[littlemiss44]

I.have so much anxiety cause social security is looking over my case to make sure I'm still disabled. This is very common...after a few years they always reevaluate but this is my first time and I'm freaked out! I'm stable and managing my symptoms because I dont have to hold down a ft job. I work very pt and enjoy getting out of the house. My pdoc said I have nothing to worry about but I still Am! It comes with the territory of having bp2, bpd, depression, anxiety and ptsd. Has anyone else had to go through a revaluation of their disability through social security? Please hero if you can. This has caused me to go into a hypo state as I'm very aggitated and full of fear and worry. I'm constantly ruminating and I want off this roller coaster. Anyone? Thank you.

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[Unrigged64072835]

Really sleepy. All I want to do is stay in bed. Not interested in much of anything. Don't feel hopeless, though, so that's a plus.

[Alone & confused]

Shhhhhhhhh! if anybody asks......you haven't seen me!
(there's entirely tooooo many people in my house! Babies & teenagers as far as the eye can see! help!! )

[Axiom]

Slight manic/hypomanic shopping spree. But I still remember that I need to pay the bills first. Bookmarked 35 pieces of clothing and a headset, need to wait until bf checks how much money I have left after the bills first. Hate waiting! Oh, the pain!!!

[littlemiss44]

Can totally relate the waiting is the hardest part!

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[Axiom]

When I was 16 I swore I would never do anything I would regret later.

Oops.

Still happy about the clothes though.

So torn. Feel like I should leave the house even just for a coffee, but I don't want to.

[Phoenix_1]

Originally Posted by RR18

So torn. Feel like I should leave the house even just for a coffee, but I don't want to.

I know how you feel. I have to go out to buy milk and a bus pass, but the very thought fills me with terrible anxiety.

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I know how hard it can be to leave the house guys, but please do try. It almost an impossible task but the more you do it the better off you will be. Goodluck

[MagicsMom]

I am full of anxiety because I have to have a mental status exam to see if I get approved for disability. My anxiety is at a 10 and it's making me hypomanic. I have to go on Tuesday and I know that worrying will not change the outcome but I cannot help it.

[x_BabyG_x]

Today I am feeling... Lonely. I've recently just cut ties with a guy I was seeing as I was gaining nothing from the "friendship". I was beginning to feel used and unworthy. Not good. It sucked big time! I just feel like I have so much to give and I yearn for that bond with someone, like a physical need for it. One day!

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[Hopeful Camel]

I'm pretty chipper. Started to turn into a turbo freak and spin out of control, but for some reason I caught myself and sat down. That is my new mantra: sit down. I just sit down. It works pretty good. So here I am.

[Roblovescats]

Originally Posted by Axiom

When I was 16 I swore I would never do anything I would regret later.

Oops.

Still happy about the clothes though.

Hmm? When I was 16 I swore I would never regret doing anything I would do!

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[Renay1984]

Anxious, I just want an answer to a question and for some reason my posts don't seem to appear on the threads... not even sure if THIS one will actually appear.

[Phoenix_1]

Originally Posted by Supanova

I know how hard it can be to leave the house guys, but please do try. It almost an impossible task but the more you do it the better off you will be. Goodluck

I did get my errands done today. Then while I was waiting for the bus to go home I bought a new purse. Oops. It goes well with the 20 purses I already have.

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[Roblovescats]

Originally Posted by Phoenix_1

I did get my errands done today. Then while I was waiting for the bus to go home I bought a new purse. Oops. It goes well with the 20 purses I already have.

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I think there are much worse vices than buying purses. Maybe if you look through all of them you can find enough money to get another one tomorrow too!!!


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[LadyShadow]

Had a good day today, woke up a bit late and with a headache, but the weather was warm and I got some fresh air. Was feeling a bit low for a while but I actually got up and did some exercise! I feel so proud of myself.

[Axiom]

Just woke up, bad mood.. feel fragile and energized... trying not to read stuff that will trigger me.. sorry.

Originally Posted by Phoenix_1

I did get my errands done today. Then while I was waiting for the bus to go home I bought a new purse. Oops. It goes well with the 20 purses I already have.

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Well done!! Im super proud. I hope that doesnt sound condescending but I think that was a great effort on your part and at times people take me the wrong way, I do not intend it that way at all. I am a very genuine person.

Today has been full of anxiety and depression. Anxiety started from the waking hallucination, then continued when I was moved very quickly to another room and did not receive a key to lock up my belongs for a few hours so I was paranoid something would be stolen. Plus a bad experience on this particular ward in the past (just been moved off the acute ward). And the guy across the hall is very loud and abusive towards nurses. I think it wont be long til he's sent elsewhere, they cant handle him very well here, nor can they force anything on him.

My body aches all over. I feel exhausted. I tried to be mindful in craft group and succeeded quite well but now coming back to my room its hit me like a ton of bricks. I feel awful. I miss my horse and my life and just want to be well enough to function at home. Signed up for meditation tonight so I hope that helps. Right now Im trying distractions on the net to keep me going but I dont think it will be long before I reach for the nurse bell.

Hope you are all enjoying your weekends

[Curiosity77]

I just got home from an Alice in Wonderland themed electroswing dance party. I was dressed as the Queen of Hearts. I was with a group of friends that I haven't seen in months. I've been avoiding social gatherings over the winter because of low mood and anxiety. Tonight I decided to go out, and I had a pretty good time. It wasn't amazing, but it was fun. I think I was the only sober person in the entire club, most people seemed high on E. I felt kind of left out because of that, but nothing I can do about that. I stayed for quite awhile, but left before my friends because I'd had enough. Now I'm home, and wide awake, and it's almost 3. I kind of think I should have stayed, but anxiety sent me home. Oh well, at least I went, so that's something.

[x_BabyG_x]

I've been battling with this all day. Up and down so fast I can't keep track of it. It's like I'm mixed. Went for a run and did 300 squats to try and shake the anxiety off, exercise always helps if temporarily.

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[Axiom]

Why don't we have a poetry thread anymore?

[charo224488]

Originally Posted by Renay1984

Anxious, I just want an answer to a question and for some reason my posts don't seem to appear on the threads... not even sure if THIS one will actually appear.

Your post appeared! What do you need an answer to? (BTW- Welcome!)

[Unrigged64072835]

Since I've been on Lamictal and Zyprexa my depression doesn't come in as a total knockdown cry fest. It's more like I don't want to move, I don't want to get out of bed, and I'm only breathing because I have to, okay? And when I actually do something, I get really anxious. Joy.

[Alone & confused]

I have GOT to find a way to get my head right! I've got SO MUCH that HAS TO GET DONE but my "want to" is broken! Some way , somehow I've got to tap into the hidden strength that lies dormant deep within!