[crunchyt]

Can I jump in here? I'm new

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by crunchyt

Can I jump in here? I'm new

Welcome to the forum!

[WhiskeyGirl]

hi, I'm new to the forums.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by crunchyt

Can I jump in here? I'm new

[gina_re]

Welcome crunchyt!!

Well the past couple of days I've been extremely lazy and haven't done anything. I was trying to put myself back into a sleeping routine the past week to be able to transition back to work successfully, but that hasn't been the case. I figured whatever, let's enjoy it while it lasts! But yesterday and today, it's just been so difficult getting out of bed. Just pure tiredness and no motivation to do so. What for? I have nothing to do or nowhere to go. Today I forced it because I wanted to buy a book so I can have something to do when I'm on the train since I'm back to work. Speaking of which, I go back to work tomorrow for the first time since October. I'm nervous and don't know what to expect. But I think my anxiety is in check enough to do so. I logged in remotely to look and see what work is sitting there waiting for me so I don't have a panic attack when I go in. And I thought to myself, ok I can do this work now. My head is much clearer. But I'll still take klonopin with me in preparation for possible anxiety from being back there and a red bull for energy to be able to sit in front of a computer all day again. Not to take at the same time, but who knows how I'll be tomorrow.

[Moose72]

I've got to go to DHS tomorrow to try and sort out this insurance mess and I'm afraid.

@Moose: good luck! Hope it goes well for you. Let us know how it goes

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I'm going to the mountain tonight to snowboard for the first time in a a few years! Should be loads of fun. Nice to get some exercise in the winter besides jogging all the time.

Also might be going snowboarding with some coworkers early this season, which should be fun too.

Mood is "meh", though, but I think some fresh air tonight will make me feel better.

[zijax]

Drove to Gsp airport, an hour away, dropped off oldest son, then drove younger son to Atl, three hour drive, turned around and drove back home, on the way son at Gsp airport had flight cxld, picked him back up, drove an hour home, woke up at 3am, drove him back to Gsp airport this am, I'm tired...

[Coconutzo]

I'm sick. Also embarrassed about running around like a crazy person yesterday and drinking a lot. I'm sure that aided in the deterioration of my condition. But drinks and shopping and girl time!!!
I'm paying for it today, and I couldn't sleep last night

Originally Posted by zijax

Drove to Gsp airport, an hour away, dropped off oldest son, then drove younger son to Atl, three hour drive, turned around and drove back home, on the way son at Gsp airport had flight cxld, picked him back up, drove an hour home, woke up at 3am, drove him back to Gsp airport this am, I'm tired...

wow.. what's with all the airport trips?

should deffenetly get some rest if you can

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

@Moose: good luck! Hope it goes well for you. Let us know how it goes

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I'm going to the mountain tonight to snowboard for the first time in a a few years! Should be loads of fun. Nice to get some exercise in the winter besides jogging all the time.

Also might be going snowboarding with some coworkers early this season, which should be fun too.

Mood is "meh", though, but I think some fresh air tonight will make me feel better.

I hope you enjoy it

the thought of doing all that makes me feel just... ugg

not really doing much to help myself/ mood today.

I litirally can't be bothered (I've not even changed clothes)

I am just here

[fishin fool]

Hi all, emotions still all over the place.
I have to go to my sons engagement party this weekend and I am freaking
out about it, mostly because my ex will be there. UGH

I hope it's OK that I join here. I do not know where to exactly fit in, among the bipolar or among the depressed. I am not officially diagnosed as having Bipolar Disorder, am in some kind of middle position between Unspecified Bipolar with Seasonal pattern or Cyclothymia. To mention these diagnoses may give you a clue of what kind of sufferings I struggle with. My sufferings are chronic in what ever box one chose to label them (the professionals might call it atypical depression ???). My «highs» are often related to how I feel after having had fun. It is as if I cannot stop «having fun», inside I'm filled with repetitive funny intrusive thoughts (not fun when I need to go to bed, but am not able to fall asleep). I feel that I am helped by the use of CBT/DBT techniques. A lot of work, but in my case, worth it. Among others I see having real fun as triggers. Of course I cannot stay out of fun (like everybody else I want to enjoy), but in my case the best I can do to be able to not suffer afterward is to plan how to behave before and after the fun. I try to live a structured life, eat healthy, try to get enough sleep and have taught myself to look out for triggers and to use techniques to prevent episodes if possible.

To control the disorder if possible, not to be controlled by it is my motto.

It is not always possible or sometimes it's too difficult to see the trigger before it is to late. Am working on trying to become better in forgiving myself and to accept that I have a chronic disorder.

Since I have used some years to learn how to cope, I hope to be able to in some way or other to give hope to others on their way. I know that to continue to believe in some light when it looks like darkest is VERY difficult. To give and to receive ... To help and to be helped ...

So, if you don't mind, I would very much appreciate to pup into this thread now and then.

[Icare dixit]

Originally Posted by Singer47

I hope it's OK that I join here. I do not know where to exactly fit in, among the bipolar or among the depressed. I am not officially diagnosed as having Bipolar Disorder, am in some kind of middle position between Unspecified Bipolar with Seasonal pattern or Cyclothymia. To mention these diagnoses may give you a clue of what kind of sufferings I struggle with. My sufferings are chronic in what ever box one chose to label them (the professionals might call it atypical depression ???). My «highs» are often related to how I feel after having had fun. It is as if I cannot stop «having fun», inside I'm filled with repetitive funny intrusive thoughts (not fun when I need to go to bed, but am not able to fall asleep). I feel that I am helped by the use of CBT/DBT techniques. A lot of work, but in my case, worth it. Among others I see having real fun as triggers. Of course I cannot stay out of fun (like everybody else I want to enjoy), but in my case the best I can do to be able to not suffer afterward is to plan how to behave before and after the fun. I try to live a structured life, eat healthy, try to get enough sleep and have taught myself to look out for triggers and to use techniques to prevent episodes if possible.

To control the disorder if possible, not to be controlled by it is my motto.

It is not always possible or sometimes it's too difficult to see the trigger before it is to late. Am working on trying to become better in forgiving myself and to accept that I have a chronic disorder.

Since I have used some years to learn how to cope, I hope to be able to in some way or other to give hope to others on their way. I know that to continue to believe in some light when it looks like darkest is VERY difficult. To give and to receive ... To help and to be helped ...

So, if you don't mind, I would very much appreciate to pup into this thread now and then.

As far as I'm concerned, you're more than welcome (we're all merely people who found each other, like you found us, so I rarely welcome someone).

Has anyone ever considered whether you might have BPD (not saying it's BPD, just asking)?

When having fun, do you just go too far or are you extremely and very unusually happy and goal-directed?

[pirilin]

I'm too lazy to type today.

[bioChE]

Good day today. First day back at work since the 15th. Just finished making it through my email inbox, so that feels like an accomplishment.

One slightly annoying thing is going on. My benefits department at work sent the wrong end date for my prescription plan to the insurance company - they set it to start on 1/1/17, and end on 12/31/16. As a result, the company is showing my coverage as inactive and I can't get my scripts. I'm not really interested in paying $1,100 out of pocket for Latuda, so they can bite me. Hope to have it resolved today.

[Icare dixit]

Any med that's so expensive should be banned.

[Fuzzybear]

Med free (apart from one med I'm not allergic to....)

Still dancing

[Icare dixit]

Still vaping...

[Unrigged64072835]

Went to physical therapy and spent 20 minutes in traction on my back. It feels a little better since it was stiff this morning.

Other than that, I slept a lot and puttered on the computer. Still feel down.

[Wild Coyote]

Have started low-dose chemo injections (weekly) for autoimmune condition.
The side-effects and currently overall increased pain level is adding to depression.

Trying to counter depression as much as possible.


WC

[Nammu]

Another couple hundred in car repair bills. Really wishing I could afford a newer car...not new just newer. My 17 yr old car is nickeling and dimming me broke. But haven enough money to get a newer one.

[WhiskeyGirl]

Paid off a credit card today and got a membership to the gym. Booya!

[hopeless2015]

Having issues with Latuda prescription AGAIN, I've decided to just go off it. It's been a week since I last took it and I'm feeling fine. I never felt like it helped me anyway