were so many voices and thoughts in my head that I was literally blinded.

I knew it was more towards mania becuase everything around me seemed to move so freakishly, ungodly slow. My road rage (and rage in general really) was seriously OUT of control.

But at the exact same time it was such a hopeless feeling. Like I was being SUCH a burden on everyone around me and no one would EVER understand me. I thought that the only way to stop everything was to run my car off the road. Or OD on something. Anything. Just to get it to stop.

[thebelljar12]

Originally Posted by Nessa213

I think I just came out of one a few weeks ago.

It was a bizarre feeling for me. And I'm not sure if it was actually a mixed episode or what. Almost like I was drunk for days on end. My head was quite literally spinning. It was almost as if there were so many voices and thoughts in my head that I was literally blinded.

I knew it was more towards mania becuase everything around me seemed to move so freakishly, ungodly slow. My road rage (and rage in general really) was seriously OUT of control.

But at the exact same time it was such a hopeless feeling. Like I was being SUCH a burden on everyone around me and no one would EVER understand me. I thought that the only way to stop everything was to run my car off the road. Or OD on something. Anything. Just to get it to stop.

How were you with sleeping during this time? It sounds like what you went through is similar to what's going on with me. I have a really short fuse with people right now, most of what people do just annoys me, especially my elderly mother in law.
She is senile and lives downstairs, and I feel like I have to avoid her or i'll flip my lid. She is so rude and expects my husband to do everything for her. Once something is done, she comes up with more things for him to do.
I was grocery shopping yesterday and this woman who didn't speak english was blatantly asking for where the welfare bread was, she was dressed well and her litte pig of a child was eating various sweets throughout the supermarket. It ENRAGED me and I kept giving her dirty looks and I wanted to punch her in the face. Afterwards I saw her leaving the store and I watched her to see what kind of a car she drives. It was a brand new (maybe 1 yr old) honda CRV. Clearly more expensive than the 2004 pickup truck my husband and I own. It really pisses me off that these freeloading foreigners come here with open hands saying "gimme gimme"... ok im sorry that was a rant.

Originally Posted by thebelljar12

Hi,

I have heard about mixed episodes but I really don't know how to clearly tell if I'm having one. I recently posted the "Am I coming to a Hypomanic episode?" thread.

Everything I read online is confusing and without real life examples, I feel like I don't understand it.

Has anyone on here had one and if so, what sypmtoms of depression did you have and what symptoms of mania did you have? Are they quick mood swings or do you literally feel them at the same time?

I have this feeling like I'm being torn between being lazy and staying in bed but I feel guilty about it and want to do so many things, that I end up doing nothing. HELP!

I just came out of one like 2 wks ago. Symptoms were, insomnia, paranoia, crying spells, anger, hostility, feelings of guilt, fatigue, agitation, racing thoughts, crying again.....yeah it was awful.

To me you sound more in a depressed episode. I ended up having to be hospitalized hc I was afraid I was gonna end up in a psychosis. I also had many meds changed.

Hope that helped.

[bunnifoo]

The kind of anger you are talking about is what I experience when I'm in a mixed state. I'm agitated, I have a lot of energy, I talk fast, and I'm pissed off at everyone. There have been times when it was all I could do to keep myself from pushing over store displays or throwing things because a sales person was "rude" or I got impatient.

Only the fear of getting arrested has kept me from being publicly destructive. Privately I've trashed my room, thrown things, screamed at the top of my lungs, ranted and raved against any kind of preceived slight. I become an aggressive, angry driver.

Then there are the crying jags and feelings of worthlessness. Sometimes I'm aware I'm out of control and it makes me upset and sometimes I'm not and my reactions seem perfectly rational.

Originally Posted by thebelljar12

How were you with sleeping during this time? It sounds like what you went through is similar to what's going on with me. I have a really short fuse with people right now, most of what people do just annoys me, especially my elderly mother in law.
She is senile and lives downstairs, and I feel like I have to avoid her or i'll flip my lid. She is so rude and expects my husband to do everything for her. Once something is done, she comes up with more things for him to do.
I was grocery shopping yesterday and this woman who didn't speak english was blatantly asking for where the welfare bread was, she was dressed well and her litte pig of a child was eating various sweets throughout the supermarket. It ENRAGED me and I kept giving her dirty looks and I wanted to punch her in the face. Afterwards I saw her leaving the store and I watched her to see what kind of a car she drives. It was a brand new (maybe 1 yr old) honda CRV. Clearly more expensive than the 2004 pickup truck my husband and I own. It really pisses me off that these freeloading foreigners come here with open hands saying "gimme gimme"... ok im sorry that was a rant.

BTW yo u were a foreigner too unless you're full blooded Native American.

[thebelljar12]

Originally Posted by passionskyy

BTW yo u were a foreigner too unless you're full blooded Native American.

I am a 3rd generation American. My great grandparents struggled and lived in the rat infested town of New Bedford. They were poor, worked their way out of it, never put out a hand or accepted help from the government. There is a HUGE difference, and this isn't the place to discuss it. I was bringing it up as an example because it really pissed me off.

[thebelljar12]

Originally Posted by bunnifoo

The kind of anger you are talking about is what I experience when I'm in a mixed state. I'm agitated, I have a lot of energy, I talk fast, and I'm pissed off at everyone. There have been times when it was all I could do to keep myself from pushing over store displays or throwing things because a sales person was "rude" or I got impatient.

Only the fear of getting arrested has kept me from being publicly destructive. Privately I've trashed my room, thrown things, screamed at the top of my lungs, ranted and raved against any kind of preceived slight. I become an aggressive, angry driver.

Then there are the crying jags and feelings of worthlessness. Sometimes I'm aware I'm out of control and it makes me upset and sometimes I'm not and my reactions seem perfectly rational.

bunnifoo, thanks for your reply.

When you do have a mixed episode, how long does it last? Is it when you dont have a "routine" and you're bored? Or does it happen when you're at work or a regular activity each day/each week?

How do you know its a mixed episode? I'm just curious if this was confirmed with your psychologist or not.

Do you have the conflicting thoughts all day long?

Originally Posted by thebelljar12

I am a 3rd generation American. My great grandparents struggled and lived in the rat infested town of New Bedford. They were poor, worked their way out of it, never put out a hand or accepted help from the government. There is a HUGE difference, and this isn't the place to discuss it. I was bringing it up as an example because it really pissed me off.

You're right this isn't the place to discuss this issue. I will say I like foreigners. I like different cultures and food and ideas, etc.

[bunnifoo]

I'm still wondering what welfare bread is., but you don't know the circumstances of what is going on. The car could have been borrowed, she could have had better circumstances until the economy crashed.

Depending on how old you are and how old your great grand parents are they never accepted a hand out because they probably wasn't a hand out. The social safety net that we know of happened after the Great Depression. But even during the Great Depression there were programs to try and get people working. For example there were a lot of work done on the public infrastructure and many of those jobs were created to help people work. Families were split up, people married at a very young age, kids went to work. And by kids I mean really really young kids.

Medicaid didn't exist until 1965. The Food stamp program as we know it didn't start until 1965 either. There was a pilot program that ran in the 30s but it was discontinued.

The economy sucks right now, ssome people have nice things because they bought it before they lost their jobs and what not. I know a couple who would love to sell their car and buy a cheaper one but they are underwater on their car and their house. So they drive the car and keep paying because it would cost them money to sell their car and get a "cheaper" car.

[thebelljar12]

Originally Posted by bunnifoo

I'm still wondering what welfare bread is., but you don't know the circumstances of what is going on. The car could have been borrowed, she could have had better circumstances until the economy crashed.

Depending on how old you are and how old your great grand parents are they never accepted a hand out because they probably wasn't a hand out. The social safety net that we know of happened after the Great Depression. But even during the Great Depression there were programs to try and get people working. For example there were a lot of work done on the public infrastructure and many of those jobs were created to help people work. Families were split up, people married at a very young age, kids went to work. And by kids I mean really really young kids.

Medicaid didn't exist until 1965. The Food stamp program as we know it didn't start until 1965 either. There was a pilot program that ran in the 30s but it was discontinued.

The economy sucks right now, ssome people have nice things because they bought it before they lost their jobs and what not. I know a couple who would love to sell their car and buy a cheaper one but they are underwater on their car and their house. So they drive the car and keep paying because it would cost them money to sell their car and get a "cheaper" car.

I appreciate you trying to give me another way to look at it. I unfortunately live in a city and there are are many MANY families who abuse the system. I can understand if people genuinely need it, it was designed to be in desperate times and only until people could get back on their feet.
In my neighborhood alone, there are at least 3 families on it. One of them has 2 generations of people that are sucking the tit of the government, the mother has 4 children with 3 different men, and now her oldest son is on welfare & foodstamps and section 8 (free housing). Her other sons live there. She has collected welfare for years now. I'm sorry, but for all the free vocational training programs and free career training in this city, there is just NO excuse. People continue to pop out kids so they get more money.
Another family has 2 children on free lunch (A family member of mine works at the local elementary school), they receive welfare, and are probably on section 8, the parents are "divorced" but the father stays there, he works for a construction company FULL TIME, yet his kids get free lunch. They are Brazilians. He owns property in Brazil.
So, hopefully opens your eyes to the abuse that happens with the welfare system. There is a lack of pride in the recent generations. The attitude is, what can I get for nothing, instead of, what can I accomplish if I work hard?

Originally Posted by bunnifoo

I'm still wondering what welfare bread is., but you don't know the circumstances of what is going on. The car could have been borrowed, she could have had better circumstances until the economy crashed.

Depending on how old you are and how old your great grand parents are they never accepted a hand out because they probably wasn't a hand out. The social safety net that we know of happened after the Great Depression. But even during the Great Depression there were programs to try and get people working. For example there were a lot of work done on the public infrastructure and many of those jobs were created to help people work. Families were split up, people married at a very young age, kids went to work. And by kids I mean really really young kids.

Medicaid didn't exist until 1965. The Food stamp program as we know it didn't start until 1965 either. There was a pilot program that ran in the 30s but it was discontinued.

The economy sucks right now, ssome people have nice things because they bought it before they lost their jobs and what not. I know a couple who would love to sell their car and buy a cheaper one but they are underwater on their car and their house. So they drive the car and keep paying because it would cost them money to sell their car and get a "cheaper" car.

My boy educated me on all that a couple of months ago. I can't believe I didn't know that, however most of my knowledge of history is from before the civil war. I need to educate myself on after the civil war up to now. I know recent history though. Like Clinton and Bush years, thanks for taking the time to write that.

Yeah what is welfare bread?

[FooZe]

Sorry, folks, this thread has drifted away from its original topic and turned political. I'm going to close it while we discuss what to do with it.