[hahayeahtotallylol]

Did nothing. Indulged in online fantasy.

Starting up with testosterone to counter this impending doom while starting this new job

[Standup2me]

I am doing well. I am not falling asleep at 6pm, I want to
go for walks, I am listening to music...I just feel good

[AngelShocker]

been on a greys anatomy binge on season 7 did make some potatoes and eggs for hubby and me today so thats a plus but have been couch bound for the past week. I feel safe with the couch behind me.

[Pikku Myy]

In all feeling pretty good. I feel a bit exhausted from the holiday weekend with so much hoobla going on. It was all good.

[Standup2me]

Today I looked in the mirror and thought, wow, do I ever have nice hair. I don’t think that I’ve ever looked in a mirror and saw something beautiful about myself. If I were to meet someone with hair like mine I would say “I love your blonde curly hair, it’s gorgeous”. Maybe it is the result of a good mix of meds (finally), maybe it is just the Universe sending me a big ah-hah moment. No matter what it is, it feels good, and I don’t want this feeling to go away. It feels so good to feel good about myself.

[scatterbrained04]

Stressful work day after a four day weekend. Came home to a messy house and a whiney kid. I am so done with today.

[Unrigged64072835]

Got the outside decorations done yesterday. Now I'm in a mental funk. I had to explain this to my t and doc today. Now I got to find that holiday mojo again. On the plus side, my husband's VA claim went through and we'll have a little more for the holidays...as long as our cat doesn't get sick again, which looks like it's starting to happen.

[BlackSheep79]

I finally made the call to see a therapist. My life is falling apart. I've tried to manage my mi for years, thinking everything was fine. My husband finally was honest with me and it's affecting my marriage in a real bad way. Over the years I never saw this happening, but he did. I've lost myself and beyond unhappy. I think we will be fine, I hope he is my best friend and have always pictured us growing old together. I'm going to do therapy and he is going to find a support group for living with loved ones with mi. Apparently, I did not know this, but therapists in the past have suggested to him the possibility of divorce. He didn't like that advice and choosing this route. It just hurts to be hearing things for the first time after being together for thirteen years. I never knew it was this bad. I've been crying for days on top of going through a depressive episode. Im trying to be positive.

[Cocosurviving]

My day was decent. It's rainy and cold where I am so I stayed in most of the day. Lately I've been so tired. I was pretty much like this before time changed. I've been saying how much I don't want mania but miss the energy it has. I got 8 1/2 hours sleep. I dropped my youngest daughter off at school. I came home ate breakfast. Then I slept another 3 1/2 hours. I take naps through most days and even on those days I'm still really sleep early. I just started taking vitamins and I hope they help. I did finally did get up and interact with my 18 yr old daughter. Then I took her to work and went to visit my grandma. Then picked my 9 yr old daughter up. I just finished putting together something for dinner

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[Lady Lazarus]

I am doing ok today. I talked to a few of my school friends and they are all moving out and living with their friends next year. It makes me feel developmentally stunted that I still live at home. It also makes me realize that have have zero friends so thats cool..

Feeling better since my major down swing this weekend, got out of the house and worked out today.

[Crazy Hitch]

I'm feeling so so

[gayleggg]

My day is starting off badly. Worry, anxiety and depression. It started as soon as I woke up. I can only hope that the day will get better.

[Lady Lazarus]

Today I'm kind of empty and tired. I have been having a lot of intrusive thoughts which is not great

[Unrigged64072835]

Finished all the online Xmas shopping, but now I have a sinus headache. Feeling tired and rather blah.

[BlackSheep79]

Went to my pdoc today for this depression I'm going through. He upped my Seroquel since I go manic on AD. We discussed me starting therapy and talked about couples therapy because of my husband being burnt out by my illness. I called a therapist yesterday and just waiting for a call back. I just can't believe that I thought I had this all under control over the years and I really didn't. My husband is burnt out and misses the woman he married. I truly believe it can be fixed now knowing the reality that I'm miserable from this illness and I have to work hard and enjoy my life, especially with the man I love so much. I just feel like a fool going all these years not realizing what I have become, a miserable stressed out lonely person just trying to survive each day.

[AngelShocker]

went to work for 6 hours today. Haven't been since sept. going to sign up for therapy tomorrow so can hopefully get on meds.

[hopeless2015]

Decided to stay on my meds and get out of bed

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[Nammu]

After months of only going to the grocery store and target for necessities I finally got out and went to 4 places including the mall(haven't been there in years) looking for a gift. It was hard being around so many people especially in the mall, so many places trying to shove shuff at me( free samples) one guy actually wanted to put stuff on my eyes, not sure if he was telling me what to do with the packet of cream or if he wanted to do a make over....but gees back off. I just stopped going in the stores and asked at the door if they had what I wanted. No luck all I bought was a card from hallmark. Found one of the ornaments I wanted at target. Then I lost my car...finally realized I had parked on the upper level! Feels so good to be home!

While I was out they came to repair the wall from the storm damage...nice, they timed it so I was out. It's always so uncomfortable when they come to fix something.

started my chocolate calendar.

i've got a lint one this year- and it's so tempting to just eat them all now.

but i'll be patient.

[scatterbrained04]

I am so drained after 5-6 hours of working in my office, I honestly don't know how I'll ever be be able to handle 8-9 hours again. Today I questioned whether there will ever be a time I can't work. Never seemed like a possibility until today. Not sure why.

[ladybug0811]

Hi all! I'm very new to this online support group thing.... I joined yesterday..... But I saw this thread and thought I would contribute because I have Bipolar I Disorder and I have never seen so many people to relate to in my entire life! Today I feel a bit anxious but not sad, more happy if anything. I know I had too much coffee and that my body is still tired because I can't stop yawning (that could be from the anxiety too...) but overall today hasn't been bad. My good friend up here at school with me invited me to her boyfriend's cottage tomorrow for the weekend, so I have that to look forward to. My problem is that when I don't have something to look forward to, I really struggle to find the meaning in life. But for now that is what is keeping me going! Love to all. -Lauren

[Standup2me]

Today is the same old song and dance my friend.

[Unrigged64072835]

Took our cat to the vet after three days of vomiting and not eating. We think it may be a reaction to the other cat's food (which she tries to sneak in when we're not looking--she's on a special diet anyway). More steroids and other anti-inflammatory stuff for two weeks. At least the vet didn't put in for a barium X-ray; that would've wiped out our financial buffer as I just have bought Christmas presents.

Other than that I have been frazzled from grocery shopping all over the place. I just want some pasta and to go to bed.

[gayleggg]

My day hasn't gone very well. I'm tired and depressed. Don't feel like doing anything including talking and being friendly. I feel sorry for my husband.

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