[liveforsummer]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Having a really good day today. Got myself up, showered and out for a walk in the sunshine. Now I'm working on that overachieving, perfectionistic list of things I tend to write up but I'm taking it slow and steady with frequent breaks. Yay for good days!!! Hugs to all.

So glad to hear this!!

[liveforsummer]

Not feeling very good at all. Having a hard time fighting my irrational and negative thoughts.

Life is very, very sucky atm, but it's the first cool (even kind of chilly!), cloudy day, and that is excellent! (I hate summer/hot weather.)

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Not feeling very good at all. Having a hard time fighting my irrational and negative thoughts.

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I hope it eases up for you.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Life is very, very sucky atm, but it's the first cool (even kind of chilly!), cloudy day, and that is excellent! (I hate summer/hot weather.)

Yeah, I enjoy those chilly days although people do tend to look twice when you wear short sleeves and flip flops when it gets cold. I'm sorry you're having a sucky time right now. I hope it gets better. (((Hugs))).

Mother Asymptote! Working on a story and smoking big ol' doinks in the Amish, beginning at 8:30 AM. It's 11:25 and I want to sleep until next week.

[wonderluster]

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

Mother Asymptote! Working on a story and smoking big ol' doinks in the Amish, beginning at 8:30 AM. It's 11:25 and I want to sleep until next week.

Sounds like your meds are working pretty darn well.

I do believe that peace and serenity is the goal.
It sounds like you are there!

[wonderluster]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Having a really good day today. Got myself up, showered and out for a walk in the sunshine. Now I'm working on that overachieving, perfectionistic list of things I tend to write up but I'm taking it slow and steady with frequent breaks. Yay for good days!!! Hugs to all.

That's Great!

I think you are on a roll and will have many consecutive good days...

Thanks for the Hugs

[Unrigged64072835]

Hi--poking my head in for a while.

Still having grumpy, whiny moods with a dose of anxiety for fun. I'll meet my pain management doc tomorrow for determination on whether I will get long-term nerve blocks for my lower back. I've had the test injections and they seem to work okay for a short period.

School is okay, but I'm now losing interest in things and it's harder.

Just feeling like a grouch now and trying not to upset my family.

[wonderluster]

I find that a good way to defeat negative and irrational thoughts is to come back with positive and rational thoughts.

Example:

Negative Noah: "Oh no, I will never have enough room on my boat for all the fish!"

Positive Peter: "All is well. The fish are not on the list!"

This conversation really happened.

Originally Posted by wonderluster

This conversation really happened.

Anyone closing a post with "This conversation really happened" is on my team.

[bizi]

We are having a dinner party tonight.
I made gumbo( a sort of soup), chicken and sausage, and tasso which is delicious smoked pork. It really added flavor to my gumbo and tastes great.
There will 10 of us eventually. 2 guys are watching the broncos play at a bar and there was a rain delay due to lightening. So they will be late.
My friend Melissa is bringing deviled eggs and cookies. yum!
I asked sue and nell to bring some thing green. Lucus is bringing potato salad.
My social anxiety has returned so I have been drinking a bit. The gumbo has been cooking for hours. So it is getting thicker which I like. It is a little spicy but not to much.
I have about 20 minutes before some people arrive. I think we will eat at 6;30...at 6pm I need to start the rice. I use a rice cooker and makes it easy.
I set the table for 6 and the living room up with a couple of tv trays. So we will all fit in there.
It has been years since I had a dinner party. and since I have made gumbo. So it is special. I really wanted it to be good.

bizi

[Altarian]

Been a couple weeks, i think but i've no real concept of time, since i was on here. This has been.... a weekend from hell but shouldn't be. This weekend we did 2 birthday party's for my oldest and youngest kids since their birthdays are only a week apart. Yesterday with my wife's family, which i could of lived without dealing with, and today with my family. Was to... as my wife put's it, peopley. But what really triggered my demons was opening the PO Box and seeing two late payment reminders since i can't pay all of my bills. It just a reminder that things are not ok right now with not enough money coming in and not hearing back from any of the places i've applied to for either a part time job or a new job. I know things will eventually work out. But only because my wife keeps telling me things will. i don't know what to do. I no longer have faith in a higher power though my wife keeps telling me i need to find my own path in hopes that it will help. Just been a very.... hard day for me.

[wildflowerchild25]

I'm feeling very positive and motivated today. Motivated by my grad class to be a better teacher. I did a lot of cleaning, I took my son for a hair cut, I did my laundry, I even started my assignments early (though I couldn't finish them due to having to watch a video and not being able to at the time). I even cooked a semi-complicated dinner - and my son ate it! I feel really good. Just a great day overall. Only one thing would make it better.

I'm going do do my assignments then my lesson plans then study for tomorrow's lesson.

I am watching for signs of hypomania. My energy isn't really higher than normal but my thoughts are a little jumpy. I was out last night and couldn't concentrate on what my friend was saying for a little while there. I might back off my AD and take it every other day again. I don't think I put it on last night.

I do see pdoc tomorrow. I will tell her about what I've been doing in regards to starting my AD again.

[LacunaCoiler]

My grandpa died today. My dad cried, I've never seen my dad cry. I felt like I had to be strong for him. So I offered to call everyone and tell them he passed. I'm sad and still in shock.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by LacunaCoiler

My grandpa died today. My dad cried, I've never seen my dad cry. I felt like I had to be strong for him. So I offered to call everyone and tell them he passed. I'm sad and still in shock.

I am sorry you lost your grandfather.
It was nice of you to make the offer to your dad.
It is hard when we lose loved ones. I hope you have good memories.
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by LacunaCoiler

My grandpa died today. My dad cried, I've never seen my dad cry. I felt like I had to be strong for him. So I offered to call everyone and tell them he passed. I'm sad and still in shock.

Please accept my condolences on the death of your grandpa. It's good you were strong for your dad. I'm sorry for your loss.

[Lifeischallenging]

So I just applied for another job. Its a security kind of deal handling cash. I applied as a teller with this. Hoping I get the position. I also started looking at other colleges. Namely over here. All test optional which I like. I feel like I am making a far ahead move with this part.

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

A 20-year-ago polyamorous ex is arriving in Honolulu Sunday and wants to visit with her husband and wife. I can't refuse her because she once took me in for months after a nervous breakdown. They refer to themselves as "The Pod". The Pod is sexually volatile. My wife could give a f_ck. Sexually volatile polyamorous visitors are a powerful manic trigger, and I'm ramping up.

The Pod is somewhere on Oahu. It's game time.

[winter loneliness]

I am OK. Less irritable. Kind of needy and lonely.

Having withdrawals from being off Facebook. Since my first psychotic episode (about 5-6 yrs ago) I have not socialized much in person. I used to socialize on there.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by winter loneliness

I am OK. Less irritable. Kind of needy and lonely.

Having withdrawals from being off Facebook. Since my first psychotic episode (about 5-6 yrs ago) I have not socialized much in person. I used to socialize on there.

Now that didn't come across right. I am sorry that you're feeling needy and lonely. I'm here if you want to talk. Can I ask you OT if you know the name of the band that sings your signature saying? Thank you.

[RainyDay107]

Worried, hyper....possibility of another hurricane. Trajectory is currently a week away.

Bf and I just went to fill up on gas. Had to go to four different gas stations before we found gas. Florida is low on supplies after Irma. Still working on cleaning up our (large) yard from Irma damage.

Prepare for the worst, hope for the best.

[jacky8807]

stay safe Glam !!!


I feel like I'm 5 seconds away from a nervous breakdown. That word is not even used anymore but it is exactly how I feel. I'm spinning into it and don't know how to get the F out on my own.

[scatterbrained04]

Ended up not doing anything I needed to do over the weekend. Now I have to cram grocery shopping in after work today and try to chores throughout the week. Why do I do this to myself?

Yesterday I did go over to my parents' house for dinner. So that was nice and got me out of the house. Probably a good thing since I kept crawling into bed throughout the day.

[SheilaKathy]

Didn't sleep well last night. Still in a manic, still somewhat depressed too. I have therapy this afternoon, but I have to go to work first. Not looking forward to that. I love my client and working with him, I hate the environment I work in right now. Too much going on behind the scenes that is aimed at me losing my job, I fear. (By someone who has bullied me and who I reported. This person is now playing the victim, and saying that he left "because people are trying to get me into trouble." Well, DUH! If you bully several folks, SOMEONE is going to complain!!!)