[liveforsummer]

I'm here had some horrible moments lately. Just struggling to deal with the utter irrationality.
Hugs

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

I'm here had some horrible moments lately. Just struggling to deal with the utter irrationality.
Hugs

I am sorry you've been having a tough time.

(((((( liveforsummer ))))))


WC

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Very anxious today while reaching out to reunite with an old friend. I had disappeared, as I was suffering a brain injury and more PTSD. I have had a long period of "recovery"/adjustment and am just regaining some memories, after a lot of amnesia. I was very withdrawn. I am just now "up to" trying to engage in our friendship again. I had to explain and hope she cared enough to hear me out. She was very kind and happy to hear from me, thankfully.

It was tough, yet well worth the effort.


WC

I'm so pleased that worked out for you.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

I'm here had some horrible moments lately. Just struggling to deal with the utter irrationality.
Hugs

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time....miss your messages. I'm here if you want to talk.

[wildflowerchild25]

Supposedly I have bronchitis. That makes more sense to me than allergies. Hopefully the antibiotics will help. I stayed home from work today and slept for about six hours. Not depressed, just sick.

[winter loneliness]

A bit more even today. I took some ativan yesterday.

Son came back from Europe today. So that is great.

[jmariah001]

Had the car looked at yesterday. Turns out it needs two things fixed on it. It's gonna cost over $400. Not sure where the money is gonna come from. But it's gonna need done before it gets real cold outside. Otherwise I won't have heat or defrost. This is the stuff that stresses me out. It makes my GAD much worse. I will figure it out somehow. I have to.

I hosted three visitors from overseas and got my social graces merit badge.

feeling really low at the moment.

feeling really low today.

I think, to be fair, a lot of it has to do with how bad my cronic pain issues were last night

they were so bad, that I could say ow to the tune of the star spangled bannor (though I don't think America would accept that new version)

lots of limping around too

holding out to see my mental health worker later.

I hope she can put some sort of smile on my face

[bpforever1]

I have an interview tomorrow. I am going to be myself and if it goes well, that would be great and if not, I'll still be ok. The location of the interview is in the swanky part of the city. I was not happy truthfully. All the brand name shops are located here. All the tourists are here. It is a zoo. I hope to just focus on the interview and will accept the outcome. It is in God's hands whether I will get the job. I am not going to obsess over it. I just changed my med back to brand from generic. I am feeling better and more awake. I am happier now. I am glad I switched before the interview. I did not take a nap today which is unusual for me. I am motivated and my head seems clearer than before. I think this interview will not be easy and am not expecting any miracles though. I will be ok. So, we shall see what happens!

Originally Posted by bpforever1

I have an interview tomorrow. I am going to be myself and if it goes well, that would be great and if not, I'll still be ok. The location of the interview is in the swanky part of the city. I was not happy truthfully. All the brand name shops are located here. All the tourists are here. It is a zoo. I hope to just focus on the interview and will accept the outcome. It is in God's hands whether I will get the job. I am not going to obsess over it. I just changed my med back to brand from generic. I am feeling better and more awake. I am happier now. I am glad I switched before the interview. I did not take a nap today which is unusual for me. I am motivated and my head seems clearer than before. I think this interview will not be easy and am not expecting any miracles though. I will be ok. So, we shall see what happens!

good luck with the interview.

let us know how it all goes!

[WildcatVet]

Starting to feel kind of shaky again and not thrilled with this switch from lithium to Depakote. Doctor wants to wait a month for bloodwork and how I'm doing on the Abilify and Ritalin too. A month seems SOOO far away...

[wonderluster]

I had just gotten over the intense hurt, anger and suffering after my last phone call with my mother.

I made the mistake of calling her again per her invitation last night.
I was ok until I woke up today.

I will just say that she is a very sick woman and not only do I not trust her,
she scares me to death.

I have reason to be scared of her.
I realize that those with somewhat normal mothers cannot imagine that a grown man could be scared of their mother.

My mother is very sick. She hurts me very badly without trying.

The worse part is the fear and lack of trust.

How sad for a person who does not have a mother and father they can count on.

So after my half dozen very intense hurt and angry emails I sent her, I ended with an email that said simply,

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I am glad you are still alive

"I am glad you are still alive because I still have hope that we can have an understanding and trust between us. <3 "

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I am not feeling bad for myself, so please nobody feel bad for me.

I cannot stay in the victim mode.

I get over the hurt, fear and anger and do my best to enter and stay in the...

Love Mode

[wonderluster]

Originally Posted by jacky8807

is there ever a bipolar rodeo WITH a winner?

You are a very funny person in a very good way

[wonderluster]

Originally Posted by 99fairies

My side effect med must have kicked in cuz I can move with little pain today! I really hope my pharmacist can find more in the next couple of days or this reprieve will be short lived.

I am glad to here the great news!

I hope you get all of that med you need

mental health worker never showed up

called her 3 times... twice it rang and went to voicemail, third time she'd switched her phone off.

feel like crap when she just ignores me like that with no explanation

binged on some roast bief flavour chips this afternoon and had a **** dinner of sausages and chips.

feeling irritable. not just because of the worker letting me down, but because girl next door has decided to go outside and act like ****ing tarzan and all you can hear is the call from the film..... urg much?

now she is someone I could swing for right now (and would be quite appropriate with tarzan being a jungle animal....), never mind...

I will just listen to Emilie autumn sing Juliet while I now binge on jellybeans

[wonderluster]

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

Censored for drug use

[Sunflower123]

Still doing well but heart is aching today from ENS. I am an extreme introvert and a loner but today I felt lonely. It's my own fault. I've been up at odd hours with this dog and slept right through bible study where I would have had social interaction. I'm good. It's just temporary. Just 2 days until I go see her. I would be tickled pink if I didn't feel things so deeply.

Hugs to all.

[wonderluster]

Originally Posted by Tucson

I am so nervous right now like something bad is just around the corner. I feel it in my stomach. My hands are shaking real bad.

I have been watching TV and getting car insurance quotes. So my current situation is not too bad despite my feelings.

Fear is only helpful as an alarm to motivate us to take action so we can avoid pain and loss for ourselves and others.

If the fear is not relative to any clear action you should take, you must disregard it.
It is a false alarm.

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[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

mental health worker never showed up

called her 3 times... twice it rang and went to voicemail, third time she'd switched her phone off.

feel like crap when she just ignores me like that with no explanation

binged on some roast bief flavour chips this afternoon and had a **** dinner of sausages and chips.

feeling irritable. not just because of the worker letting me down, but because girl next door has decided to go outside and act like ****ing tarzan and all you can hear is the call from the film..... urg much?

now she is someone I could swing for right now (and would be quite appropriate with tarzan being a jungle animal....), never mind...

I will just listen to Emilie autumn sing Juliet while I now binge on jellybeans

I feel the way your mental health worker treats you is both neglectful and abusive. I am very saddened for you that you are treated this way, especially by someone whose role is supposed to be that of support and advocacy.

Is there a supervisor to whom you can report these events?

You deserve much better treatment.


WC

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I feel the way your mental health worker treats you is both neglectful and abusive. I am very saddened for you that you are treated this way, especially by someone whose role is supposed to be that of support and advocacy.

Is there a supervisor to whom you can report these events?

You deserve much better treatment.


WC

1 word.

England

the mental health system here sucks, and the amount of times I've complained about my care...

wish I could just move to the states where it's so much better

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

1 word.

England

the mental health system here sucks, and the amount of times I've complained about my care...

wish I could just move to the states where it's so much better

I am deeply sorry this is the case.
I am glad you know you deserve better!
Saddened "better" is not available.

(((((( shattered sanity ))))))


WC

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am deeply sorry this is the case.
I am glad you know you deserve better!
Saddened "better" is not available.

(((((( shattered sanity ))))))


WC

England

I just posted a rant about the "health" care over here

They are scary bad

[Fuzzybear]

I was about to delete my post

I haven't officially complained and I doubt it it would help in the slightest if i did

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I was about to delete my post

I haven't officially complained and I doubt it it would help in the slightest if i did

I just wrote in response to your post. Our friends here are also writing to you there! I feel your post is VERY important and I hope you'll feel okay leaving it posted; yet, please do whatever's best for you!


WC