What Goes Up Must Come Down

Im glad they had a bed for you. Effexor (older version of pritiq) sent me manic and coming off it was pure hell (675 decreased to 0 in 3 weeks because of mania), so I wish you luck in coming off it. Luckily I was in hospital for it. I need to detox this week too, 1.30 and Im drinking and smoking... I got some semi bad but expected news, used it as an excuse to escape getting down on myself. I see my GP for a new referral to my pdoc tomorrow. I dont know how this happened today, I was so ready to be sober. I just realised how much cleaning I have to do and I havent even exercised yet. Total fail day.

Oh make sure you dont turn up stoned/drunk to the clinic, they may not accept you and your obs will be off. Hope it goes ok.

Thanks for the tip Supa but I have already drank and smoked today but I should be straight by the time I check in. I guess I was having a last hurrah! Not sure what to expect when coming off AD's, alcohol and weed so I will just have to take that day by day. I have only been having around 9 standard drinks a day and countless cones. I am looking forward to stopping as it has turned on me and doesn't help anymore, in fact they make me worse.

Sounds oh so familiar..

I've been binge drinking more than constant drinking. I'll have 3 days off then drink 2 cartons in 3 days type thing. But I get depressed on the hangover, swear off it.. then still feel **** a few days later and drink again.

But smoking, yeah every day at the moment. I feel like I need a 12 step program or something but honestly do not know where I will get the time with work and uni starting soon.

At least it will be a nice soft landing on the come down for you in a hospital environment. Are they making you do groups?

Yeh, I think I will have CBT groups. It should help, although I've done them a few times before. I like hearing other people's stories, you can really learn from them. I'm trying to get my mental state sorted by the time university starts up too. I wish you all the best with that. Are you getting any help for your substance abuse or able to find any? I have realised I cannot do this alone.
Just got into hospital and I want to run...I guess that is expected. I should see a nurse soon and then my doc. Panicking and a little suicidal

I'm glad you are somewhere safe. I too tried to avoid ECT for as long as possible but ultimately that's what it came Down to. Did it work for you last time? The first time I had it I was able to live treatment free for six years. That's why I finally agreed to it again. Memory loss sucks though. It's embarra to admit that I can't remember how to do report cards at work! Oh well. It worked!

You'll be ok. Take deep breaths when you panic and just think about how worth it it will be in the end!

Day one IP has passed. They have me on high doses of Valium to deal with withdrawals and it seems to be helping but I still feel irritable. My mood is swinging from upbeat to suicidal s it is a bit of a rollercoaster. Group starts soon so that should keep me distracted at least, and I might learn something too even though I have done them before. Really missing drinking and smoking but trying to stay strong. Still waiting to see my pdoc to discuss the treatment plan and impliment it. Should see him today sometime (is is 8.30am here). So thankful for all the support from everyone on this site. It really helped me see I needed to stop the self-medicating and focus on treatment.

Hope group is not too boring. I have done them all a million times too, but there is only so much you can do in craft group.

Day one of sobriety for me... Already got the shakes.

Hope you got a nice breaky and you get to see the pdoc soon.

well done on trying to stay sober. Do you have a plan in place to keep you on track. It is incredibly hard to do it by yourself so I hope you have support...but you do have US! So keep posting and hang in there through the withdrawals. We both know it is better for us in the long run to stay sober.

Not much of a plan. I have all my strategies written down but we'll see how I go.