Yay me! I love my blog!

yeah, but that's only if she reads this. otherwise, I will be fine. I always am. I just don't always share what's on the inside at home. Actually, I rarely do. No one at home seems to understand that I will still cycle somewhat and have out of control emotions and that it is ok, that I will deal with them. that the meds are really working good and keeping me sane lol.

oh well, that's why I came here, to be understood.

okay, lets make that two o'clock!

I'm sorry landskaperdan. I hope that it gets better for you.

thank you! I hope so too! and fast lol.

Are you able to focus on coping skills ? Mindfulness and grounding skills can make a huge difference.

Good luck

yeah, now that I have calmed down and the day is growing older, I can ground myself and get perspective. Thank you!

I made it through my trial run today! not so great, but could've been worse.

by trial run, for anyone that does not know, my first day home alone since last summer, when being alone was NOT a good thing lol.

so I was expecting to see a big difference today. still don't do good alone, but I had the group to get me through...

so thank you group!

and without falling into old habits OR blowing up the forum!!!!!!

exhausted! I have like, no motivation to get ready. just want to sleep lol. I think I'll have to go sit in the shower and let the water wake me up now. lol... see ya all later!

Hi Dan, it seems like right now the bulk of your anxiety is with wife reading your post on here, no?
Can you ask her to let this be you 'own' personal outlet, for it to be private?
Then she wouldn't get any surprises.
Know today was a tough day, first trial day alone but seems like you worked thru it, something to be proud of!
Anyway it's good to see you back on.
BTW I read waaaay more than I post.

I've read your posts before, but I just don't understand the phrase 'blowing up the forum'?? Please enlighten lol

when I post so much that it leaves no room for anyone else. Like, one thread after the next and after the next lol

it didn't start out that way, but ended up that way lol.

And success! got gas and hit the bank! that is...lol... after I dragged myself into the shower. feel much better, my oldest is home now. Got my dad face on

Love to hear successes! Hope tomorrow brings the same

ahhh I see. Thank you And congrats on having a successful day

Ahhh I get it - u got combined - ur threads lol
Good job buddy hehe

Yeah, what is this? The best of? Lmao!

I know right lol!! Oh well... How's ur night going?

All I can say is I just got highly confused by the jumping around of topics.

I was told that I flooded the forum with my five threads :\

five threads in eight hours.....

So they got combined.