[Coconutzo]

Today is a good day to stay off social media for those of us who are easily triggered. There is a lot going on on both sides and around the world.

Be kind to yourselves and each other while emotions are flying all over the place. ❤️

[Coffeee]

That's a good idea coconutzo thanks for thinking of us.

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Today is my 46th birthday...I'm so thankful to not be wallowing in depression I don't know what to do with myself lol. My best friend is taking me to lunch and hubby and I will go out to dinner tonight.

Happy birthday Hopeless!!! Wishing you health, wealth and lasting beauty.

I've got until January to fix this state I'm in but I'm tempted to start some Wellbutrin and just be done with this whole mess. Feeling like I'm a special companion to the creator of the universe would shield me from the terror and panic I'm now feeling. Thank goodness my state is educated and sane.

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Today is my 46th birthday...I'm so thankful to not be wallowing in depression I don't know what to do with myself lol. My best friend is taking me to lunch and hubby and I will go out to dinner tonight.

Happy birthday!

[Unrigged64072835]

Happy birthday Hopeless2015!

[Wander]

After 3 hours sleep I woke at 2am bright as a button. Even the birds are up singing. Tried to go back to sleep but it's hopeless so I think my day has begun. Hope it's a good one.

Originally Posted by Wander

After 3 hours sleep I woke at 2am bright as a button. Even the birds are up singing. Tried to go back to sleep but it's hopeless so I think my day has begun. Hope it's a good one.

Sorry you didn't sleep longer but glad you got some and feel refreshed. (((Hugs)))

[jtassar93]

Pdoc tomorrow. Hospital maybe? Hoping for a good med change. Sucks that we can only change one at a time. Kind of nervous about my note. I'm already in panic mode lol.

Also saw a new scary hallucination. Hoping new meds help and I don't have to see it again.

I quit cannabis awhile back....I let my card expire but after the election last night I hit up my neighbor and smoked a little. Better than drinking me thinks. Not perfect but better than driving 90mph to the nearest ER. It helped and I may need more. My bowels are on fire....stomach churning out of control. Geodon or anxiety? I'm not sure but it sucks!

[bioChE]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I quit cannabis awhile back....I let my card expire but after the election last night I hit up my neighbor and smoked a little. Better than drinking me thinks. Not perfect but better than driving 90mph to the nearest ER. It helped and I may need more. My bowels are on fire....stomach churning out of control. Geodon or anxiety? I'm not sure but it sucks!

Keep an eye on the cannabis use. For me it helps for a while, then eventually sends me into a psychosis.

I had a card when I lived in Cali. Massachusetts just voted to legalize, so it's pretty close to me here in NY. Personally I support legalization, but I also need to stay away from it for my mental sake.

I got much worse when I quit. It has lots of antipsychotic properties and is much safer than the drug prescribed. Perhaps not for everyone, but for many. It's natures medicine for a lot of folks and beats the pants off the side effects of commonly prescribed drugs. But thanks for the warning and I will be careful. My husband was the person who forced me to try it a few years ago and didn't agree with me stopping....neither does my mom. My husband doesn't use it but he supports its use in people like me who it helps. Just got to read the real facts otherwise a placebo effect will occur and paranoia is certain. I've done my research and nobody has died from cannabis use...there is no drug hangover.....the same can't be said for commonly prescribed meds which can slowly kill you. Don't get me wrong...I use it sparingly and take my prescribed meds but when something works, it works. (((Hugs)))

Don't fall for propaganda.....do your own research (reading, not smoking). Don't smoke until you know what you are doing and feel absolutely safe....otherwise a bad trip will happen.

[bioChE]

All good points. Keep a level head and as you say, if it works it works.

[fishin fool]

I forgot to take my effexor this morning and I feel awful now.

[OctobersBlackRose]

Had DBT group and individual therapy today, went well. Talked about the election in individual, let's just say I'm angry and sad over the results... Listening to music to calm myself down.

Can I read, view and type in my sleep? If so, someone PLEASE wake me up!!!

I've already been struggling so hard against hopelessness. Numb with overwhelm on too many fronts. Dissociation. So much dissociation. Seems it's my superpower. Not sure that's a good thing...

[Wander]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Can I read, view and type in my sleep? If so, someone PLEASE wake me up!!!

I've already been struggling so hard against hopelessness. Numb with overwhelm on too many fronts. Dissociation. So much dissociation. Seems it's my superpower. Not sure that's a good thing...

Dissociation is awful. So sorry you are suffering. Can you use grounding techniques to bring you back? Take care

[Unrigged64072835]

Rough day. Had to deal with grumpy family members. Puttered on the computer most of the day. Hopefully I'll get a good night's sleep.

[Wander]

Nearly 10am Thursday (Western Australian time) and I still feel awesome. In fact more so than after my few hours sleep. Nurse noticed my rapid speech and bounciness so when I explained my thoughts were racing, pressuring me and I wanted to leave the hospital to be free to explore (I am IP with only escorted leave allowed for appointments) she strongly suggested 10mg of Olanzapine. I said no but half an hour later I had a revelation that what goes up must come down so I took the med.

Now I still feel awesome, very cheerful but calmer. Not sleepy at all either. Going to be a beautiful day

[jtassar93]

Braved the dark, cold, abandoned basement to do the laundry. Ended up dissociating and blankly stared at nothing for like 20 minutes. Hallucinated some and was scared but I made it!

DBT class went well yesterday. I almost made a friend....even my hubby noticed and pointed her out. I made a request because I found them using an analogy of leaving a 2 year old home alone over and over, very triggering after awhile. The potential friend made a point of making eye contacts with me, validating me and agreeing with me. I was shocked! Seemed too good to be true that I wanted a friend and may have already found one. It was just a small thing but we had something in common and you got to start somewhere. In other news, I may be applying for a part time job soon. I will get all the details within a few weeks and need to figure out the SSDI part. Need my Medicare. I'm calming down from the election. I've moved from anger, denial and now I feel a tiny speck of acceptance moving in. Avoided taking a PRN today and need to take my night meds in a few hours. The election got my blood pumpin but I do think I'm climbing back down the ladder to stability. I'm still a bit passionate and chatty though.

[Faltering]

I had to be at an intern conference all day. The voice was present for a little while this morning but it was garbled and muffled. I feel okay. I wonder if that's a sign of improvement. I'm almost scared to experience gains on this medicine since it's too expensive for me.

[xRavenx]

I'm so stressed to the max. I find myself taking a lot more Klonopin than usual to get through these days. I feel panicky during the day, have problems sleeping in spite of medication, and I feel like I'm going to break. I am trying to keep to myself lately, but others seem to have a difficult time respecting my space and get offended. I'm a people pleaser, so it's not easy. Why is it so hard to just take care of myself? I wish others would understand. Just had to let this out...

[Tucson]

I have been stressed to my limits. I thought I was going to lose it a week ago. Now I feel much better. I had a break from her for a couple days, but not for good reasons. She collapsed. I called the ambulance. They could not find the reason. She stayed in the hospital for a couple days. Since she was OK, I took advantage and relaxed.

Tucson

The Geodon is ripping my stomach to shreds. Hurts so bad....won't stop gurgling and churning and none of my self help techniques are working. If this doesn't lessen soon I won't be able to take it much longer. I'm sweating from the churning pain. I'm so grateful for the meds and angry with them at the same time.....I just don't know. I want to start a college class and feel it could be very Therapeutic. I need to increase my social exposure and start seeing if I can handle some responsibility.