Do you think I am more Bipolar type 1 or Bipolar type 2?

I take Ziprasidone which is an Anti-psychotic and Oxcarbazepine which is a mood stabilizer. And yes they do seem to be helping.

I am already diagnosed with BPD. And I actually do have mood changes for absolutely no reason at times so there is no reason I can't be both. I will listen to you about the "You don't have full blown mania" comment when you can show me your Phd.

And I have only had hallucinations when I have had plenty of sleep.

And in regards to the comment that I have had a lot of Psych's you need to go read the comment I made to the user "Christina".

I am already diagnosed with BPD. And my Rheumatologist even thinks I have Lupus so I have no comment. I have good reason to believe I have the things I believe I have.

I cannot control how long I see my Psych. To find out why...read what I said to the user "Christina".

I am not a hypochondriac. I am already diagnosed with BPD.

Going to the support groups I have started going to lately helps me. No other comments.

Huh? It seems you haven't finished your reply all the way.

Hi, I mentioned I was giving your my personal, unprofessional opinion in my post for that very reason—I'm not a doctor. I do have Bipolar I disorder and have educated myself quite a bit about my condition, but my opinion , along with others' on this forum, are no substitute for a psychiatrist's.

That said, I don't think think I deserve to snapped at. I didn't attack you in anything I said. If I came across that way, I apologize. It certainly wasn't my intention. You asked for opinions, and I simply gave you mine.

You're right in that they absolutely can occur together. There actually is a very high comorbidity between Bipolar 2 and BPD. From your original post, what you described there sounded more like hypomania than mania to me, but again, I'm not a doctor. I can't make a diagnosis.

If your hallucinations are occurring frequently and while you are rested, that is concerning and must be distressing. There are a number of different conditions that could be causing it, and I hope you find a psychiatrist that will stick with you to help you get to the bottom of it.

Goodness AW, you are being very hostile and rude in this thread!

You asked people for their opinions, and then reamed them out for them sharing their opinions because they aren't professionals! Were you just wanting to trick people into posting so that you could yell at them for not being psychiatrists? I cannot see any other reason why you would do that.

If you don't like what people on here are saying to you when you ask for your opinions, I hope that you are stopping (or will stop) to consider why they have said what they've said. On here, all we can go from is what you type.

From what you have typed in your threads, you try to dictate what the doctors should diagnose you with and argue against them to a rather more extreme degree when you don't get your way. So the opinions shared on this thread are valid based upon what we have learned from you.... if you disagree, then you could explain things in a much more respectful manner, because we only know what you've shared with us so far. People were trying to help you and support you in the way that you've asked, so being so rude to them isn't really encouraging anyone to want to continue trying to support you.

Being respectful and kind really isn't all that difficult, regardless of diagnosis. Good luck!

Sometimes this forum gives back hard.

I agree that, for someone asking for help, you are quite hostile when not agreed with. That is a recurring response in all the forums you visit. You demand a diagnosis and to hell with you if everyone doesn't join your bag wagon.

This should be explored with a good therapist - your behaviors and the motivations behind them.

Just my opinion.

Determining what illness you have can be a lengthy process. Having consistent psychiatric care and being honest with your providers will make it so much easier for you. Reading can help you understand your symptoms, but you must be honest with yourself for it to be beneficial. How long do your 'symptoms' last? Do they interfere with daily living? Are they reactive or spontaneous? Understanding will help with treatment. For example, if your symptoms are primarily due to interpersonal reasons, psychotherapy will help a lot more than medication.

Many different disorders can explain your symptoms, such as PTSD, BPD and anxiety. These disorders can definitely affect one's ability to regulate their emotions and self-soothe which can all resemble mild bipolar disorder.

One can experience hallucinations without having a diagnosable mental illness. Sleep deprivation, extreme anxiety, and benzodiazepines are a few causes.

You seem lost and desperate. Seeking diagnoses appears to be your way of trying to make sense of it. Maybe looking inside yourself for answers rather than externally will help you a lot more.

Why not try finding a different psych in a different place altogether?

Additionally, what strikes me with all of your responses to everyone is that you seem to feel that Bipolar 2 isn't "good enough," you need to have Bipolar 1. Yet I don't think you have an understanding of either diagnosis.

Let me break it down for you in practical terms: both are not fun. Both are hard to live with. Both require a lifetime of meds. Both will get you the "It's not how you really feel, it's your DX" from some people, which enables them to invalidate your feelings. And both are NOT an excuse for bad behavior. You still need to learn how to control yourself.

You need to find a good therapist and face your real issues. Don't be afraid of that. We all know you're struggling. We all know you're in pain. But it's not a competition here, to see who's got it the worst. Everyone's struggling. That's why we're here. We're here to help and find help, to support and be supported. Sometimes support comes in the form of a hug, and sometimes it comes in the form of the hard truth, but it all comes from a genuine desire to actually help, and not alienate you. We all want to see you get better, Angelwngs. Even though we're perfect strangers, we know some intimate details about you and can't help but care, because we do understand how it feels to struggle. Everyone here struggles.

You just really, really need to stop attacking people every time you ask a question and you don't get the answer you want. All of your behavior right here is screaming BPD, and that's the issue you need to address, because it can really, really make life hard. I know. My co-worker/friend has it. Your behavior is attention-seeking, but when you don't like the type of attention you get, you get hostile.

Angelwngs, if you are just having a bad day, need a hug, feel scared, feel alone, feel stressed, feel alienated, hate yourself, remembering bad times, anything, just say it. Don't be afraid. We're here to listen and give you support. As you can see from this thread. Communicate what you really want, not what you think you want. It will be more fulfilling for you.

That's interesting. I didn't think we needed a poster's permission to post in reply to questions. Your replies to answers to YOUR questions is quite hostile. You might consider working on that.

Are you in therapy? I ask, because you would probably most benefit at this point from working with a therapist who can see you long-term, help you figure out what is going on with you behaviorally and mentally, and work with you on developing coping skills and skills in interpersonal relationships. That would probably be as helpful or probably even more helpful than trying to find a diagnosis because a diagnosis really won't get you far in dealing with your symptoms. The progress will mostly need to be made within yourself and often is most beneficial if you have a qualified therapist to help you through that process.

Why so much hostility? People really are just trying to help.

I would agree that you do sound like you have BPD, which you did say you were already diagnosed with.

It's hard from what you have stated to really tell if you are BP1 or BP2. Or you could even fall somewhere in between in the BP NOS category. Honestly, based on what I've read, that's kind of what I would lean towards.

Bipolar tends to change over time, so it's entirely possible to be diagnosed one type and then it change. I've kind of been teetering between BP2 and BP NOS myself.

I try not to get too wrapped up in it because all types are treated the same. The meds are based on an individual's symptoms and response to said meds. Same with therapy and what not.

I hope you can find a pdoc to stay with long-term. It's very benefitial. Must be frustrating to keep having new ones. Is there anywhere else you could go?

Best wishes.

You know what sweety? I think my number isn't right also because I feel so misunderstood. But, the meds are the same and it's going to take what it takes to get well. The number is just for classification purposes...statistics. Bipolar is a spectrum with over lapping traits. I tell you what hun, I'll trade my 1 for your 2?

YOU came here and asked for specific opinions about your diagnosis, nobody here can diagnose you one way or another, people have told you what they think and never claimed to be a doctor, the rudeness in your posts is really getting tiresome.

It's easy to see a list of symptoms and twist it in a way that fits your situation. Nothing is black and white with bipolar or any mental illness. Stop trying to fit a square into a circle and focus on addressing symptoms vs finding a clean cut diagnoses. Labels are not badges to be worn. For many, myself Included, they are a hard pill to swallow. Tbh you are making a mockery of people with bipolar (whether that includes you or not).

My point is you will never neatly fit a diagnoses to a perfect T. That is where everyone gets the feeling you look like a typical hypochondriac. I'd get a therapist and the two of you can figure out what pay off you are getting from being so extreme be it attention seeking or legitimate fears. What ever the case lose the attitude with your supposed peers. It's very unbecoming and frankly a little pathetic to watch.

Nobody has to put up with abuse, not even doctors. It you are as belligerent with them as you are here, that may well explain why you don't have a doctor for long. They might agree with you in the office just to get you to settle down but they are not going to write down a false Dx and get into legal trouble. If you want good long term treatment you still need to act responsibly and treat your carers with respect. As I said no Dx is an excuse for bad behavior.

I agree with Velouria. There is a misconception that 2 is less severe than one. By some measures, 2 is actually worse than 1 because the sufferer tends to spend more time depressed

In your original post, I didn't see any symptoms of mania. Staying up late, getting into one thing and going at it hardcore, those sound more like hypomania. Mania gets people hospitalized. Staying up late and getting into something hardcore probably wouldn't result in a hospitalization unless you stayed up too long, but mania usually has other symptoms. It won't be the same from person to person, but it generally gets the individual hospitalized. That said, some wrongfully assume that only BP1 experiences intermittent psychosis, but PTSD, psychotic depression, neurological conditions, medications/drugs in rare instances can account for it, as well. If the psychosis is constant, you're looking at Schizoaffective or Schizophrenia then. Severe, severe anxiety can make a suffer think they're experiencing psychosis when they're not. It could be a number of things, things we can't sort out for you on this forum. You make it sound like your psychosis and hallunications and psyhosis have occured in the absence of manic symptoms - this doesn't sound consistent with BP1 as much as another disorder.Please don't focus so much on the label. A label doesn't validate what you've gone through.

Furthermore, you need to stop attacking users. I noticed some users jumped to conclusions about what you posted here, and maybe that wasn't fair, but I think old "Boy Who Cried Wolf" story applies. People generally don't take kindly to attention seeking behavior. We also don't like being lashed at for giving you exactly what you asked for - opinions. Opinions do NOT mean we are all going to agree you have BP1. You're going to find a lot more sympathy and empathy on this forum than others - please don't exhaust it.

I'd hate to see that. I can't even begin to imagine the amount of suffering you've gone through. It sounds like you've had a hard road, regardless of what your diagnosis ends up being. You may not have control of your DX, but you CAN control how you treat others. We may slip up and do something you're not proud of, but then you have the choice of apologizing and making amends.

Well, since you've asked for our opinions, I'll give mine.


Lord only knows why because you'll probably just attack me too...


In my experience, type 2.


It's my dx and my experiences are much like yours. I stay up until the sun rises, or for days on end, my current record being 5.

I hallucinate while hypo and depressed, which includes seeing, feeling, hearing and even smelling shyt that ain't there.....Yes I'm sure I was nowhere near any decaying bodies.


I experience extended periods of psychosis, when depressed, and while severely hypo I thought I was Odin's daughter for 2 weeks.


So no, I don't fit all neatly into a BP2 box either, its a spectrum and does look more like BP 1.5 at times, but I've never been full blown manic, or needed hospitalization for mania.



There are certainly levels of severity, even in BP2, my hypo for one, it doesn't always stay euphoric and elated for long. Sometimes I end up behaving like someone experiencing dysphoric mania after a few days, but because its not crippling or classic, I remain BP2.


Besides, TREATMENT IS THE SAME, so distinction is really only for reference sake. You don't get secret special hardcore drugs for BP1.


Here's a tip, attacking people for disagreeing with you is the exact opposite method of making friends and or gaining support.


A blog might be more suited to your online needs, instead of wasting people's time and effort. They could've been replying to a poster who actually wanted and welcomed their replies.


Why am I bothering to reply knowing you don't want my response?


Well just maybe common sense isn't as uncommon as it seems to be and you'll give some merit to the fact that the majority of us agree with the professionals.


Don't worry though, if you are determined to avoid logic, and choose to remain close minded and belligerent, I will not be one of those posters who attempt to force reason upon you.


Go well.

Bluntly--- trigger warning----

If your therapist leaves, you are borderline.

This is what needs to be done. I agree.

We are not doctors. We are patients looking for answers from each other.

We can only give our opinions.

PS- I am very blunt and try to soften a bit. I am working on it in therapy.

You know sometimes being blunt is the best. Then people know where you stand. I would rather you tell me upfront then not at all if that makes sense.

Angelwngs25,

People have chewed me out a couple of times on here. It was out of caring. I hated them for it but all they were saying was I need more help then I was /am getting. That's what they're saying to you to.