Can I be put back in the hospital? (Possible trigger)

I went to the hospital for depression and SUI intention. They put me on an AD and that made me manic. I stopped the AD a week and a half ago and still feel the same, but now I get angry really fast and blow up on people. I see hallucinations, am only sleeping 1 hour a night, doing things I normally don't do, am either super happy or super agitated, and my family says it is not normal to believe that I can fly and time travel (but I know I can). I cancelled further appointments with my pdoc and will be stopping my therapist as well as I feel great. I even threatened my mom with a knife once because she wouldn't let me go on a bike ride. I apologized for that but I still blow up on her a lot. My friend said that she is considering contacting someone to put me back in the hospital. Can she do that? Will I be put back? I didn't like the voices or hallucinations at first but now I have come to accept them and they actually give me great advice. Anyway, point is, I am not that bad off am I? I thought I was doing well, but just have a lot of energy because my depression lifted. I know the anger is new and I shouldn't have threatened her, but there was no reason not to let me go on a simple bike ride. I will NOT go back to the hospital as I don't think I need it, but can my friend or mom get me back in it based off how I am acting? TIA

You need to be safe. You may, or may not to realize that you are not. Ask yourself if the people around you typically have your best interest at heart. Base it on previous experience and not how you feel today. Go with the plan that keeps you safe, no matter what your brain is telling you. Everything you have written says you need to contact a a mental health provider. Take control of your situation. Call your pdoc.

Threatening people with knives is not safe behavior. You can be hospitalized if you are a danger to yourself OR OTHERS. I'm not sure if you could be committed based on what you say, but I think you are definitely manic and need some help. Don't cancel your appointments. Even though you feel great, mania can turn on you in an instant. Plus, you're not acting safe.

I know that that the knife situation was bad, but I won't do that again. I don't think I could have even done anything to her. I really don't want to take meds as so far they made me feel like crap and gain a ton weight. My mom is trying everything possible in her terms (that means she is just praying) to help me and to keep me out of the hospital, and I told her that I am not going to go anyway. She wants to talk to my therapist at my appointment on Tuesday, but I want to cancel as I will not be going to it anyway. I will think about it and talk to my mom. The only problem with my pdoc is that he tell me to try something and then come back in 2-3 weeks, which is way too long, as usually it takes a few days for meds to take full effect on me because I am a light weight, and so far they such bad side effects I can't wait that long to go back, so I just gave up with that and stopped fighting the energy and now I feel great. My therapist doesn't really see it, as in our session, I am just jittery and talk fast, but not full on like at home. I know my family just wants to help me, but I don't know what to do for myself anymore.

Hi secretgalary

I am sorry I do not know the answer to your question direct as I would not want to make a statement that may be false.

So instead I would like to please offer a sentiment which is that it is really important that you are in contact with your pdoc whilst you are like this.

Please stay safe.

Thinking of you.

you may need another hospital stay. the knife situation is really worrying.

please take care of yourself and let us know what happens.

I won't say what choices YOUR doc would make, but my doc would sign me in out of deep concern for my safety. Please be safe.

You sound manic (angry and blowing up, little sleep, super happy or agitated) and psychotic (hallucinations, believing you can fly and time travel).

You do need to be inpatient and try different meds to see what is effective for you.

You should contact your T or pdoc asap and discuss these symptoms or print your post so they can read it. I wish you well.

Time to not be grossly self-destructive. Time for IP. Please take care of yourself!

Wow Secretgalaxy, you are off your rocker the way you described it. Do yourself a favor and listen to everyone. Ride that wave and let it flow around you. What can go wrong? You get well? You are a danger to you and all those around you. I'd rather go to the hospital then end up in jail, which is where you should be after the knife thing. Stop bs ing around and do the right thing for a change.

At this point, I am okay with going IP, after talking to my friend and reading these and thinking about it, even though I think I'm fine. My mom on the other hand doesn't want me to go and is trying her hardest to keep me out and deal with it on her own. I have told her that I don't trust myself anymore, but she says that she will keep trusting me. I know that I am crazy, but I just accepted it. I will try to get her to call tomorrow my therapist and pdoc and see what happens. Clearly, if it is worrying everyone else, then there is a problem, even if I don't see it, then I should listen to them instead of my brain. I'll keep you guys updated.

Try to sleep more and go to all of your appointments. You are sounding a little better than in the first post, but your therapist and pdoc will definitely know what to do.

Thanks for the updates.

Your mom isn't a trained health professional (is she?) and she is biased because she is your mother. You need to be evaluated by a professional.

Nope she is not a trained professional, and she just doesn't understand that I cannot physically sleep. Today, I woke up at 5 after sleeping about an hour, cleaned my bike, walked about 3 miles, skateboarded about 5-7 miles, and went shopping, went on another walk, did my exercise routine, danced to music for about an hour, and read 50 pages of a book, and 30-40 pages of my textbook, wrote my introductory paragraph for my essay but got distracted and wasn't able to do more, and now I am still wide awake with a ton of energy. I even tired out my dog and he is used to getting 10-15 miles of biking a day. If I try to sleep, I end up staying awake and my mind just keeps on racing. My mom and I had a late night chat and she is starting to understand why I am not sleeping and need to pace my room. She is starting to realize that she can't help me the way she wants to. I am still not liking the idea of going to a hospital, but my mom and friend are now on the same page that it seems to be the best option...

You've got some hardcore mania going on, my friend. Some of it sounds dangerous to me , as a third party outsider. If you're hesitant about the hospital, try going to your appointments and see what they say. Hope things go well for you!

Yesterday was a bit of crazy day... I didn't get my caffeine (which is what I am obsessed of buying at the moment) I normally get in the morning so I am guessing my mania turned mixed or to pure anger because I was blowing up on everyone and I was completely sure I was going to time travel to get away from everyone. I took double the dose of anti-depressant thinking it will make me euphoric but it just took control of my mind and forced me to come home after running away... Ended up hiding in my closet for 12 hours so that the cameras and people couldn't see me.

Today I have appointment at 2 with my T and my mom told her everything. My T wants me evaluated by this center and see what I actually have because my pdoc is stupid and won't diagnosed me, even though he said that I have bipolar tendencies. Everyone else says that it is, but I don't know exactly. Today I ran to store in the snow (which is very pretty) and got my caffeine and now I am dancing to my favorite songs as loud as my mom will let me :P I don't use the caffeine as an energy booster, I use it as a mood booster. Without it, I am still jacked up crazy but extremely angry at everyone and I know I get dangerous. I haven't eaten anything except gummy bears and almonds for three days, and of course caffeine :P I am hoping I will become invincible and never need sleep and food again.

Are you taking a stabilizer with that AD? It sure doesn't sound like it. AD to a bipolar person is like rocket fuel to mania. I'm glad everyone is on board to getting you the help you defintely need. I'd lay off the AD myself to lighten up the mania to see if that helps.

I have been off of it for two weeks so it isn't fueling the mania anymore, but it did cause it. Yesterday, for some reason I thought that it would magically put me in a good mood but all it did was cause the voices and hallucinations to get worse and make me have some really weird dreams...

Let us know how your appointment goes. Hopefully your T will be able to get you something that will make coming down easier. Human beings will always need to eat and sleep unfortunately.

So appointment got moved to tomorrow because of the snow here, unfortunately. I am going to keep myself as busy as I can so that I won't be persuaded to time travel by the voices and hallucinations in my head. I have cleaned my whole room, done the laundry, wrote 3 pages of my history paper, went to Physical therapy, hosted a play date for my dogs (since it is too cold to go out), danced wildly to music, and will be vacuuming, attempt to walk my dogs, draw a ton, clean my bathroom, and play some video games, research about random things, and many more!

You've got a good plan going there!

Yeah, you're being really productive there! I imagine you will feel a real sense of accomplishment about getting all of that done.

Yea, I did! I actually did way more than that, haha :P I am literally runing out of home work, and I am doing home work that isn't due until the end of April... School is so boring because we are going so slow, haha