Fear appointment tomorrow

What will NP say about the "un-normal" thoughts? I've done some research and I fear hearing her say that word..."officializing" my nighttime "craziness"(no offense). Maybe I'll call and cancel since during the day I seem to be okay and at night I stay in bed.

Although I am starting to "rev" up a bit early tonight. Done journaling at night. I don't want to read my un-normal thoughts. Wish I never posted or journaled. It's making me really nervous bout tomorrow.

It would be best to keep it and share with your doctor what's going on. The only way you can get better is working with your doctor and in order to work with your doctor you have to be truthful.

I feel you though, I'm having delusions that seem to be the worst at night and I'm worried about my doctor appt on Monday. I've thought about canceling but my gf won't let me. I really want to get rid of these and I just keep telling myself that it's for my own good.

Hang in there, you'll be fine.

Don't let the fear of what you "might hear" stop you from hearing what you "might need to." (In NO WAY am I saying it's what will be said or needs to.)

Nobody likes those types of words placed on them but sometimes it's those words spoken from outside opinions that can help.

And as for the writings, you shouldn't regret them, some of the most creative and inspiring pieces ever written were written by people speaking with true emotions through honest uncensored thoughts.



I've gone go into my Pdoc appointments trembling with anxiety from what I might say but in the end was glad I said them. It gave her introspect on what I was struggling with internally.

I think the responses are right on. Don't let fear of the outcome prevent you from going to your doc. I think it's important to know one way or the other.

Yeah I'm going. I need to. If my lack of sleep continues it's gonna make the thoughts worse. Right? Plus I'd have to pay anyway cuz it's not 24 hour notice.

I'm just dreading it. Those thoughts are starting to slip back in now. I need to go so we can knock them out before they are an all day affair.

Just be honest . There is nothing you can tell them that they haven't heard before .. It's true.

You need help to feel better.. You have had a rough time lately, let them help you calm things back down.

Hardest thing I ever had to do in this arena was tell my pdoc after I'd overdosed on Ativan. But that was when the healing began.....he didn't judge me. Your NP won't judge you either---believe me, there's probably nothing she hasn't heard. And she can't help you if she doesn't know what's wrong.

My mother always used to say there were three people you were never supposed to lie to: your priest, your lawyer, and your doctor (or in your case, your NP). They can't do much for you if you don't tell them the whole truth. Wishing you the best.

Well, tomorrow morning is the day. Right before I leave I plan to make a copy of the page of notes from the last 10 days...including the thoughts. I get queasy just thinking about tomorrow but I am going to be totally honest with her if it's the only thing I do while there.

Feeling twisted up bout tomorrow. And I feel my thoughts going haywire again. Errr...Ihate this. I better go...it's getting bad quick. I sense little to no sleep tonight.

((((Melissa))))

Mind if I hop in your pocket and support you a little bit today? We call them pocket riders. It's a great way to feel supported by the PC community!

Hopping in Melissa's pocket if she's okay with it, getting comfy for the ride.

Totally ok with it. Just waiting for her to come get me.