I have one heck of a drug hangover...I couldn't even partake in a healthy debate because my brain is mush and in sloth mode. I'm going to have a coffee today and start mentally preparing for my group tonight. I haven't been in a social setting talking with several people in a long time. Perhaps I will make a friend and we will have tons in common and see eye to eye. I wish upon a star, cross my fingers, eyes, do a little dance, spin in circles 3 times and bam....my chances of meeting a friend are almost guaranteed.

[Nammu]

I hope you do meet a friend Elsa

Originally Posted by Nammu

I hope you do meet a friend Elsa

Thank you Nammu....my nearest friend lives about an hour and a half away....she has 3 kids and has a serious injury so doesn't move too well and I don't like being in a car for too long due to phobia....it would be nice to meet someone closer to go to the mall and do girly things with. I have 2 sons and hubby so I'm surrounded by testosterone all day . I'm not complaining...I just want someone to get my nails done with or go have coffee and chat about girly stuff. My mom is too busy and not into girly things like I am. A friend would be wonderful. (((Hugs)))

[Wild Coyote]

Elsa, I feel you will attract many people wanting to be your friend!

You are a very open-hearted, loving, compassionate, truly beautiful soul!


WC

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Elsa, I feel you will attract many people wanting to be your friend!

You are a very open-hearted, loving, compassionate, truly beautiful soul!


WC

You always touch my heart and bring happy tears to my eyes. You are all those things as well WC. (((Hugs)))

[Coconutzo]

You are so supportive and insightful. Anyone would be lucky to be your friend.

[LadyShadow]

I've been having an okay week so far. Finally got the sleep pattern (somewhat) figured out. Still woke up several times last night and am yawning right now. I feel so exhausted almost all the time. I don't know how I will handle a part-time job I so desperately need at this point. Just doing it one day at a time I guess.

I hope you find a friend Elsa, I would love to have a nice friend closeby. The only one I have keeps cancelling on me. That friendship wasn't really healthy for either of us.

Best of luck to you. Remember to put on that big beautiful smile! ((hugs))

[Unrigged64072835]

Today was somewhat quiet. I processed my latest photos and put them on Flickr. Helped my husband clean the kitchen. Today was also my first day on Artane, and I seem to be less anxious today. Will need to continue to see if this keeps working.

Voted for the first woman President.

[jtassar93]

Doing alright now. Finally got my seroquel and Valium. Managed to get 6 hours of sleep which is a lot for me. Panic attacks are decreasing and my anxiety has become more manageable. Still dealing with the scary visual/auditory hallucinations and paranoia but I'm happy with what had improved so far.

I wish you luck Elsa!

[OctobersBlackRose]

Received some clothes I ordered from Hot Topic in the mail today, my new.shirts and jeans are so cute!

Nervous about the election tonight, I voted (absentee) but I voted, so now it's a wait and see game of who will win, The just can't wait for it all to be over!

Listening to music to calm me down.

On my way to DBT (hubby is driving). Nervous and excited simultaneously *biting nails*

[Coconutzo]

Today all I wanted was to lay in bed and avoid the world. Instead, I spent hours working on the house. My fella came home and immediately told me that I did all of it wrong, and it completely spoiled his mood.

I should have stayed in bed.

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by OctobersBlackRose

Received some clothes I ordered from Hot Topic in the mail today, my new.shirts and jeans are so cute!

Nervous about the election tonight, I voted (absentee) but I voted, so now it's a wait and see game of who will win, The just can't wait for it all to be over!

Listening to music to calm me down.

It's a coincidence...I was just thinking to myself how I would like to get some new band tees/clothes from Hot Topic. I've been spending so much money though, but nothing wrong with treating myself maybe. I'm also anxious about the election and can't wait until it's over. I've been on the edge of my seat watching all the coverage for so long now. I'm glad I voted though. I think I need to listen to some music to calm down, myself.

Dow futures down 800 in anticipation of the Trumpenning. Tomorrow is going to be a mess.

I think I'm going to dye my eyebrows brown tonight. My hair is naturally blonde and eyebrows are a dark blonde...I like more of a contrast....dark brows with light hair. Think Billie Piper (aka Rose from Doctor Who). I'm so emotional so perhaps o should hold off but I need to do something. Maybe I should go out to a diner and have some decaf coffee with hubby. I want to start a blog about this mess. I need to find the easiest way to start a blog. So many thoughts and feelings....I'd like to write a blog where people can interact and comment freely. I should take my dog for a walk but it's dark and neighborhood is not safe and I'm afraid of riots.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I think I'm going to dye my eyebrows brown tonight. My hair is naturally blonde and eyebrows are a dark blonde...I like more of a contrast....dark brows with light hair. Think Billie Piper (aka Rose from Doctor Who). I'm so emotional so perhaps o should hold off but I need to do something. Maybe I should go out to a diner and have some decaf coffee with hubby. I want to start a blog about this mess. I need to find the easiest way to start a blog. So many thoughts and feelings....I'd like to write a blog where people can interact and comment freely. I should take my dog for a walk but it's dark and neighborhood is not safe and I'm afraid of riots.

Glad you are staying safe!


WC

I'm going to help lad off on the brow thing until tomorrow. My night meds have fully known coed in and I'm ready for bed. Feeling calmer (things got sketchy for awhile) and just think I need a good rest. Good night everyone.

[Wild Coyote]

I hope all can rest peacefully.


WC

[Wander]

Saw my T today. He said I'm hypomanic bordering on manic as I still have some insight and am coherant most of the time. Still feel awesome but conversation with T unsettled me a bit, though it helped immensely. PTSD stuff seems to driving swings in mood, from hypo to mixed and back. Briefly talking of PTSD triggered me but I am going to distract myself so I don't go down. Still feel like a god - intoxicating. Told T that I want to go off my meds and see how i am without them. He was against the idea. I just want to know if i have bipolar or 'just' ptsd as some meds and ptsd seem to trigger episodes. maybe i am well. I feel fine and am only taking Lithium, ritalin, and Olanzapine prn and Clonazepam prn. I just want to stay happy.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Wander

Saw my T today. He said I'm hypomanic bordering on manic as I still have some insight and am coherant most of the time. Still feel awesome but conversation with T unsettled me a bit, though it helped immensely. PTSD stuff seems to driving swings in mood, from hypo to mixed and back. Briefly talking of PTSD triggered me but I am going to distract myself so I don't go down. Still feel like a god - intoxicating. Told T that I want to go off my meds and see how i am without them. He was against the idea. I just want to know if i have bipolar or 'just' ptsd as some meds and ptsd seem to trigger episodes. maybe i am well. I feel fine and am only taking Lithium, ritalin, and Olanzapine prn and Clonazepam prn. I just want to stay happy.

I have c-PTSD, too. It's tough to sort out which condition is causing which symptoms and when.

I don't blame you for wanting to "stay happy."


WC

still trying to recover my emotions from the fireworks

iritibillity's been pretty high though (or at least on sunday and monday it was)

i'm just doing what I always do when I struggle like this.... window shop on amazon. then buy on amazon, then get excited for when I buy on amazon and it arives..

oh and tonight it's a special night for me. a very special night. I am going to have some turkey dinosaurs for my tea (see the thread)

life's just been life, I guess. the day starts, the day ends- with very little to say in between time

[Coffeee]

I've been feeling sick, cancelled everything all week, only really important thing is Thursday. Been haunting the forums a lot lately as a result. It was nice to take a break from all the responsibilities I had but now I don't particularly feel like picking them up again. Life is hard. I feel like I'm struggling every day and I'm not even doing that much.

[hopeless2015]

Today is my 46th birthday...I'm so thankful to not be wallowing in depression I don't know what to do with myself lol. My best friend is taking me to lunch and hubby and I will go out to dinner tonight.

[Nammu]

Yesterday was a bad bad day. Not just the vote( although that has created a ton of gnawing anxiety)

I had a disagreement with my daughter. She's always accusing me of being angry when I'm not, I'm am not a perky bubbly person but that doesn't make me angry ( trust me if I was angry everyone would know) anyway I was trying to make supper and clear the table when her son who had already eaten two fruit rolls and half a can of potatoe chips tried to get the mms. I told him no, we were going to eat soon. She descended on me and accused me of being angry, I was so hurt I told her she need to learn to say no to her son. Because there is no argument to those words...you are angry.....how do defend against that? If you say no I'm not it sounds like you are. I was just so hurt. I'm still so unspent by the whole thing and can't eat.

The BP isn't affected I'm just upset and sad