[complic8d]

I'm up, then I'm down, then I'm up, then down, and on and on and on. I can't figure out what triggers what and when or how I am going to be at any given time.
AAARRRRRGGGHHHH!!!!!!

[darkeyes]

((((((((((( complic8d )))))))))))

Maybe it would help, if you talk to your pdoc about this, maybe he or she can give you some professional insight?
I hope things work out and you get some stability with this, mood stabilizers are extremely helpful for this.
Just may take a little time,work with your pdoc on different med options,not all meds work for everyone, there are ones that can work wonders.
Lots of luck getting the rollercoaster under control.
Please take care,
DE

[bizi]

Dear Complicated.
I think you said that you are taking trileptal?
I was taking it at a dose of 1500mg a day in divided doses.
When I started to escalate my pdoc upped the dose and I became hyponatrimia...low sodium...and we had to switch to lamictal.
FOR me...looking back...it was not a good mood stabilizer...again for me.
I don't know how long we are supposed to wait to know if a med is working or not.
What does your pdoc say about all of this.
Have you found any local support groups?
I am so sorry that you are experiencing this rollar coaster...it is hello isn't it.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

[biplol]

{{{{{compli}}}}}
I know, I'm there with you, you know what, make room, becuase if this is going to be a bumpy ride for life, at least I want somebody used to the up and downs~lol.
Just kidding to make you feel a bit better. Hon you are not alone, and I know the tiredness of it.
Hang in there~

[CowOne1231]

You are definitely not alone. I may be new to this, but it exhausts me too, so I try to talk myself through it when it feels the worst. I hope you feel better.

[maureen]

At first when I was falling ito a depression, I had always blamed it on my ex-boyfriend. He got thrills from putting me through the "Battered Wife Syndrome" although I was not married to him. I was with him 11 years. The tension would build up in him, then he would be in a rage sometimes for 3 weeks (mostly deflection and defensiveness due to me telling him he had hurt me).
I would analyze the cycles (after the rage we would be in the so called
"Honeymoon period" until his tension began to build up again. Bi-polars (this is textbook) CANNOT be with people who cause crazy-making behavior!
I have been out of that relationship for 31/2 years. I finally terminated it. Yes, certainly I still come across the triggers or the bumps in the road which still cause me to fall into an abyss, but now since I've read so much about triggers (a major issue for BP's; it is called the kindleing effect) like a fire just beginning to have sparks but turns into a full-blown fire. I'm going through a trigger which you can read under "My Guilt" and "Feeling sorry for myself." Dealing with the issue of relationships, I can see the red flags immediately so I'm not going to allow myself to be triggered by an abusive boyfriend. But surprisingly enough I'm still having triggers and my ex-boyfriend has the audacity to say "See, it wasn't me."
Right now triggers are that I almost couldn't be enrolled into a 500 level class at LBUCS and the black claw actually came into my brain. Now I'm fairly severely depressed which I mentioned on the above sites
Regarding being sick of the rollercoaster; I am too. But all I can do is analyze each ride down to prevent another one similar happening like it.
Maureen