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#376
Apr 30, 2016, 10:56 AM
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New med
Clean sheets Clean me = Great sleep
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#377
Apr 30, 2016, 10:58 AM
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Mostly down today, dreary day, overspent gambling last night has me very upset today...short paycheck next week to, I'll have to figure it out. I had been doing so much better but lost control sigh
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#378
Apr 30, 2016, 12:37 PM
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I've decided that I am in the pit of bipolar depression. Anxiety, tears, agoraphobia, and back again. All I can do is sit on the bed. Not much else. I feel like I'm bad. A bad person. I keep saying in my head "I hate myself."
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Bipolar I, C-PTSD Lamictal 400mg, Zyprexa 15mg, Topomax 100mg, Elavil 50mg |
| Anonymous45023, apfei, Icare dixit, Takeshi
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#379
Apr 30, 2016, 12:46 PM
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I'm at three things. Hope I make it. Shall we start a competition?  Did more but less important, mostly distraction.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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#380
Apr 30, 2016, 08:08 PM
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Got some Spring cleaning done, throwing out stale boxes of crackers and other stuff from my kitchen cupboards. My kitchen feels more manageable.
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| Icare dixit
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| SillyMom, Takeshi
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#381
Apr 30, 2016, 08:35 PM
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And I have done my three things!
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
| Coconutzo, Takeshi
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#382
Apr 30, 2016, 08:43 PM
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Checking in and it appears I am still bipolar LOL.
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I traded it in for a whole 'nother world A pirate flag and an island girl |
| Nammu
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| Coconutzo, gina_re, Nammu, SillyMom, Takeshi
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#383
Apr 30, 2016, 08:53 PM
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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#384
Apr 30, 2016, 09:10 PM
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Hi I'm new here as of tonight.I'm bi polar1 and seem to have many many manic episodes.they always say when you get that elevated you can expect a crushing low .I haven't yet and I've been dx since 1996.been on every mood stabilerzer found one that has worked for 16 yrs Lamictal now the problem lies in my anti psychotic geodon been on that 16 yrs good drug but it just has run its course for me.I'm on Valium 30mg daily Topamax 400 MG and I just tried ambilfy which is suppose to be a miracle drug...I got severe side effects. So if I remember to take my Valium which has is diffucult to do when I'm manic .I'm usually calm enough so Noone k ow my mind is spinni g I know all I've read hear is deres sion episodes and happy outcomes I hope I didn't step out of line.
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| Anonymous45023, Nammu, Takeshi
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#385
Apr 30, 2016, 10:42 PM
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Feeling really good, recently changed psychiatrists after 16 years with the old one. It seemed like she just didn't "see" me anymore and she missed some stuff she shouldn't have. My new doc is very careful to listen and explain everything, and he doesn't seem to mind my interrupting him a lot, sort of verbal diarrhea! So happy with the decision to go with someone new. I was worried it wouldn't work out, but it's really great.
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#386
Apr 30, 2016, 10:53 PM
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Feeling alone tonight. Husband seemed to be trying his very hardest to start a fight today. Thank Goddess for working meds today. Was able to keep my cool.
Still wishing I felt someone actually wanted to talk with me and just hang out. I don't know if this is just adulthood or bipolar or something else. My first T appointment is Wednesday. I'm scared shitless. What all can he share? Sent from my SM-G920T using Tapatalk |
| Anonymous45023, gina_re, Takeshi
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#387
Apr 30, 2016, 11:09 PM
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What a long day....
But I did get my landscaping situation taken care of. Took a nap, then on up to my sister's place for an overdue visit with my nephew! Good times were had by all!! |
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#388
May 01, 2016, 02:37 AM
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 Dropped a 250-pound ceramic kiln on myself and almost broke my own hip. Long story. |
| Anonymous45023, Icare dixit, Nammu, Takeshi
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#390
May 01, 2016, 07:27 AM
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heh after all these years... still here... still have bipolar? :P
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#391
May 01, 2016, 07:35 AM
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Now every morning I have a chance to go from depression to a feeling of determination and direction. I must be blessed.
Optimism. Ease it, transcend it. Depression can't be useless, wasteful. I won't believe that.
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Mania kills cells. Brain cells die. Memories become more reduced conceptually, making more efficient use of limited means. Memories shape our reality. Our memories are more or less split in two by abstractions, conceptual reductions. Mood states with memories, concepts, attached. Memories of pain and those of joy. It causes instability, changeability. Fearing that will leave an emptiness between pain and joy and a greater divide. See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me. |
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#392
May 01, 2016, 11:51 AM
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Usual Sunday anxiety, I have court tomorrow morning, going to ask for continuence and try to get bankruptcy filed during that time
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#393
May 01, 2016, 04:15 PM
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This weekend has been exhausting! My sleep was thrown off for having to wake up earlier than I would've liked to on Saturday, took a nap longer than planned and then drive about 45 minutes to go hang out with my nephew. Left late and was exhausted again this morning. But I had to get up since I pretty much don't have any food in my house. I'm sore. Tonight I will be in bed earlier than usual.
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#394
May 01, 2016, 04:23 PM
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 "oh, i'll just take a 1-hour nap" -3 hours later- *looks at phone to check the time* "SHIIIIIIT" i'm guilty as charged. |
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#395
May 01, 2016, 04:45 PM
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#396
May 01, 2016, 05:15 PM
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Pretty worthless day so far but it's Sunday so it's not a big deal. I did honestly try and do laundry. We have laundry one each floor. I hustled my laundry to three floors before i gave up as they were all busy. Doing laundry on a Sunday is a bad idea, i guess. Tomorrow. It's rainy and chilly so i didn't have high hopes for the day anyways.
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#397
May 01, 2016, 08:04 PM
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I am angry, at the world, and people. People who treat our Earth Mother with such
disrespect. People throwing garbage out of their car window, people who don't cherish her like we should. I am so angry I could hurt someone, but I know I won't. Mankind, at times, disgusts me
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#398
May 01, 2016, 08:16 PM
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Really painful day. Hope is still alive though.
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| Anonymous45023, Nammu
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| Takeshi
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#399
May 02, 2016, 01:11 AM
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Amazed to find an increase in Lithium got rid of bad agitation and suicidal ideation. Wow, these meds are actually working. I feel great. Normal even
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD  "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
| lilypup, Nammu
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#400
May 02, 2016, 04:24 AM
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well survived another week (yeehaw!), and now just another one to go.. (boo!)
but my weekend.. not the greatest weekend- on saturday i triggered myself (which i didn't mean to really do,) but you just do it without meaning to... you think you know what all your triggers are, but then something else pops up you wern't really aware of set the mood for the weekend really, but my positive thing is that i actually cooked myself dinner on both nights (pie on saturday, and roast on sunday) just doing the best i can.. big issue for me at the moment is rest not happening |
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