[bumble2u]

Feeling like no point and can't continue. as my key oard pulses i know this is not good. i ever

[A Red Panda]

Originally Posted by deepestwaters40

I'm new here at pc. Can someone tell me how you all use this thread so I don't do it wrong?

Just pop in and have a vent or a celebration about your day when you want to. If you want to comment on other people's days or give people hugs in here then go ahead.

[wiretwister]

the week from hell,, stress level thru the roof...may sneak some xenex I have hoarded...

[LostNAngry]

I feel and know my marriage is slowing dying. I am severely depressed and don't care about much at this point. I get so worn down with life... no sleep and this is how it goes. I am angry frustrated, hating being alive, and feel bad because there are so many people fighting to live. If I could I would switch with someone that is wishful and happy about living I would in a heartbeat. I feel bad when I see a sick child or person that has so much that they want to live for and here I am wishing it would all go away.........all of it. And to add to it my husband is/has run out of patience with my illnesses and now I am asking myself what do I do now?

[A Red Panda]

Originally Posted by Phoenix_1

I'm a sniveling quivering crying mess. In the last 7 days: major surgery, I had a spinal block instead of general anesthetic but 3 days on morphine and 3 more on massive doses of codeine added to whatever other meds they think I need plus my regular psych meds = 1 gigantic meltdown. I could feel it coming when I woke up this morning. I called and left a voice mail with my T. This hospital doesn't have an RPN in sight. I wonder if I should call my pdoc to see if I can get transferred to the other hospital instead of going home alone tomorrow.
BTW does anyone know how to give hugs using Tapatalk 4? I can say thanks but I can't figure out the hug part. Hugs to A Red Panda and Anxiety Girl.
Thank you for listening.

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Awww Phoenix!! I'm sorry that you're struggling At least the surgery is over and done with and it seems like the surgery had gone ok, right? Once you are off the pain meds hopefully things will level back out! I also hope you are able to get ahold of your T.

[deepestwaters40]

Just came off a lovely high of hypomania straight into a deep depression. This sucks. I wish I didn't have to keep fighting so hard at life. On the other hand, I know this can't last forever. It will get better even though it's so hard.

Originally Posted by Phoenix_1

I'm a sniveling quivering crying mess. In the last 7 days: major surgery, I had a spinal block instead of general anesthetic but 3 days on morphine and 3 more on massive doses of codeine added to whatever other meds they think I need plus my regular psych meds = 1 gigantic meltdown. I could feel it coming when I woke up this morning. I called and left a voice mail with my T. This hospital doesn't have an RPN in sight. I wonder if I should call my pdoc to see if I can get transferred to the other hospital instead of going home alone tomorrow.
BTW does anyone know how to give hugs using Tapatalk 4? I can say thanks but I can't figure out the hug part. Hugs to A Red Panda and Anxiety Girl.
Thank you for listening.

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I have unpredictable mood reactions to pain medications, certainly see if you can get a hold of your pdoc and see what he can do for you. Sending you home like this alone I would think is a terrible idea. My pdoc told me that if I were to be having elective surgery we would increase my mood stabilizers to compensate for the pain meds. I'm so sorry you are feeling so low, you were so hopeful the other day. all my best wishes.

Originally Posted by rainyday107

Been offline for a few weeks (perhaps more?) because I moved. Still in the middle of tons of unpacking. Had a burst of hypomania due to move stress, but it wasn't productive. Wrecked my sleep, spent money I can't afford on stuff I don't need, didn't eat for days, you guys know the drill. Felt fine and dandy at the time but now I'm feeling like crap.

Hmmm, this sounds pretty familiar! It's only been about a week offline (at the library now!), but we just moved too. We're midway through unpacking. Even though it's a small place (400 sqft) and we don't have a ton of stuff (though it feels like we do while in process...), it's freaking exhausting. Physically, anyway. Mind's pretty "active" though. BF's been trying to get me to go to sleep at a (semi-) reasonable hour, because, exactly as he put it, "when you don't sleep you get manic-y!" As if moving itself wasn't enough on our plate, one of our old housemates got really weird, unpleasant and irrational when we were getting the very last of our stuff out. Will spare you.

Not a great neighborhood, but we really LOVE being back to having a little place of our very own. The move has definitely done good things for our mental health. We are both "back" now from very dark places.

Well, wifi here is about to go off, and we need to get back to unpacking. SHOULD have internet again soon to be able to catch up with everyone here.

[AnxietyGirl916]

I'm super stressed and am back to the "I hate my job" phase, which typically throws me into depression.

Lamictal dose doubled and gave me tummy troubles. Hoping it was a one time deal.

Other than that, I'm hanging in there. Pdoc appt is next week.

[Victoria'smom]

I so want to break everything in sight (including people), I'm so angry (angry's not the right word), I'm trying to stay calm. Next week can't come fast enough.

[Axiom]

I am in a destructive mood. ----. And I'm going to the T. I think he's trying to control me. I should know better but I don't, even if I tell myself otherwise. I hope he's angry too. ----.

Please excuse my rudeness here, I am a very suspicious and short-fused person. I didn't add anyone because I'm suspicious. That wasn't intended to make sense unless it did.

[TippPatt]

So, it looks like a bunch of folks came back from where ever they were. Me too.

I was just busy - I won the case. I found out a something hurtful. I told off both my parental unit and the oldest of the step monsters - naturally neither will stop playing games with one another and trying to include me - something I have zero tolerance for, so that's still the same. I've seen my back doctor and made 'the plan' for the finish of the year, no surgery yet, but I'm fine with waiting for another year so that I don't blow the financial budget I've decided on. Haven't received the back cash yet from the settlement and have decided a good three month wait before any spending takes place - that I call 'the spree'. However, I'm spending on items for the upgrade of my home instead of just pissing the money away.

Tried to mow the lawn and can now barely move. Took meds yesterday to counter the pain and ended up falling asleep about every two hours. Whenever I'd wake up, I'd be outside again 'tinkering' trying to accomplish 'something' at least. This I think could be called 'mania while in pain'. Quite funny really.

All in all, I'm good. And, I hope you all are too. See, it's five a.m. and I went to sleep at 3 a.m. after waking up in my chair in the living room with the last thing I remember being somewhere at 9:30 p.m.

Strange

It's all good right now. Sleep obviously helps. So I am going to sleep. Bye,

[Moreta]

The chiropractor isn't really helping anymore. I went home and cooked last night after and adjustment, and felt so much pain after standing for 30 mins.

I go see my therapist today, i didn't do half my homework. Oh well. We'll see how the appt goes.

I feel fine today, just in pain, but what's new?

[anneo59]

not good at all today. Our family was just getting our stuff together again, but very fragile when hub's company is now dropping insurance on me and one of our grown sons. And several other things going on. Please, prayers if you pray, and warm thoughts. Thanks. I'm trying not to be terrified and paranoid or scared or sad. . . .don't know how we are going to manage now, very strained around here, tough, trying to stay positive and focused on problem solving. . . .I know I'm not alone!!!

[Phoenix_1]

I feel better today. No more crying. I spoke with my pdoc briefly yesterday but of course I had no privacy in my hospital room so I couldn't say much. I'll call him when I get home. I spoke to my T yesterday and again this morning. If I'm not admitted to the other hospital my T is coming to do a home visit with me Friday afternoon.

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[roads]

I've been trying to get my act together (by which I mean my mind and my body) for hours now and still am not quite ready to get up and out and going. The meds are finally beginning to kick enough that my mind is not associating--that's good, if I'm going to be driving and going to work. I can feel my feet enough to keep my balance, I think, and walk a straight line ... more or less. That's good!
I really lose patience with all this every morning I have to go through this, and now it extends far past morning. But at least once I get going, my mood picks up. And if I'm lucky, by 5 o'clock I'll be fine.
Take care, y'all.

[Amelie10]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Not sure how I feel today, I feel good but I also feel very unmotivated and motivated at the same time, it sounds strange but I have so many things I want to do but I can't seem to get enough energy to do even one of them.

This is how I feel most of the time when I am "stable." I'm okay, I don't feel sad or anxious, but I do not feel motivated to do anything.

It's better than being depressed for sure, but I wish I could just tap into a little bit of hypo energy without it going full blown.

[AnxietyGirl916]

Feeling like I want to isolate. Easily irritated and agitated. Lots of stress at work and with family.

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[medicalfox]

I'm really tired and I don't understand why. I over slept today and missed my yoga class which gave me a melt down. After dinner I went back to bed and slept for an hour. I'm at work now and I have no energy. I just want to go back to bed. I don't understand what's wrong with me and it's been making me very angry. I can't tell if it's depression creeping up on me or my antipsychotis and antianxiety meds making me tired.

[rodbInNc]

3 weeks ago, my access to meds was cut off. Been taking lithium and effexor and Kpins. Have BP1 and panic disorder. Been splitting my Lith and Effexor. Concern=Had a "breakdown" dream last nite. Lots of issues and an ex who was at the focal point of my original breakdown in 2007.
Okay--is my breakdown dream indication of things to come..a precursor so to speak ..or is it a warning...or was it just a dream.
You are welcome to email me as I really don't know how these forums work.

Ugg...Thanks..Rod B in NC

[Blue_Bird]

Feeling pretty good today Yesterday I felt on edge like I was going to crash into depression but it didn't happen thankfully

Today has been ok, no anxiety for work for the last two days so yay! But tonight has been worse. My best friend is in hospital with a broken ankle and I cant chat to her like I usually do and my best distraction method is the internet which is working intermittently at best. Im not exactly sure what is going on. I've not been 'right' much of the day but I cant work out why. Its just getting worse tonight. I've tried some coping techniques but they arnt making an impact on the inner feeling. I can feel the 'bad' energy coming back. Im trying to eat so I can take my meds but its so hard to eat when you cant even breathe properly. I dont want to resort to PRN meds as I know this will pass. How long it will take to pass and how to cope is another question.

[A Red Panda]

I feel a bit better than I have the last few days.

I think it's because the terror of seeing the pdoc and then the terror of facing my T after I told him I was NOT going to go back to the pdoc is done and over with.

I am hoping that I am going to start coming out of the depression. It's bound to let up soon, normally mild ones only last a month or two. I spent some of July, all of August, and so far all of September depressed, so it's gotta let up soon right?

[Axiom]

This is too confusing. I can't figure this out.