[hopeless2015]

Court @9 I'm a nervous wreck...asking for a continuance but I don't know what I'm doing

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i always enjoy hearing from you, hopeless2015!

hugs

[Standup2me]

I don't feel like a part of this world.
I feel like I don't belong here

[lilypup]

doing okay today:
early shower
brushed cat
sewed a little

later:
get weighed in at diet place
go to women's group
go see CBT T

Still highly productive under heavily medicated aggressive hypomania. Excessive intake of barley tea, vapor, ibuprofen and benzodiazepines.

Five years today Operation Neptune's Spear in Abbotabad revealed the stealth-enhanced version of the Black Hawk helicopter:

[gina_re]

Originally Posted by Standup2me

I don't feel like a part of this world.
I feel like I don't belong here

You wouldn't be here if you did the belong here...take care

[Takeshi]

Originally Posted by Standup2me

I don't feel like a part of this world.
I feel like I don't belong here

Mother Nature is always speaking. She speaks in a language understood within the peaceful mind of the sincere observer.

-Radhanath Swami

I think your place is fine the way it is. It's all a matter of where you lay your eyes on, where you lay your thoughts on.

@Eartothegrnd,

Makes you wonder doesn't it? 16yrs, you could prolly pat your back for the longest fight you've had and won. I hope that years upon years of wisdom under your belt will set you on the path that get you onwards and upwards.

@hopeless2015

Congrats on making it to the court, 9's early, showing up on time with the hope that you want your life back, that'd better count.

Onto my check in, what's up with me?

It's the first day of three consecutive holidays over here, and today's 'constitutional memorial day'. Hoorey for having human rights as the citizen of this country, however, when I looked for some events that I could visit for th'sis important day, I couldn't find anything attractive enough for me to get out of the house. Article 9 of Japanese Constitution talks of No Wars, it's just too political for me to even think about...

I have a large sum of tax payment due soon after this holiday, and just the other day, I've found this unpaid bill hiding at the bottom of a bag that I hadn't touched for so long, I need to check on that.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Power_harassment

I'll be fighting against this personally and these types are EVERYWHERE! Human psychology could help IMHO, but who's listening?

[SillyMom]

I feel like running around screaming. So much energy I don't know what to do with it.

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My niece and nephew have this rapping puppet to explain how their crazy uncle must live by his wits. My brother will have to explain to his kids why the "real Noriega" owes Grover a hundred favors, and what it means to "catch a charge".

i finally got to see ted2 yesterday

still in stiches.. really funny. (probably not as funny as the first, but funny)

[Standup2me]

I am a human hand grenade
Ready to explode
Don't push me, or I will leave a path of destruction in my way

...gee can you tell I am getting manic???

[hopeless2015]

Trying to push myself through this day I think an extra anxiety pill is in order

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I've been flying between exploding and despair so deep it's a chore to bother breathing. Overdue for an appointment. No money. But my "at work" faux-semi-normal façade (albeit only marginally effective at best as it is) is crumbling fast.

And laughing at dvds like an hour after smashing things(!) This is not typical!! This level of chaos is exhausting.

And apparently, freaking people out.

[scatterbrained04]

Today, I am irritated and tired. I was up all night with a terrible earache. Worked today though I feel blah. Stupid drainage from bad seasonal allergies causes me so many issues. Sinuses, respiratory, ear. Every other year. Heading to family doc soon...

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[lilypup]

Got up and did some sewing. Drove to eat lunch and to the grocery store. (I have driving anxiety.)
Had planned to go to exercise at the gym and then on to my bipolar support meeting, but don't feel like it. Remains to be seen.
Think I may be getting a bit hypo...maybe not...I was very chatty yesterday, but today I feel pretty low key.

Originally Posted by lilypup

Got up and did some sewing. Drove to eat lunch and to the grocery store. (I have driving anxiety.)
Had planned to go to exercise at the gym and then on to my bipolar support meeting, but don't feel like it. Remains to be seen.
Think I may be getting a bit hypo...maybe not...I was very chatty yesterday, but today I feel pretty low key.

that's cool about the driving.

congrats

[gina_re]

I'm sitting here at work, about to leave for the day. I was nervous about coming in for the party, but I made it. I was social, I talked to many people. Some I didn't want to, some I was fine with. But I feel empty. No emotion to go alone with it. I simply exist. With anxiety as the culprit for now.

[gayleggg]

I had a good day. Spent it with my friend quilting. Mood has been good at least until I got home.

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[Nammu]

Saw my T today. Quite perked me up.

[Tsukiko]

I think that the end of the school semester is sending me into a hypomanic phase. I'm trying to pull back on the reins but I haven't even felt decent in a long time, so this new burst of energy feels wonderful and I find myself not really wanting to take any preventative measures to keep it from happening. In a way, I need this.

[Coconutzo]

GagagGGGGGHHHahAAAAAAAA
GRRREAT.
Killin it killin it killin it

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[Standup2me]

For anyone who knows the Marilyn Manson song Lunchbox...that is
exactly how I feel.

[SillyMom]

My T appoint is tomorrow. First one. I have a feeling it will just be bull stuff. I took my son to one that wasted the first email sessions over bull. Nothing ever was talked about that I mentioned I wanted to (running away, not doing homework, misbehavior)
It was a total waste of time

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Feeling good emotionally. Stable-ish. Physically I'm struggling with various issues. Need to work on one big issue and not sure where to start.

i'm feeling seriously hurt.

today's my sister's birthday, and out of the kindness of my heart ordered her a gift

she rang me today.. " just letting you know, i don't want you to wish me happy birthday. i don't want any ****ing gifts from you... remember you're not part of this ****ing family, and goodbye"

sharp kick in the stomach or what.. i know my family don't support me and they don't like me being part of events- christmas, birthdays, easter, what ever else... but to be told that at 6 in the morning... i feel really hurt.