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#826
Jul 05, 2014, 02:47 PM
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After drowning my cares in a pitcher of Margaritas, I NO LONGER CARE about what I was previously pissed off about!
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#827
Jul 05, 2014, 04:01 PM
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Just another day today. Not happy, not sad, just here. I have the urge to just take a little extra medication and just go to sleep for the night. I just want today to end and see what tomorrow will bring.
I have no interest in anything today. No TV, no music which is very unusual for me. Not interested in talking to anyone. I just don't seem to want anything today. 
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The struggle you're in today is developing the strength you need for tomorrow Don't give up |
 Anonymous45023, nummy
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#828
Jul 05, 2014, 05:23 PM
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Been doing quite well. But yesterday and today, not so much. Yesterday especially. Won't go into why, but exasperated. Amped into agitation and fury. Ended up bashing my head against a wall 3x. Last one probably should've given me a concussion. Was disappointed it didn't. Before doing something really stupid, decided to knock myself out (medicinally) and sleep. Did, then got up for a couple of hours, then back to bed. Not counting those, 17 hours sleeping. Today, still pretty agitated. Thinking about going out and riding the buses and trains. Just wherever. I'm anxious about being out in public (different reason), but staying put is helping nothing and I don't know what else to do. Argh!
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| Anonymous200280, nummy
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#829
Jul 05, 2014, 06:28 PM
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Doing better than yesterday. My boyfriend is here for a while to see if he can get a job and help us have a place to stay while I go to school.
Two of our friends want to share an apartment with us. There are more objective pros than cons, really - the apartment we are looking at includes a washer and dryer, electricity and water is relatively cheap, and has two master bedrooms with a full bathroom in each. Not to mention that, split between the two pairs of us, it would be about 493 per month in rent (cheaper than anything in the area by far). However, the two friends made it fairly clear that I would need a job while going to school full time. They hinted that I just need to "put my big girl pants on" and just sort of get over my illness and grow up. They've never seen me cut in the bathroom of my work. They haven't been around when my jobs made me so suicidal I became physically ill. They don't know how hard it is to get out of bed every day alone. School is the only thing I've done well at. Because of that conversation, I went home and self harmed. Almost made seven weeks. Now I have to start over again. Day one of not self harming.
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"We are more than the worst thing that's ever happened to us. All of us need to stop apologizing for having been to hell and come back breathing. Your bad dreams are battle scars. What doesn't kill you cuts you f****** deep but scars are just skin growing back thicker when it heals." ~ Clementine von Radics Bipolar type 2 complex PTSD GAD Depression possibly OCD |
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#830
Jul 05, 2014, 08:41 PM
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Don't take any chances You are worth so much to us. Alcohol and meds are a dangerous combo Be safe |
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#831
Jul 05, 2014, 10:34 PM
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Feeling VERY isolated. My mood has been ALL OVER THE PLACE tonight. From curled up in bed crying to outside exercising harder and faster than I have in a long time to back inside isolating away from everyone again. ED is in full swing as well. My t's office will call sometime next week. Could be as early as Monday. God, it better be Monday. I'm a mess.
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"I have the choice of being constantly active and happy or introspectively passive and sad. Or I can go mad by ricocheting in between." Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath |
| Anonymous45023, nummy, swheaton
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#832
Jul 05, 2014, 11:47 PM
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I'm here
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| nummy, swheaton
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#833
Jul 06, 2014, 12:02 AM
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I am here too. My mood for the past several days has been depressed. But I am still fully functional. Lately I have been having short duration swings into significant depression. I think exercise or doing something different may be in order.
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Bipolar II and GAD Venlafaxine, Lamotragine, Buspirone, Risperidone |
| nummy
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#834
Jul 06, 2014, 12:30 AM
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 From riding the buses and trains, that is. I have a bad hip, and though it held out alright (I'll probably be "paying retail" tomorrow for the extra walking though…), I am really tired. Too tired to be agitated! So, I guess it worked. Ate some food, accidentally saw a bit of free theatre, and relaxed at a fountain park. Got a pack of nice incense, will light some and relax with my guinea pig now.  Then off to bed. At a decent hour! 
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#835
Jul 06, 2014, 03:10 AM
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1 am and i'm not at all tired. My day was pretty chill. I went on a double date to see the Hump Festival tonight, which was awesome. I'm feeling pretty good these days. It's nice
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"Does the body rule the mind, or does the mind rule the body?" "Those who feel the breath of sadness, sit down next to me. Those feel they're touched my madness, sit down next to me. Those who find themselves ridiculous, sit down next to me." |
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#837
Jul 06, 2014, 08:04 AM
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Today is going to be a better day, I can feel it. The inconsistencies of this mixed episode can really play with your mind.
I did take a little extra Serequel last night but maybe it wasn't such a bad thing. I had 8 hours of good sleep last night. The first time in about 3 months. I'm going to take the same dose tonight and see if maybe this should be my bedtime dose and if it works I'll contact my pdoc and let her know.
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The struggle you're in today is developing the strength you need for tomorrow Don't give up |
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#838
Jul 06, 2014, 10:07 AM
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Still feeling "down", for lack of a better term. I've changed my ad to Zoloft, I'm hoping it helps. Little stuff is annoying me like crazy..
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| Anonymous45023, mysticalmusic
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#839
Jul 06, 2014, 11:08 AM
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I don't know if anyone remembers the old expression
Today is the first day of the rest of my life That is exactly how I feel today I feel hope |
| Skitz13
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#840
Jul 06, 2014, 12:27 PM
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I'm meeting up with a person I met online on girlfriendsocial.com. I am so damn nervous. WTF am I going to talk about? I don't have much going on in my life. BLAH.
We also have $45 in our bank account, and my husband doesn't get paid until wed. Now I feel bad for buying $17 worth of clothes. I did get 2 dresses and 4 shirts, so I think I did pretty well. I don't feel sui anymore, so I'm just going to tell them I'm not going to do the day program b/c it messes with my work and I'm trying to get this job permanently. |
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Jul 06, 2014, 05:01 PM
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)Despite being so tired, and taking sleep aid, could not get to sleep last night. Restless motions. Took another med after 3 hours of that nonsense. So, late start. Still peeved (situational), but more detached about it. |
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#842
Jul 06, 2014, 09:26 PM
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Cool day at the movies with my girls
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#SpoonieStrong Spoons are a visual representation used as a unit of measure to quantify how much energy individuals with disabilities and chronic illnesses have throughout a given day. 1). Depression 2). PTSD 3). Anxiety 4). Hashimoto 5). Fibromyalgia 6). Asthma 7). Atopic dermatitis 8). Chronic Idiopathic Urticaria 9). Hereditary Angioedema (HAE-normal C-1) 10). Gluten sensitivity 11). EpiPen carrier 12). Food allergies, medication allergies and food intolerances. . 13). Alopecia Areata |
| mysticalmusic
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#843
Jul 06, 2014, 11:47 PM
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Called 911 for my mother who collapsed outside on the ground. For a moment there I thought she passed. I was a little rattled when I called for help. She is staying overnight at the hospital.
I feel better now. I am not depressed like I have been this last week. I guess I was stewing in my own juices so to speak. Now I have something important to think about. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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Bipolar II and GAD Venlafaxine, Lamotragine, Buspirone, Risperidone |
| Anonymous200280, Anonymous45023, Skitz13
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#844
Jul 07, 2014, 10:26 AM
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This morning I walked my dog
The sun was shining The air was cool And all was right with the world |
| mysticalmusic, sarahblue, Skitz13
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#845
Jul 07, 2014, 12:07 PM
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Went to the ENT dr. He did a scope and my adenoid is inflamed and infected. Now I get to do antibiotics for 10 days. He also told me to stop smoking, so I'm going to try tomorrow. This stresses me out. Not smoking. What the hell am I going to do. I'm going to get patches tonight. Hopefully it'll work.
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| mysticalmusic, sarahblue
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#846
Jul 07, 2014, 01:02 PM
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I haven't been doing much since Friday. I had signed up to do a volunteer shift -- the first one in quite a while. So I got up, showered, drove the 20 minutes to get there -- and they were closed. Apparently, they didn't bother to update their automatic volunteering system.
I signed up for another volunteer shift, then realized that it was at the same time as therapy. Signed up for ANOTHER shift, and now realize that it's tomorrow, and I also want to go to yoga in the morning, and it's probably too much, plus I want to go to an Al-Anon meeting tonight...yeah. Starting to panic, and yet at the same time I just don't have the energy for this.
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| Anonymous200280, lonelychick, mysticalmusic
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#847
Jul 07, 2014, 03:08 PM
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Saw my T this morning. Starting all the"trauma" work from my past. It's not helping my mood much.
It makes me a little nervous because I'm just starting to gradually come out of a mixed episode and I'm worried about being triggered back into another episode. The deal is... I set the pace and the rules
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The struggle you're in today is developing the strength you need for tomorrow Don't give up |
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#848
Jul 07, 2014, 04:40 PM
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I feel really good except maybe not getting enough sleep! I go to bed about 10:00p after I take 100 mg. of Trazodone. I toss and turn, the Trazodone does help but I'm still am restless. I also suffer from Restless Leg Syndrome! I take 80mg of extended release capsules of Propranolol for the tremors. But it doesn't help with the sensations and pain. I just don't want to relapse into a manic episode where I drink to try to control my mania. I am taking all my medication for bipolar and other conditions. I take Effexor xr 150 mg and 30 mg. of abilify. Just don't want to go back to where I was. It scares the hell out of me. Thank you for your time.
Tanja 
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#849
Jul 07, 2014, 09:23 PM
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I feel mixed right now, but today was a busy, productive work day.
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I'm a person living with bipolar I disorder and borderline personality disorder.
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#850
Jul 07, 2014, 09:34 PM
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Helped my cousin with schizophrenia apply for disability
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#SpoonieStrong Spoons are a visual representation used as a unit of measure to quantify how much energy individuals with disabilities and chronic illnesses have throughout a given day. 1). Depression 2). PTSD 3). Anxiety 4). Hashimoto 5). Fibromyalgia 6). Asthma 7). Atopic dermatitis 8). Chronic Idiopathic Urticaria 9). Hereditary Angioedema (HAE-normal C-1) 10). Gluten sensitivity 11). EpiPen carrier 12). Food allergies, medication allergies and food intolerances. . 13). Alopecia Areata |
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