[bizi]

Originally Posted by rainyday107

Wow, I'm glad you all are ok! Both cars, yikes. What happened?

wow, sorry about that thank goodness no one was hurt.
((((HUGS))))
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[bizi]

Originally Posted by Wander

First day back at university. 7 hours of classes. Found it really difficult to stay focused all day but the classes were interesting. Feeling fragile but hopeful I will be able to handle the workload. Will just have to see how I go over the next few weeks.

7 hours in one day????
That is crazy!
Wow....can't imagine trying to do that....
poor you
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anyway to change that?

[rkba97]

Been feeling ok lately, but had a major mood swing and anxiety attack this morning. Working from home. Lucky I can do this. It's nobody's business to see me in this state. The bipolar monster turns every minor bump in the road into an earth shaking crisis. Life, marriage, work, new baby. I can do this. I am stronger than this monster, and I will kick its ***.

[Coconutzo]

Originally Posted by xRavenx

I feel that I do not know what I want out of life. I'm living too much "in the moment." I did not think this was such a bad thing, but I'm starting to think it isn't good for me, because I keep making really bad decisions and allowing toxic people to come in and out of my life. My head feels so mixed up right now, and I don't really know what I'm doing from one moment to the next. My mother has been criticizing me for this and is concerned about my choices about who I let into my life. She means well, but she does not realize how hard it is for me to think about the future when I just can't see past the next hour or minute. I'm just really confused and impulsive lately.

Are you seeing a therapist? It's seems like a good time to have someone there to help you organize your thoughts to work towards the life you want. Also it sounds like you are a bit manic and could use some emotional support outside of your mother.
Anyway, I'm sorry you are spinning and just know you can always vent/look for support here!

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[Coconutzo]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

We were in a car accident both cars totaled. We're all fine but still shaken up.

Oh no! I'm so sorry!
I'm glad you made it through ok!

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[raspberrytorte]

My mom keeps on bothering me to eat something. Jesus. I'm not hungry. For ****'s sake. Maybe I should make myself eat a bowl of cereal just so she'll leave me alone. What does she expect me to do? Eat an entire ****ing buffet. Mom: You didn't eat anything yesterday! You haven't eaten anything today and it's almost noon!

****, mom. I'm not hungry. I'm STRESSED.

[Coconutzo]

I'm adjusting to my new med(geodon) remarkably well. I've had a few brutal mornings of exhaustion, but by the afternoon I've felt excellent. Like extra special excellent. Today I woke up with a tired body but an mostly alert mind and just in a good dang mood!
It's been years since I've felt this good and clear. Instead of focusing on my own unraveling I can actually focus on the outside world!!??
Is this real life?
I'm so relieved, like sobbing, weeping, I might die of shock and gratitude, I never thought I would feel normal again, relief!

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[hopeless2015]

Doing good today, record attendance at work this week lol, I'm having trouble concentrating but I'm here and I'm trying, that all I can do

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i am feeling really good currently.

just watched charlie and the chocolate factory and now have the songs going round in my head

such an upbeat, fun movie

[Victoria'smom]

What happened? They ran a stop sign and we were in the lane. We swerved but still hit. they hit our bumper/side and crushed it into our tire and we took their front end almost off.

[Standup2me]

I'm tired of life, but not tired of living
I'm tired of oil companies whining about oil prices while they have billions in working capital
I'm tired of war, hate, poverty...ah.. you know...

Originally Posted by Standup2me

I'm tired of life, but not tired of living
I'm tired of oil companies whining about oil prices while they have billions in working capital
I'm tired of war, hate, poverty...ah.. you know...

Me too.....

[LadyShadow]

I hate just existing, I used to have passion and self confidence. Now I am shadow of what I once was.

[gina_re]

I made it through the day! Off to see my nephews!

[Unrigged64072835]

Miguel'smom, glad to hear that everyone is OK.

Today was a bit better. Got the last of the hospital stuff done for now. I have two consults; one I need to call for an appointment and one to either fax or take to the office. I took a larger dose of Vistaril and I wasn't panicking, but I still needed a nap.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by Wander

First day back at university. 7 hours of classes. Found it really difficult to stay focused all day but the classes were interesting. Feeling fragile but hopeful I will be able to handle the workload. Will just have to see how I go over the next few weeks.

Here in America it's a general rule of thumb that for every credit hour you need to spend 2-3 hours for homework. Most classes are for an hour 2-3 times a week and are An average of 3 credits. So that's 3 hours of for class and 6-9 hours for home work. For 7 hours of classes you'd need 21-28 hour of time for homework! That's a lot!

I forgot to say; today was my last day at work and now I have 25 days to get packed to move to my home state. Enough with the procrastination.

[OctobersBlackRose]

My therapy appointment today went well, no lectures,. But some difficult questions that I had a hard time answering, apparently by what I described in one of my journal entries, I.described the concept of the Matrix, but I've never seen the movie, so yeah, apparently I feel like I'm living in the Matrix according to my therapist. Got my meds refilled with no problems, so that's good. Not too bad of a day, still a bit depressed though, and agitated...

[UpDownMiddleGround]

Well, I see signs that I am hypomanic -- not winding, down to sleep, can't concentrate at work, etc. It really sucks because I am taking my meds,the way I'm supposed to. As always, I hope I balance back out before I go too far up. Unfortunately, it usually doesn't happen that way.

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[Wild Coyote]

Thursdays and Fridays are ultra-busy for me. Generally, Lots of appointments.

Uggh! A follow-up with a Rheumy specialist today. She saw my C-PTSD diagnosis and had asked me the cause(s). OMG! Really? Trying to explain was very difficult because I don't want to bring that all up in a Rheumy appt.
Now I'm wound up over the past 12 hours. It did not help me to answer her questions. She means well, trying to treat the whole person, etc.

Yet, I am now hypervigilant and super wound up when I need sleep.

I am so close to one of the major anniversaries, too. Ugggh!

This, too, shall pass.


WC

Well, I calmed down after committing manslaughter on that poor mouse. I want to go home. I have a stomach bug, too. Awesome😬 Lol

Originally Posted by Coconutzo

I'm adjusting to my new med(geodon) remarkably well. I've had a few brutal mornings of exhaustion, but by the afternoon I've felt excellent. Like extra special excellent. Today I woke up with a tired body but an mostly alert mind and just in a good dang mood!
It's been years since I've felt this good and clear. Instead of focusing on my own unraveling I can actually focus on the outside world!!??
Is this real life?
I'm so relieved, like sobbing, weeping, I might die of shock and gratitude, I never thought I would feel normal again, relief!

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That's awesome! Geodon is good stuff. Waking up with a smile is great. I take it, too. Don't forget to eat 500 calories when you take it. At least 500.

Alright Coco is good! The rest of us need good mojo. How do we do that?

ugg mannic rages!

i now currently don't have a sterrio thanks to knocking the whole thing off the shelf

the cd tray's broken and so today i need to find someone to come out and look at it (not really what i wanted to be doing on friday), but leave it to me and it would just be broken beyond repair- i'm no technitian

[Wander]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Here in America it's a general rule of thumb that for every credit hour you need to spend 2-3 hours for homework. Most classes are for an hour 2-3 times a week and are An average of 3 credits. So that's 3 hours of for class and 6-9 hours for home work. For 7 hours of classes you'd need 21-28 hour of time for homework! That's a lot!

I forgot to say; today was my last day at work and now I have 25 days to get packed to move to my home state. Enough with the procrastination.

It is the same in Australia. Three hours study for each hour of class. This is my only day of classes (they all worked out to be on the same day) so in total it is 28 hours of study a week, plus 16 hours of work so I will be one busy girl.

BTW Good luck moving!

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Coconutzo

I'm adjusting to my new med(geodon) remarkably well. I've had a few brutal mornings of exhaustion, but by the afternoon I've felt excellent. Like extra special excellent. Today I woke up with a tired body but an mostly alert mind and just in a good dang mood!
It's been years since I've felt this good and clear. Instead of focusing on my own unraveling I can actually focus on the outside world!!??
Is this real life?
I'm so relieved, like sobbing, weeping, I might die of shock and gratitude, I never thought I would feel normal again, relief!

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This is simply awesome!
Happy for you!
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