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Oh..ok, I got it now.....I had my mind on the new movie Avatar and couldn't figure out what N3 meant.....got it now though it took I moment!
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As you know, I've been struggling.
I am feeling a little better today. I am getting more Wellbutrin into me. (I know some here have had difficulties with hellbutrin; it generally helps me.) This depression has been severe. Mornings have been the worst. I'd had an idea last week and my pdoc approved it. I set an alarm for 3 or 4 a.m. and take my first dose of Wellbutrin then. By 7 0r 8 a.m., I awaken feeling less groggy, etc. So far, so good. I keep trying. Love and Healing to All! ![]() ![]() |
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#404
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I haven't been feeling well, and now I've just been told by my boss that they're cutting my hours to only 12 per week. Why's it got to add up like this?
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Took a shower today. So better. Glad finally done with stressful job. Hope this means I'll level out. Trying to stay positive. Ready for depression to be over I have weight I need to lose. Easier to diet when I'm happy. Hope everyone is holding up
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I had a rough start to the morning, I had trouble sleeping and then woke up too early and received a disturbing e-mail. I was dumped! (By a guy)
It upset me so much I almost didn't go to my job interview this morning, but I called a friend and he talked me through everything. Well I ended up going to the interview and landed the job! Go me! So as you can see up and down day today. On a good note, I am on my way to improving my sleep schedule. I see a lot of positivity for that. Also a special shout out to WC, I hope you feel better soon!
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I didn't sleep well so I've been out of it all day. Finished editing my photos from last week and uploaded them to my Flickr site. Wrote a poem outside of class. Reading quite a bit. Ruminating on a prompt for my church's magazine due next month.
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I took N2 to the eye dr today. I know- you think I love eye drs- but this is for driver's ed. She passed 100%- 20/20 vision, healthy eyes inside and everything. Earlier, I did get my new glasses shaped/bent so they don't fall off my face anymore.
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tomorrow is June 1st. Half of 2017 is over already
what am I doing? why am I here? Time keeps rolling on and I'm not sure I have figured out who I am yet. So is life my friends Hugs to those who are in depression. She is a ***** to be reckoned with! ![]()
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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I saw my pdoc today. He took me off Abilify (I was sleeping 2-3 hours a night). He said aside from the bipolar depression, I'm having 'situational' depressions that are pushing me to the edge. Uuuhhh okay. Today I just feel traumatized from coming so close and am having panic attacks.
I will be ok. I'll head off to Florida and relax. I really, really appreciate everyone's well wishes. That meant so much to me. ![]() |
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Yes, Jacky, tomorrow is June 1st. I thought that meant the rent (and all the other bills) are due. Silly me! Half the year is over already! This weekend is the annual neighborhood garage sale at my mom's neighborhood. Its such nice weather and people sell brats and hotdogs from their driveways and there are blocks and blocks and blocks of garage sales! I'm going to bring $50 in small bills and N3 with me. Back to what you were saying, I don't know who I am yet either. When I'm manic, I think I've "figured out the thread that ties my life together". Yeah.
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haha well I'm having a mini existential crisis. Im preparing 4 years ahead of turning 40. Might as well start now!
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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They always tell me to do some DBT in times like these, but its been a while. The only technique I remember is to watch a train go by where your bad thoughts are the train.
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Still trying to adjust to my summer routine. So far it's stressful. I've been feeling less depressed last couple days, but I'm hesitant to say yet if I'm on the mend. Unsure of what I want to do at next pdoc visit. Increased dose of Trileptal seems to still be messing with me at 1200mg. About an hour after I take it, I get a headache and nausea and feel a little spaced out. Lasts about 3 hours. Getting so irritated.
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Congratulations on the job! You did such an impressive job of turning things around today! Yes, go you! ![]() Thanks for the shout out. ![]() ![]() WC |
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#421
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I just did spray paint sidewalk chalk with my son outside. cool stuff! I forgot how absorbing art can be.
I need to start painting more! and none of the dark things i usually paint. something different I'm not promising 'happy little trees" because that just ain't me lol but something different...
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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I'm trying to get back on my feet emotionally but I'm still shaky. I need to get up to speed quickly...I have a lot to do before Florida. Usually my daughter grounds me but she's at her dads tonight. Not sure what to do.
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you WILL get through this. I hope it happens sooner than later. I'm rooting for you like a personal 24/7 cheerleader!
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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