just...wtf

I officially have no pdoc/pnp.

I called my former pnp's office, and she's already gone! Thanks for referring me to someone. I'm so annoyed.

I called my GP's office. Hopefully she'll be able to refer me to someone. She's not in the office today, but I made sure to emphasize with the receptionist that I was DESPERATE. I made sure she wrote it down. Lol.

And I had questions too. Sigh. What do I do now? Just do whatever I feel works out better for me? Seriously. For some reason this is making me geek out.

I have a headache.

(But I also have allergies... so it could be because of that. Lol)

Anyway, anyone else ever been in a similar situation?

This just sucks.

I don't know why I'm laughing about it. It's really not funny.

blah!

that's not good

hope you can get to see someone

and perhaps you're laughing because it's so sad it's not even funny?. (okay i made no sense their)

but oh i've done that

when things have been like.. i'm missing an important thing in my life, i'm laughing because i'm thinking... oh my god, this is my life. how sad can it be

last week i had that exact experience.

it occurred to me i'm in my 20's and never actually played monopoly on a proper monopoly board

and i just laughed about it because it's so sad

younger people than me have played it loads of times

Ah, don't worry about monopoly.

I'm so bad at it. I always get bored mid game and make myself lose because I think it's funny. I've never won. Lol. Actually, I may have won once.

You can also call your insurance company and they can usually help you find providers in your area that are accepting new patients.

Be a very squeeky wheel

Christina - I plan on it. I have full confidence in my GP though. She was able to refer me to someone pretty fast last time I asked. I wish I would have just gone with that psychiatrist now, but I didn't know pnp-who-didn't-bother-referring-me-to-someone-before-she-left would be leaving. I should have trusted my gut feeling. I didn't like her at all when I first met her. I just stuck with her for convenience sake because she was in town, and the other psychiatrist is a forty five drive minute away.

Remember a door will open.. maybe just maybe you will love the new one... keep a positive outlook,,,

lol... haha, i think if i did play monopoly on a proper board, i'd just throw all the peaces on the floor.

out of amusement

that's something i'd do

GOOD LUCK RASPBERRRRRRRY

I'm still waiting for my appointment to see if I have bipolar or not.

Sorry to hear it didn't end well.

I'm so sorry hunny, that's just messed up. Just because of situations like this, I don't trust to rely on anyone to come through. Regardless of who they are, they are their own priority. I'm a firm believer in when you want something done, do it yourself. Good luck sweety

That's so unprofessional of them! Christina's idea of calling your insurance company is a good one...hope you hear back bro your GP soon. xo

My GP's nurse called me back today. We did some nice phone tag, she said she would see what she could do. She asked me how I was doing. I'm not doing well. And instead of telling her that I'm NOT doing well, and that I've been crying pretty much every night because of horrible paranoia/anxiety attacks, I told her I was okay, just that I couldn't wait like six months to see someone...

Why would I lie?! I should have told her how horrible I've been feeling! I can't help it. It's just so embarrassing! I don't know why.

Anyway, so hopefully she was able to find me someone. I got her last message to call her back while I was on break at work, so I'll have to wait until monday.

This whole situation has been making me feel physically ill.

I hope she doesn't tell me that she couldn't get me in to see someone because no one is accepting new patients and that she can't help me.

Every place I've called has told me they're not accepting new patients and can't help me. I even called this place an hour away out of desperation.

If my GP's nurse can't refer me to someone, my GP is just going to have to deal with me and my issues because I'll have no one else to do my refills.

This is just SO ridiculous! I hope you are able to find someone soon because clearly you need someone. I am so sorry!

I know.

If it wasn't for my seroquel I'm positive I wouldn't be sleeping at all right now. Even with it I've been waking up at four in the morning (going to bed at midnight). I'm having concentration issues too. Like I just tried watching a movie and couldn't concentrate on it. Not a good sign.

I don't know why no one is accepting new patients. It's appalling. It is ridiculous. I feel like no one wants to help me.

Last night I was so scared and my clonazepam wasn't helping, so I ended up drinking a glass of wine and drinking a beer (and I don't drink!), and then was about a step away from taking my entire bottle of lorazepam. I even had the glass of water ready. It was very bad. I have my husband holding my meds for me right now. I don't feel depressed really. It's just the paranoia and anxiety. I can't handle it.

I texted my husband and he came home from work early and I just ended up bawling while he held me. It was a real low moment. I'd even say oh boo hoo to myself. But I'm just really struggling right now.

It's ok to struggle. No boo hoos needed or true. What your PNP did was inexcusable. And unethical. It is not ethical to have someone who needs further treatment and is leaving your care because of something like your retirement without setting up referrals. I'm pretty positive about this because I had several months of internet counseling when I graduated from college after a severe depressive epidose where I was getting 4 1.5 hour sessions per week to stay out of IP and since I was spending the summer at 2 different colleges (half at each) there was no follow-up available and so he was there for me as I needed. When my psychiatrist died (he was a university employee) they had in theory someone available during the months between his death and the beginning of the replacement. And when my therapist moved to Europe with almost no notice she had to find people for her clients to see. So that's definitely the stanadard and I'm pretty sure an ethical obligation.

I know. I can't believe she just left me like this!

It's pretty sad when my dr who died had a better set-up (I'm sure he had something worked out for emergencies in advance because they went straight into that mode without missing any time.) They were completely bizarre telling people about his death; we got a very matter-of-fact letter saying he had died while on vacation, do this until Sept and in Sept Dr. whatever would take over. They didn't even have a memorial service. I wish they had, even 15 years later. I google him every year. His body has never been found and I keep hoping that someday his family will get that closure.

But seriously, you would realistically expect quite a bit more from someone treating you, especially for severe anxiety. I really hope your GP comes through for you this week.

Im glad your husband has your medication, Right now you need a safety plan. Keep a possible IP trip as an option.. Legally you have to be seen by a Pdoc within 2 weeks of being discharged. Social services will find you a Pdoc and appt before your discharged.

I know many people who went IP just so they would be seen quickly by a pdoc.Its not ideal but you have to work with what you have.

Stay safe even if that means you need a IP stay. You deserve treatment and help