Questions: Bipolar Version 2

2016 has been pretty bad as i have been very unwell most of it.

What are your hopes for 2017?

2016 has been good! Got my own place!

Will you do big or small with presents this year? (In terms of $ spent)

to get better treatment

to hopefully move somewhere else in the country (I don't really like where I am)

to find something to focus my life on (sounds a bit bland,), but seriously it's scary living without any clue or any direction of where you want your life to go

to own a puppy (or some other pet)

I've no one to buy for

so will probably just get a few small things myself (though since my radio broke yesterday, I need to find a new one- and they arn't cheap)

describe your feelings towards christmas in 1 word

Overrated.

New Years resolution?

Get my psych meds straightened out! (Starting Rexulti beginning of Jan. Quitting zyprexa).

Are all you holiday decorations up? (Mine aren't!)

No.

Do you thing Santa is bipolar, with all that reckless spending?

Lmao yes he must be with all the energy it takes to get the job done

Then he's depressed the rest of the year with not much to do

Who had a bad run in with SSRI's?

I did. They all made me manic. Prozac gave me akathesia although I didn't know what it was at the time and had a truly horrible pdoc who had no idea either.

Do you take your meds at exactly the same time every day?

No. But approx.when I get up and when I go to bed.

Do you sing?

Yes, I love singing. Unless when depressed of course.

Do you use Spotify?

no.

what are your thoughts regarding social networking sites

I like to browse but know they are bad for my mental health

Favorite comfort food?

Chocolate chip cookies...baked from scratch.

Favorite scent?

It changes but currently and most consistently for 20 plus years it's been Le Eau De Issey by Issae Miake (not sure of that spelling but too lazy to go look at bottle)

What is your most effective coping strategy?

tearing up paper

makes me feel so good

(I actually just tore a christmas card in to really really tiny bits)

made me feel so good

how would you spend your ideal day

I would go for an early, long snorkel to start the (hot) day. I would then play guitar and sing for ages, if I could concentrate I would read a good book. Maybe have a long lunch with friends by the beach, sneak in a nap and go for another swim. I would listen to music and dance in my flat or just soak it in. Time to chill, surf the net then dinner and drinks with family. Then the best sleep ever and wash, rinse repeat...well at least for a few days.

Sorry, you did ask. Q. Book or TV?

deffenetly tv

do you have many worries about the future?

Yes I have plenty. I wonder what will happen when my parents will pass away. How long will I remain on disability, (they just reviewed me AGAIN and that's twice in one year, its almost like they are dying to take it away from me), and what will happen to me in general because I have no savings. It worries me all the time.

Do you know when you're in a mania or depression? Can you identify it or you just roll through it?

I can make a pretty good guess

when I used to know my friend laura (the woman with autism), we made quite a good team as far as my moods were concerned.

what is your number 1 priority as far as yourself goes. what is the 1 thing you feel needs to be done now.

Right now I absolutely need to fix my finances. This years outstanding mental illness bill is 30 grand. I have to work my tail off to catch up. I also have to train myself to money correctly.

What is one thing you could not live without

My mind (not so sure about my brain) and music (or ears and a tongue and I'd invent it).

Would you be willing to live in a world where you don't have (or there is no) BP, without music (or no one to write it if there were no BP, no mental torture, boldness and ecstacy )?

Music means too much to me. Even the music that the earth makes is nothing I would ever give up. There is too much beauty in it.

When hypo, do you feel any need to express your emotions in a tactile way (painting, knitting, colouring, etc)?

As close to tactile that I get (as I guess it is pretty tactile, just not crafty) is playing the guitar and singing. When hypo I find expressing my emotions this way is an ecstatic experience.

What's your go-to 'natural' cold and flu remedy? Eg. I am currently gargling Apple Cider Vinegar to try to ward off a cold/sore throat.