I was wondering if anyone else has been sobbing over Robin Williams death?

Like Wise! Its really sad that something like this has to happen to wake people up.

Ok my turn!

My heart sunk, its horrible that you feel that sad and lost to resort to death. How lonely he must have felt. That pit of darkness sucks you down, Ive been there to many times.

As an actor, yeah his stuff was/is great. As a person, I never knew him, I cant judge. I will not cry over a person I dont know.

Now I pray for his family. Looking for answers and questioning how they could have made a difference at the time. Feeling guilty that they left him alone and if they only knew how bad it really was at that time. The "if only" and "I should have" and "why didnt I" and "If I only would have". They are lost right now. They need prayers.

Im angry at the public who is more absorbed how he died, with what he did it with, and who found him. Laying flowers at his house and star is fine. Do it and leave, give the family space. Report something else in the world other this his death. Stop glamorizing it.

It sounds like they were not sleeping in the same room. According to what I've heard, his wife saw him last at 10:30 Sunday evening when she went to her room to sleep. She left the house around 10 a.m. Monday morning, assuming he was asleep in his room.

I'll probably catch hell for this, but frankly I would rather hear about Robin Williams' life and death, and any memorial service that's being held in San Francisco (which is just a few miles from where Robin Williams lived in the town of Tiburon) than I would about the political games being played in Iraq. I would like to attend his memorial service in SF because Robin was someone I grew up with, was so fortunate to meet, and deeply mourn the death of.

It's a little closer to home, isn't it. I don't think your sentiment is misplaced.

I'm just really sullen since. Because I can relate, because I don't blame him, because he had an impact on me through his work. Because I wish he could see how missed he is.

Yeah I was surprised at how his death affected me. I cried in the evening and in the morning... It's just chilling because it makes me think that it could happen to me, you could suffer and fight for so long and just... not be able to do it anymore. That scares the crap out of me because I want to live.

The headline I first saw about his death shocked me a bit and left me really sad; yet I also felt a bit understood. Understood since I've wanted the same thing. Understood since he was an actor I really liked, and I don't normally pay ANY attention to actors. Seriously, I'd have to google Matt Damon (that's an actor's name, right?) to make sure if he's who I'd guess he is. But Robin Williams I knew and admired. I even knew the names of so many of his movies I saw, and felt understood by. Mrs. Doubtfire, Goodwill Hunting, Good Morning Vietnam. I felt understood by his characters' blends of humor, sadness, grief, love, tenderness, and sense of in/justice. In a way that let me feel the positive emotions were as real as the negative ones. (As real, not more real.) I felt sad, but understood, knowing that, in his end, he felt the negative ones were as genuine as I often believe they are.

Someone on acebook had the gail to say that depression doesnt exist that it was his choice and a personality flaw! I gave that person a piece of my mind! Of curse he doesnt believe in mental illness in general

My pdoc asked me what my opinion was of Robin Williams' death and then pointed out we have the exact same diagnosis. Great. My pdoc was visibly upset about it though. I got choked up when telling my H about it.

I don't understand Fox News. I can't believe someone would say that on tv, regardless of personal opinion. It is beyond cruel. With people like that, I always think, "It's all fun and games until it happens to you."

I was in grade school when Mork and Mindy first aired and feel like I grew up with him. It was his extraordinary humanity and kindness that makes his death so painful. I know that kind of desperation and it's a miracle I'm even alive. I cry at every suicide no matter who it is. When I interned in a state hospital, I had to quit because the things I saw people go through was so awful and familiar that I couldn't disconnect from it enough to help anyone. As my bro says, The mind is a terrible thing (He also suffers from mental illness)

I've been watching the documentary, "The Bridge" about the suicides on Golden Gate Bridge. It's completely heartbreaking and I can only watch it in little segments. It's an important film though, and I believe these people deserve to have their story heard. I don't care if they are homeless, or whatever, it's still horrible. What really blew me away, was to see and hear of the strangers who saw these suicidal people and either intervened or immediately notified the guards, mostly in tears. It's nice to know that people can still be good and kind even if it's someone they don't know.

Polibeth- I did the same thing with my shrink today!

Lilypup - that's awesome that your going to speak there. I must check out your blog. Is it on this site or is it separate? Pardon my ignorance about blogging - I'm an old lady and tech confuses me

Btw thanks for everybody's response! I don't feel like such a weirdo now. You guys are awesome

I know what you mean about the stats. Personally, I think because he had fought for so long, he just couldn't do it another day. I don't think that's anything unusual. I was also sad about Phillip and Heath Ledger, Cobain, and the list goes on (sadly)

Ok, I feel stupid now - I just saw your blog link under your signature. See what I mean about my tech knowledge?

Yes. I'd only briefly gotten on the computer to check email. Signing out of email, there it was. No. Nonononononono. Straight to scopes. Maybe it's not real. Tell me it's not real, ok? S****. BF wonders what's up. Relayed, haltingly. Then just sat there and cried. I don't follow celebrity stuff, don't even have a tv. But there are some people….that one is just really inclined toward. People whose impact you feel. You FEEL it. And the relatability of the intensity. Talking that fast, thinking that fast. YES!!!
Then there's the other side. Hearing confirmation. The chill that hits way too close to the bone. The thing you wouldn't wish on anyone. That place. The familiarity of that place. Cry for him.
Cry for me.
Cry for us.
What a horrible place we know.
Walking a little to the left of actual location. Kind of lost. Kind of overly-tune in, all at once.
Found myself fervently hoping it wouldn't come up at work. Because I knew I'd hear ignorant crap and it would make me angry. And did not know how I would be able to temper my response, feeling it this intensely. It's too close.
(In no small miracle, it did not come up.)
Yesterday was more a stunned numb. Today, reality invades and disturbs in waves.

It sucks. On so many levels.
I can't imagine not crying over it.

Well depression, the illness, continues to be largely misunderstood by different people.

It's the end of the week and I'm STILL crying over his death. He was my childhood.

Definitely. I had someone say that he chose to not be depressed instead of me blaming it on something else (my diagnosis). He thought I enjoyed being sick, as if it was a ploy to get attention. I don't think he had actual mood disorder, because I don't think bipolar can be cured from our willpower. Why do people have to be so mean?!

Yeah I've heard people say to me about wanting attention and people being judgemental critical of me, and not believing, dismissing illness.

I went to A&E and staff there said that i don't have medical problem. Therapists have dismissed, been ignorant of my illness and difficult experiences I've had too.

His death served a great purpose, finally the TRUTH about mental illness is coming to light.
I saw a well-written article today on CNN, and because he was so famous and successful, people are finally realizing that mental illness affects all kinds of people.

Unfortunately many people don't get it still, don't believe understand depression as illness and make unhelpful remarks.

It's sad but one thing I did not fully understand is if he was bipolar or not. Like the news mentioned the alcohol abuse, and drug abuse, but I can't recall the news speaking of him being BP, or was he? Thought I saw something about him BP. Then I wonder if "they", who ever they were, left that out. Like it would be some kind of stigma to reveal such a thing.

He definately had illness, was troubled with severe depression that took him to point of ending his life related to life issues he was having eg.financial. Whether he had Bipolar or just depression, he still would of been suffering from overwhelming depression and despair. Depression is what is behind most suicides.

I did sob for him. But then I realised. He was 60-something. He had had a great run. And maybe that's where he wanted it to end. I don't want to have to get old and miserable. Maybe he didn't either. Just a thought.

No one wants to suffer or want to die. 60 is still not that old. He just couldn't continue anymore with his life way it was for him. He was affected by severe depression linked with financial issues. People can act on suicidal ideas without planning, just by strong overwhelming troubling feelings. Robin Williams suffered childhood trauma and he bottled up things inside. Internalised hurt and anger can lead to depressive illness.