[StayinAlive]

Feeling OK. Undid my most recent med increase, which had me feeling like a zombie and no less depressed. First day of vacation at the ocean. Wish you were here.

I have finished my Valium taper and am now benzo-free for the first time in twenty years!

[Love&Toil]

Nice to be back a bit and see some familiar faces.

I was doing really well for several weeks, feeling great. Pdoc lowered my Wellbutrin and that has been fine, but lowering the Prozac from 30 mg to 20 mg is too much. I am feel super *****y and irritable, and I am ovulating. I need that extra bit of Prozac to make my brain float on a pink cloud. I need it.

I also notice that I feel very stressed at home on the weekend. There's too much to do in too short a period of time, too many demands.

Thanks for listening to me vent.

[Standup2me]

I have been on holidays for a week and go back to work tomorrow

I have a sense of dread

[tigersassy]

Doing well. Vacation is exactly what the Dr ordered. Relaxing hanging out with my brother and getting away from the everyday crap.

[Tucson]

I seem to be doing better by the evening. I hope this is a good sign.

I was restless last night and tempted to take a Valium but i fought it off. Who is to say it was benzo withdrawal? Occasional night-time restlessness happens to everyone.

[Hopeful Camel]

Feeling better this morning. Just take it one day at a time. I wrote my pdoc about the lithium and depression, but she didn't answer. I guess I'll talk to her about it at our next session. I need to tell her what I need from my providers. I hope everyone has a good day.

i've been feeling like the invisible person lately.

seems no matter what happens or how i'm feeling, no one cares- and everyone's shut themselves out my life

terrible imsomnia, and really low at the moment- which is really hard to deal with, given the fact i'm on my own in this right now

[Standup2me]

First day back at work after a week off

It is not bad as my boss is away

[Love&Toil]

Doing okay today, kind of dizzy and lightheaded this morning as I am adjusting back to a med increase. It got better as the day went on, thank goodness, and I was able to stay at work and function.

[Tucson]

I was pretty depressed earlier today. I am feeling better right now.

[LilacLime]

I think after my session on Wednesday I'm going to go to the hospital. I feel like it's time. I really want to try and hold off til then. I'm just really afraid, but I'm not sure what else to do. I can't keep this up.

[Blitter2014]

Yesterday I had a really bad stress attack where the dark fear and overwhelming dread took over. I feel like my nerves are fried today and want to curl up in a ball and cry my life away.

[Standup2me]

I am doing okay today.
It is gloomy and raining and that always drags me down

[Roblovescats]

So someone I know at work today told me she recently was diagnosed with bipolar. She does not know I have it. I wanted to tell her to help her but I just can't let people know at work. I am going to tell her to be cautious telling people. I don't want her to think I am judging her and I can't tell her the truth about me. Ugh.

[Hopeful Camel]

Roller coaster emotions today. Up, down, and sideways. I tire myself out. Sometimes I think I make myself sick with all my thinking. If only I could stop.

[Curiosity77]

I'm feeling down. My cat has been sick off and on, and it's hard to watch.

[tigersassy]

Doing good. Ankle feels so much better. Heading home tomorrow from my brothers. Doing good mood wise. Not keeping track of things though. No journal entries. Limited physical activity, but getting more and more active. Time for bed.

[Standup2me]

Another good day at work

My boss is away! Yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!

[Hopeful Camel]

Still driving myself mad with rapid cycling. Lithium isn't doing a thing at this low dose. I'm just hanging on for dear life. Trying to stay employed and keep up a good front at the new job. One day at a time. One minute at a time. I'm sad, and in a state of panic, all at the same time.

Started back on lithium today as I ramp up on lamictal. Holding off on another med. Feeling defeated.

[Blitter2014]

Things have gotten so bad with my inability to cope and thus work that we are looking at having to sell our house. To say I am scared and overwhelmed is an understatement

[JigssawFeeling]

Feel like falling back into a depression every day, with sort of waves going downwards.. Finding less and less activities that are enjoyable. Kinda numbing out from everything. Just wish I could be in an incubator.

[Pikku Myy]

Feeling super good