[scatterbrained04]

Feeling emotional over the election still. Getting yelled at by Democrats for voting 3rd party like it's my fault. Thinking about leaving all social media for a few days.

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

Feeling emotional over the election still. Getting yelled at by Democrats for voting 3rd party like it's my fault. Thinking about leaving all social media for a few days.

stick around. Nothing is your fault. You did what you felt was best and should feel proud for following your heart. ((((Hugs)))

[hopeless2015]

Still feeling good..if I make it through tomorrow that will be 2 full weeks of work without using any fmla time...I can't remember the last time that happened

[OctobersBlackRose]

Still getting anxiety disorder over the election, just flat out scared. And what happens in the future if they decide config SSI and Medicaid, then I and many others will be screwed. I'm also afraid to leave my house over fears.of getting harassed. It is definitely scary.

Watching trashy daytime TV.right now to distract myself, and lurking around here.

[Unrigged64072835]

Today was okay. I got my nails done and we went to a park we haven't been at before. It was kind of different.

The election is still hitting the family hard. My daughter's friends who are LGBTQ+ are scared for their lives. It's been hard to stay in balance but I'm trying. Looking towards going back to school in the spring. We'll see if I'm still able by then.

I was up all night on the toilet....the pain is unimaginable....I don't know if it's stress or the Geodon. I can't stop my pills right now but this pain, cramping, sweating, churning and explosions within my belly are keeping me from thinking straight. I'm told to wait and see....how do you wait and see when your own blood and DNA could die? I want to be proactive and not reactive but I don't know what or how to do this. Any advise??? Anyone???

[Nammu]

I too have been watching trashy tv for a distraction...top model anyone?

Had a dream last night in which my mother's uncle told me that it felt great to wake up in an America in which it was okay to hate again. He was a pharmaracist (a racist pharmacist) who backed over my mom with a truck, sold her Dexedrine without a prescription and did time in Massachusetts for armed robbery. He's been dead for seventeen years, but apparently still has an internet connection.

I'm sorry for everything I'm saying right now....I'm so distraught. I just wasn't prepared....I'm not saying nice things but I really cannot help it. Please forgive me....please help me. Tell me it will all be okay.

[Coconutzo]

Elsa I would call your doc. Everything will be ok, but clearly you need some assistance. Hang in there! (((Hugs))))

Is this damned election really going to put me in the hospital? How are they going to help me in this situation. I'm not going to harm myself because I would be of no use to my son if I did. What can they realistically do?

[Wander]

Another night with only 3 hours sleep but I feel good, just anxious. Seeing my doctor today (I'm IP) and can't wait to tell him how i feel and think. Curious to know what he thinks is going on. I want to be discharged but nurses say I am manic and I'm on close observations for some reason. I feel great and don't want to do harm. maybe they see something i don't?

Originally Posted by Wander

Another night with only 3 hours sleep but I feel good, just anxious. Seeing my doctor today (I'm IP) and can't wait to tell him how i feel and think. Curious to know what he thinks is going on. I want to be discharged but nurses say I am manic and I'm on close observations for some reason. I feel great and don't want to do harm. maybe they see something i don't?

They usually do in my experience.

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by OctobersBlackRose

Still getting anxiety disorder over the election, just flat out scared. And what happens in the future if they decide config SSI and Medicaid, then I and many others will be screwed. I'm also afraid to leave my house over fears.of getting harassed. It is definitely scary.


Watching trashy daytime TV.right now to distract myself, and lurking around here.

I feel you. I was already told he made a statement addressing to cut Medicaid and housing assistance. I have not heard mention of SSI and SSDI yet. But I'm positive people on SSDI will not get a yearly raise the whole four years. I'm so stressed out. I do not get Medicaid I just turned down housing it was too complex. I'd rather do it on my own. I do not get food stamps. He also mentioned cutting that off. This is going to be a bumpy ride for those that are not middle class and up

I called my doctor and I'm waiting for a call back. I should get permission before starting the Wellbutrin again.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

They usually do in my experience.

What do they know that I don't? It confuses me

Originally Posted by Wander

What do they know that I don't? It confuses me

It confuses me too...I think what they want to see. They let me out early...I don't too much about the exact way to get out and the laws. I could sue the pants off them if they didn't release me in an adequate amount of time. But it's smarter to stay if you can. I wish I wasn't so paranoid during my last hospitalization and could have stayed longer. I just needed to be alone for the paranoia to leave....be in my own house.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

It confuses me too...I think what they want to see. They let me out early...I don't too much about the exact way to get out and the laws. I could sue the pants off them if they didn't release me in an adequate amount of time. But it's smarter to stay if you can. I wish I wasn't so paranoid during my last hospitalization and could have stayed longer. I just needed to be alone for the paranoia to leave....be in my own house.

I am in voluntarily but if my pdoc refused to discharge me then I leave AMA and that looks very bad on my record, and I think the hospital can refuse to admit me should i need help in the future. I would be stuck in the very, very average public system.

I am happy with the staff and feel safe, just want to run around outside and play near the ocean where I live. I am just wondering why I am on close observations when I am harmless. guess they think I might do a runner or something. Oh well, I see my pdoc in a few hours and can discuss this with him. Can euphoric mania be dangerous?

[raspberrytorte]

Still feeling sick about the election. My anxiety levels have sky rocketed.

[pirilin]

Im still here.

[Nammu]

Hi pirilin

Originally Posted by Wander

I am in voluntarily but if my pdoc refused to discharge me then I leave AMA and that looks very bad on my record, and I think the hospital can refuse to admit me should i need help in the future. I would be stuck in the very, very average public system.

I am happy with the staff and feel safe, just want to run around outside and play near the ocean where I live. I am just wondering why I am on close observations when I am harmless. guess they think I might do a runner or something. Oh well, I see my pdoc in a few hours and can discuss this with him. Can euphoric mania be dangerous?

Our systems sound very similar. It is much smarter to go voluntarily and they have presented me that option in the past. Unfortunately my paranoia and belief that they were part of a conspiracy to lock me up forever clouded my ability to see things in this way at the time. My mind was far gone.....my husband and mother were in on it....I felt so alone and abandoned and like an experiment. If he haldol my husband just picked up doesn't help me sleep then I'm not sure anything will.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

Our systems sound very similar. It is much smarter to go voluntarily and they have presented me that option in the past. Unfortunately my paranoia and belief that they were part of a conspiracy to lock me up forever clouded my ability to see things in this way at the time. My mind was far gone.....my husband and mother were in on it....I felt so alone and abandoned and like an experiment. If he haldol my husband just picked up doesn't help me sleep then I'm not sure anything will.

I really hope the haldol checks your brain out for a short holiday. You need it.

Again I wonder, can euphoric hypo/mania be dangerous?

Originally Posted by Wander

I really hope the haldol checks your brain out for a short holiday. You need it.

Again I wonder, can euphoric hypo/mania be dangerous?

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For some people probably. We can get chatty and divulge too much then regret it. That is a worry I have right now.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

m
For some people probably. We can get chatty and divulge too much then regret it. That is a worry I have right now.

yeh, i am chatty...and i just divulged the suburb where i live on another thread. not that I'm worried but i guess it was tmi to stay private. i have little to no filter. I also believed i could fly yesterday. today i just know i am a god...but a good one who wants peace and love for all. sending vibes your way to bring peace