Originally Posted by Wander

Slept 9 solid hours after over a week of little broken sleep! Thanks Olanzapine. Hopefully I have reset my brain and can sleep without extra meds tonight.

I'm jelly

I keep waking up every 2-3 hours. I don't feel tired!

I got to get me some of that Olanzapine thingamajig. Though, I've heard it has massive weight gain. Is that true?

[Wander]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I'm jelly

I keep waking up every 2-3 hours. I don't feel tired!

I got to get me some of that Olanzapine thingamajig. Though, I've heard it has massive weight gain. Is that true?

Yes it is a big weight gainer which is why I only use it in emergencies. I am hoping to sleep naturally (well as natural as it comes with all the meds I'm on) tonight. I feel like I will. I am not as wired as I have been and I exercised for 1.5 hours today.

[Coconutzo]

Nothing is important anymore. I can't even handle looking people in the eye. I need to be alone.
But I hate feeling so alone

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[pirilin]

Originally Posted by Coconutzo

Nothing is important anymore. I can't even handle looking people in the eye. I need to be alone.
But I hate feeling so alone

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I've never being alone since I found my two associates long time ago.
God to my right and the devil to my left, me in the middle: team piri.

[pirilin]

Absolutely NO FEAR of any place, any time or any situation.

Originally Posted by pirilin

Absolutely NO FEAR of any place, any time or any situation.

Well, you *are* Superman. Superman better not be afraid. He's got laser beams in his eyes anyways, which means he can burn a hole through the foreheads of his enemies! He also has x-ray vision, so he can see people naked

[pirilin]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Well, you *are* Superman. Superman better not be afraid. He's got laser beams in his eyes anyways, which means he can burn a hole through the foreheads of his enemies! He also has x-ray vision, so he can see people naked

You know it. Only kryptonite can slow me down.

[Coffeee]

Woke up too early and couldn't sleep more, still tired all the time but also weirdly productive out of guilt for not doing my share of housework for months

[Standup2me]

I've been feeling pretty good for quite a while, but today I am feeling all inside myself. Just that "I want to hide" feeling, and I am not too sure why.

[hopeless2015]

Been home last 3 days sleeping the days away feel dead inside, I hate this!!

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[GoldenSnitch]

My cat died last night. I'm sad but I feel like I'm not as upset as I should be. I never really wanted a cat and didn't bond with him but I love animals and I'm sad that he had to pass away. I think that I just know that if it was my dog that passed I would be an absolute wreck so I should be more upset for the poor cat.

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[Daonnachd]

Snitch, I'm sorry to see that.

I'm just hollow and numb about everything.

[OctobersBlackRose]

Went to the Social Security office, things went well, the re-instated my payments which is good. Tomorrow I have a psych appointment, and eventually I got to.get on a Medicaid supplement insurance. Ugh stuff to do, and it feels.like there is no time to do it all. Welp, going to listen to music, maybe lurk around here, idk yet, and try to get some sleep...

[bizi]

Originally Posted by OctobersBlackRose

Went to the Social Security office, things went well, the re-instated my payments which is good. Tomorrow I have a psych appointment, and eventually I got to.get on a Medicaid supplement insurance. Ugh stuff to do, and it feels.like there is no time to do it all. Welp, going to listen to music, maybe lurk around here, idk yet, and try to get some sleep...

I hope you get some sleep tonight.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[A Hobbit]

I'm a loser.

I got some work done today. And I felt a surge of creativity this evening. I'm sure that people don't like me.

My wife keeps trying to get me to leave the house. She says I never leave the house and that it isn't good for me.

I don't want to go anywhere.

[pirilin]

I may be manic. Or close to it. It's coming down as the night progresses, so it's not thaaat bad. Testing my landing gear just in case.

[Wander]

Thanks to (evil, fat inducing) Olanzapine I have managed to sleep the last two nights. Now I am going to go a couple of nights without it and see how I go. Fed up with being on so many meds (15 pills in total over the day) so I am planning to talk with my pdoc about dropping a couple, probably bacolfen and Lamotrigine as they are of the least benefit to me. Doubt my doctor would be pleased with this but I hope he can understand my predicament and work with me. However, I am relatively stable right now and don't want to mess with it too much.

[bizi]

hi wander, I take .5mg of klonipin to sleep at night...only thing that works.
I take 16 pills including my vitamins and supplements.
I know that it is a lot but if you are stable then why mess with them as you say?
bizi

[pirilin]

Going to shrink now.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by bizi

hi wander, I take .5mg of klonipin to sleep at night...only thing that works.
I take 16 pills including my vitamins and supplements.
I know that it is a lot but if you are stable then why mess with them as you say?
bizi

Thanks bizi. The fifteen tablets are just my psych meds. I also take Thyroxin (for thyroid issues the Lithium has given me) and about 8 vitamins. Plus I take pain killers for my Fibromyalgia but that is only about once a week on average. Some days I skip the vitamins as I doubt they work and feel my stomach needs a rest from digesting so many pills. It just really bothers me. But again there is the concern about messing with my stability. I'm not sure what to do so I will talk with my T and pdoc next week.

[hopeless2015]

Been home in bed all week....my mom showed up this morning crying, upset that I can't get myself straightened out...I know she loves me and wants me to be well but boy do I feel like **** now. I'm such a disappointment to everyone

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[Coconutzo]

Originally Posted by pirilin

I've never being alone since I found my two associates long time ago.
God to my right and the devil to my left, me in the middle: team piri.

Haha!!

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[Coconutzo]

Originally Posted by pirilin

I may be manic. Or close to it. It's coming down as the night progresses, so it's not thaaat bad. Testing my landing gear just in case.

Parachute party!
Good luck, major tom.

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[Coconutzo]

I'm feeling SUPER OVERWHELMED.
I didn't sleep last night. I was boo hooing in bed like a little *****. I have no urge to be a part of anything in this world but am bound by arbitrary obligations. Put on your posi face, patty, and get on out.
Parents visit today. They will be getting in six hours before I am home from work. Please sweet Jesus, keep them out of my drawers.
Filled with psych meds. They have no idea about my issues, illness, imperfections, impotence, imploding internal inventories.
Woof.
Let the fun begin. Open the circus tent. Enter the tiger! Enter gallons of plastic jug whiskey and hissing conversations! Enter the tamers, flame throwers, and knives! Hooray! Hooray! Hooray!
Oh hell.

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[Nammu]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Been home in bed all week....my mom showed up this morning crying, upset that I can't get myself straightened out...I know she loves me and wants me to be well but boy do I feel like **** now. I'm such a disappointment to everyone

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Yah, parents who care sometimes inadvertently create guilt cause of the way they express their concern and love. It's really hard to deal with that. Ya feel bad already then ya got guilt piled on top but you really can't tell them to stop with the careing cause that'll hurt them more than they hurt already. Talk about a catch 22. Hugs to you, here's a shoulder, you can feel bad no pressure.