I'm feeling down today. Just for a lot of reasons. Could use some hugs. Feel very lonely...

[Wander]

Originally Posted by rainyday107

Can you take it earlier?

Thanks. Not really as I take the first one when I get up and the second around 1pm. I have stopped the second dose even but the insomnia remains. Talked with my T today and he thinks it is maybe residual effects from my last nasty episode that only finished about 11 days ago. Kind of hope so as then I can keep taking stimulants. They are really helping me.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by rose1985

I'm feeling down today. Just for a lot of reasons. Could use some hugs. Feel very lonely...

Hi Rose, Are you ready? Here goes...

(((((( ROSE1985 )))))))

May you feel surrounded by Love Always!

Have a FUN day!

WC

[Wander]

Originally Posted by bizi

Tell me about your benzos...tapering?
bizi
they can wreck havoc on you.
When did you start the modafinil? Do you take it first thing in the morning?
How long have you noticed decreased sleep?
bizi

Thanks bizi. I have been weaning off benzos for only 11 days, since I started taking Baclofen which is kind of a safer replacement, apparently. Gone from around 4mg a day to 0.5-1mg. Have tried tapering off Clonzepam before and it was hell but this last 11 days has been easy thanks to the Baclofen. The idea is I will taper off the Clonazepam over the next couple of months and then taper off the Baclofen (which is much easier to get off, I hope!)

I have notice the decreased sleep for about a week. First broken sleep for about 8 hours then broken sleep over 4 hours. Going to take meds tonight (Olanzapine) to try and knock me out. If I do this for a couple of days I might be able to reset my brain.

[Gabyunbound]

My cat, Schnookie, again. Last night and this morning has very labored breathing, very lethargic, hiding, won't eat, etc. I don't know if this is a reaction to the prednisone I gave her yesterday for the colitis or if it has to do with the lymphoma my vet thinks she has, but she is SO sick

I'm going to take her to the vet ER this morning as soon as it opens at 7am. I'm going to be in big trouble at work because I had to call in at the last minute and just had a meeting with the manager and assistant manager about attendance in part because of the week I took off per pdoc's recommendation while titrating Seroquel, didn't want me to drive (I have a very long commute) or go to work for a week... But Schnookie comes first and she just looks awful, like she can hardly breathe...

I'm so sad... Please send good thoughts this way for poor Schnookie... Thanks.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by Gabyunbound

My cat, Schnookie, again. Last night and this morning has very labored breathing, very lethargic, hiding, won't eat, etc. I don't know if this is a reaction to the prednisone I gave her yesterday for the colitis or if it has to do with the lymphoma my vet thinks she has, but she is SO sick

I'm going to take her to the vet ER this morning as soon as it opens at 7am. I'm going to be in big trouble at work because I had to call in at the last minute and just had a meeting with the manager and assistant manager about attendance in part because of the week I took off per pdoc's recommendation while titrating Seroquel, didn't want me to drive (I have a very long commute) or go to work for a week... But Schnookie comes first and she just looks awful, like she can hardly breathe...

I'm so sad... Please send good thoughts this way for poor Schnookie... Thanks.

Oh no! That is awful. I am so sorry you are having to go through this. To have your beloved Schnookie so ill and work on your back must be so stressful. How are you coping? Is the Seroquel working? Sending many good thoughts for Schnookie and BIG HUGS to you.

I'm so sorry about Schnookie Gaby bmy heart is breaking for you both. I hope you get good news at the Vet today. I hope Schnookie feels better soon. Keep us posted, I'm thinking of you both.

[Wild Coyote]

(((((( Schnookie and Gabyunbound ))))))

Much Love and Support

We are here for you.

[Coconutzo]

I've been hiding under a rock. A big, anxious, self loathing rock. I'm overwhelmed. I'll have a good day, but the next one is so much worse for it.
I'm having suicide dreams. My head weighs eight hundred pounds.

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Feeling especially pissed off today for no reason

[hopeless2015]

Sleeping too much again, I've basically slept the last two days away. I just feel dead inside.

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[pirilin]

I've played ten tables and I'm even money.
Shall I be happy for not losing?. Or pissed for not winning.
Mixed episode.

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Hi Rose, Are you ready? Here goes...

(((((( ROSE1985 )))))))

May you feel surrounded by Love Always!

Have a FUN day!

WC

Thank you so much!

Originally Posted by Gabyunbound

My cat, Schnookie, again. Last night and this morning has very labored breathing, very lethargic, hiding, won't eat, etc. I don't know if this is a reaction to the prednisone I gave her yesterday for the colitis or if it has to do with the lymphoma my vet thinks she has, but she is SO sick

I'm going to take her to the vet ER this morning as soon as it opens at 7am. I'm going to be in big trouble at work because I had to call in at the last minute and just had a meeting with the manager and assistant manager about attendance in part because of the week I took off per pdoc's recommendation while titrating Seroquel, didn't want me to drive (I have a very long commute) or go to work for a week... But Schnookie comes first and she just looks awful, like she can hardly breathe...

I'm so sad... Please send good thoughts this way for poor Schnookie... Thanks.

I'm so sorry. I hope you get it figured out. I love my cats so much. Would be so upset to lose them.

Feeling a bit better today. Think I need my AD increased tho....

I'm slipping again. Pain has been high, feeling very sick. Wondering how I'm going to make it through this life being so sick. I'm letting everyone down. I know I need to take my pills but I'm scared and don't even fully understand why I won't take them. I'm afraid of side effects, or maybe it's something else. I cannot figure it out. I feel the pills make me sicker, but right now I don't want to live so I need to do something. (I have no plans for suicide, just wish I'd pass away peacefully)

I've read people say "if you don't think you need them, you are probably right". I go rapidly between thinking I need them and being sure I don't. I'm confused, I'm stuck and I need to do something, I just don't know what. I should start by taking my pills today, which I will do when I'm finished posting. I have to do something. I'm trying to stay positive, but it's getting more impossible by the day. I can't let it get worse.

[Gabyunbound]

Schnookie's doing better! Spent hours at the vet today. Turned out she had a bad reaction to the prednisone I was told to give her for her bout of colitis. They gave her fluids, pain meds, and an appetite stimulant and she still has a little labored breathing but is doing a lot better.

I'm scheduling the ultrasound at the hospital to see if she has lymphoma soon. I received a message from them, it's ridiculously expensive (they're board certified radiologists at the other hospital), but she's worth it and I'll figure out the finances.

Hope I won't get in trouble at work...

Thanks guys for being so supportive, you've been so wonderful!!!!!!!!!

[Daonnachd]

Glad to see she's doing better.

[Nammu]

Just found out about schnookie, sending good vibes your way and hope it's just one more bout with colitis.

[xRavenx]

I feel like I'm drowning again. It hurts when I think I can rely on someone for something, only to get disappointed after putting trust and faith into them. I blame myself for everything and don't feel I know how to do anything right. So much second guessing: What did I do wrong? Why aren't I worth loving when I give so much of myself? There are things I wish I can erase or undo, but I can't and have no choice but to deal with the pain now. So many regrets. I wish there was a medication that could help with that.

[scatterbrained04]

Can't sleep. It's getting annoying. Everytime I close my eyes it feels like the room is spinning. Almost like being drunk but I'm not. Not sure what gives.

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[OctobersBlackRose]

Going up to the Social Security office tomorrow morning to hopefully do my review and get the whole SSI thing sorted out. Really anxious about it, and paranoid that everything will go wrong, even though I signed the release for the records for my vision impairment to be mailed over, and working on getting my mental health records together. My Dad did drop me from his insurance, and idk how much longer I'll have Medicaid, so my *** may be uninsured soon if all this doesn't get worked out. Idk, I guess I'll see what happens tomorrow, just sucks I'm going through All this over an address change that was never put into their system 4yrs ago... also hoping I get at least a few hours of sleep tonight...

[OctobersBlackRose]

Originally Posted by Gabyunbound

My cat, Schnookie, again. Last night and this morning has very labored breathing, very lethargic, hiding, won't eat, etc. I don't know if this is a reaction to the prednisone I gave her yesterday for the colitis or if it has to do with the lymphoma my vet thinks she has, but she is SO sick

I'm going to take her to the vet ER this morning as soon as it opens at 7am. I'm going to be in big trouble at work because I had to call in at the last minute and just had a meeting with the manager and assistant manager about attendance in part because of the week I took off per pdoc's recommendation while titrating Seroquel, didn't want me to drive (I have a very long commute) or go to work for a week... But Schnookie comes first and she just looks awful, like she can hardly breathe...

I'm so sad... Please send good thoughts this way for poor Schnookie... Thanks.

Sending you good.vibes and positive thoughts, and lots of hugs.

[Wander]

Slept 9 solid hours after over a week of little broken sleep! Thanks Olanzapine. Hopefully I have reset my brain and can sleep without extra meds tonight.

day 4 of my worst anxiety episode in a long time.

unable to leave my room- so unable to get anything accept for what's in my fridge (seeing as it's next to my computer)