What about bipolar do you hate the most?

I AM MANIC

And I love it.

When my mania is stolen - I HATE IT

That is exactly how I feel at the moment! Loving the hypomania. Hoping it stays for a long time.

The Isolation and stigma

Loss of trust and reputation
shame
regrets
stigma
pain caused to others
money wasted
dependence on medication and doctors
expense of treatment
medication side effects
inability to work at my potential
depression

Unpredictable mood shifts

The hair loss. Thanks meds

Money issues
Concentration issues
motivation issues
can't handle stress
sleep inconsistencies
obsessions or ticks or whatever they are

The stigma and never feeling "normal".

I mourn the parts of my life that I have not fully enjoyed and the people that have and are still effected by my BP. The unpredictable moods can often ruin plans for a smooth day. Its a struggle. Wish I had another life.

I hate not being able to have friends because of all the shame and guilt I put on myself because I am ill

What happens to you during psychosis ; do you lose control, hallucinate, get irrational ?

Loss of trust :- is that because they feel you cant be relied upon or have you made mistakes ?

I think what I hate the most about Bipolar is that when I'm in my manic episode, I feel like nothing is wrong. I get too ambitious, pile everything on top of each other, "hook-up" with people I've never would've done before, go on a shopping spree, ruin my relationships because it gets too intense, and then all the regret that comes with it. It sucks. I do these things and I try to control myself, but every time I'm manic, nothing can stop me.

Stigma
Isolation
Rage
Irritability
Negativity

I'm not sure if its lack of motivation or concentration I despise more.

I hate that my moods are beyond my control. I hate that when I have insomnia, I can exercise, take 2 different psychotics, a mood stabilizer and a sleeping pill and I still can't sleep.

I hate that people without bipolar don't understand that I look normal and act reasonably normal and inside I am flying. That it takes every bit of self-control I have not to buy out a store, sleep with anyone and drink a quart of alcohol or go to a party and snort a gram of coke.

I hate all of it.

I hate the daily meds morning and night.

Predicting that one is happening sucks too.

The fact that it never ends.

I hate when people who don't have a mental illness tell me if I take care of myself I can "lead a normal life." Not only is it a lie, when I'm depressed it puts more pressure on me to "take better care of myself!"

I was explaining to my ex-hub how I need help with the kids lately. They live with me 24/7.
He has been helping which is great. But when I try to explain how sleep is vitally important at this time, he starts telling me his insomnia stories.

I tried to explain that insomnia is something completely different for a bipolar.

The rage and the irrational emotional outbursts over little things. The feeling of wanting to just give up on things and being annoyed at the smallest things.

Oh, and being stuck in my head, only making it all worse.

I'd have to say everything I'm also trying to accept that this is my life. I feel like an outcast sometimes

The fact that even though I have been stable for nearly two years that everyone around me is waiting for me to get sick again and if I have an emotion, everyone, including myself, questions if it is an episode. I have a wide range of real feelings now that I am no longer blunted but everyone thinks it is an episode any time I express excitement or dismay.