[Moose72]

My car broke again. It's fixed now. Antifreeze hose.

[GoldenSnitch]

I’ve had a pretty good few days

[Naynay99]

Hey. I think I'm doing okay. Freezing as my job cut off the heat this afternoon even though we had meetings all evening. Lovely huh.
I have to make it through 2 more days and then Thoreau I am going away for thanksgiving/bday weekend with my best friend to a warm beachy place. Can't wait.
I'm so stressed and overextended with work that I really need this trip!

Mood is okay I think? Idk. Has been a bit variable lately. I think I will forget about trying to do laundry and clean before I leave and just pack tomorrow whatever is clean and easy to locate. All I really need is a bathing suit, my passport, and my meds anyway.

So. I hope I can relax after being trapped at work for the last 13 hours...
I am worried I won't be able to sleep now. Maybe I should watch a movie or take a wRmnbath or something. Idk.
Anyway happy thanksgiving and have a nice week all. Hugs to anyone struggling. Take care and keep on kicking the shiit out of BP and winning...

[Cocosurviving]

I have a cold so I’ve spent the day in bed. I did grab some breakfast but did not eat it all. My oldest daughter called me before going to her job. We had a good conversation. She mentioned she had been using coping skills which made me happy. Mentally I’m ok just in pain physically

[Sunflower123]

Whew!!!! Thought I crashed the site. Somebody said something to me today that literally stopped me in my tracks and I really appreciated it. It was about self care...something I definitely need to work on so I’m going to step back for a while.

Best wishes and much love for happy and blessed holidays.

[glennk]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

I have a cold so I’ve spent the day in bed. I did grab some breakfast but did not eat it all. My oldest daughter called me before going to her job. We had a good conversation. She mentioned she had been using coping skills which made me happy. Mentally I’m ok just in pain physically

Any updates? Are you feeling any better?

[bpforever1]

I am doing well. I taught today and also rested. I feel fine. I took my medication. I also talked to the online man who is coming to visit me. So far, we get along well. We are happy with each other. I like him much. We still have to meet though. We will meet in a month. I am excited about meeting him. We will be together for four days. It seems short but could be longer than I want if I don't like him. So, I'm taking it day by day. I am not used to having a long-distance relationship. I thought I would try it because I did not have any luck in finding anybody near me. I was not trying too hard to find someone though. I was just shooting the breeze at the time and looking at profiles of men online. Now, I am in communication with this online man so I don't want to look for another for right now. He is coming all the way from another country to see me. I don't think the flight is cheap. I feel as if I should be nice to him. I am not interested in hurting him. I do like him much. Thus, it might work out. But, there is that unknown territory of not having met yet. I really don't know how it will turn out when we meet. I don't expect much at this point because I feel we are adults and if we get along when we meet this would be great and if not, oh well. Thinking back, I've never really fallen in love with anybody so far. I don't know if I ever will at this point. I like him much though. We talk almost every chance we have. We also videocam too. But, I still feel I don't know him that well. I will find out soon if we will work out. In the meantime, I want to enjoy myself and the time I have with my father who is coming this week. I look forward to my father coming here. I am excited about his coming here!!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Whew!!!! Thought I crashed the site. Somebody said something to me today that literally stopped me in my tracks and I really appreciated it. It was about self care...something I definitely need to work on so I’m going to step back for a while.

Best wishes and much love for happy and blessed holidays.

Thanks for letting us know.
Happy holidays to you, too!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bizi

I met with my tdoc(therapist) this morning and cried a lot. then cried as I was leaving at the check out window then cried in the car talking with a girl friend whom I had to cancel dinner plans with she and her husband because I am a mess. She is a trained msw/ therapist. She said she would walk with me this evening when I am done with work. at 5....
I am increasing my tdoc appointments to once a week for now.
I woke up with pain in my right hip.
limping, wondering how I am going to be able to do my job this afternoon.
sigh
bizi
who is depressed today....
__________________

I hope you are having a better day today!?
Thinking of you!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by vertigo

My mind is garbled. I don't know what's going on, but I simply want to isolate myself. I even cancelled my next appointment with my T. I feel like stopping with her altogether. At this point I have nothing else set up.

I hope you are feeling better today.
Thinking of you.

WC

[hopeless2015]

Doing good, just got to make it through tomorrow and it's a 4 day weekend

[bizi]

I woke up to severe pain in my right hip Could barely put any weight on it, hobbled around until it got better. I took 4 advil at 815am.
Now/This noon The advil worked on my hip either that or it is just not as painful for what ever reason, I will take it. I just took 4 more advil after lunch.
I see 3 clients hopefully this afternoon.
I will pick up the naproxin after work.
IT was hard to believe that it is just arthritis.
I slept like crap last night.
it hurt what ever side I layed on finally slept on my back with my knees completly bent and a pillow between them that sort of worked for a few hours then my knees were hurting.
I had a nice walk with melissa last night.
She is juggling so much stuff with her family right now.
Feel embarressd to trouble her.
Wonder if inflamation is a side effect of naltrexone?
I will take the stronger antiinflamatory tonight to see if I can sleep better.
bizi

[liveforsummer]

Doing pretty well. The empty, emotionless feelings of last thurs, fri are gone for the most part. I’m coping well at work thankfully. I’m thinking the lamotrigine is starting to do its job. My only concern is I’m sure it’s creating this insomnia as I can’t sleep without some medication the past month. I’ve NEVER had an issue with sleep that’s lasted this long. I’ll address it at my next appt.

Hugs all and Happy Thanksgiving

[GoldenSnitch]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

I have a cold so I’ve spent the day in bed. I did grab some breakfast but did not eat it all. My oldest daughter called me before going to her job. We had a good conversation. She mentioned she had been using coping skills which made me happy. Mentally I’m ok just in pain physically

Sorry about your cold and physical pain but I’m glad you had a good chat with your daughter

[GoldenSnitch]

Work is sucking the life out of me today. I don’t like my job and I’ve had enough of being here.

[251turnaround]

Feeling even better today. Had a good music lesson that I was honestly expecting to go horribly. Started to work on a little sketch thing, I'll see how that comes out.

I'm doing ok. Went grocery shopping last night with my son. Got a lot of healthy food. He needs to change his sleep schedule. He's up all night and sleeps all day.

My legs are still hurting me. I increased the vitamin d3 to 4000 units. Thanks bizi for that suggestion. my back is hurting too. I really need to get into the dr. I will after this week.

My sister mickey and lisa are coming for thanksgiving. Should be nice. Lisa and I aren't really close. Oh well.

Hang in there everyone...

[scatterbrained04]

I'm not sure what's going on with me. I think I'm dealing with burn out. Both from work and then being a single parent. Life. I'm so stressed out. Pretty sure I'm dealing with depression on some level. Not severe depression. It's confusing. I can't concentrate, I'm losing my appetite, my stomach is messed up from anxiety, I can't find joy or get excited. Chronically exhausted. I've been putting off having a conversation with someone because, while I feel positively about something, I feel that I'll come across negative. Blah...

Getting a little concerned I'm going to majorly crash guys...

Trying to take an extended weekend. Hoping I can somehow turn this around.

[bpforever1]

I just woke up and took a shower. I feel fine. I took my medication. I realized after much contemplation I am planning to just meet the online man and not get too emotionally involved with him. I like him but don't want to jeopardize what I have now in my life. I have a good life now and don't feel the need to add anybody. I have no intentions of living in the States for now. Also, I have already established myself here and want to stay here for awhile and will. I don't think it is healthy for me to be putting all my free time into communicating with him either. I'm going to pull away emotionally until we meet. I will meet him since he wants to meet me all the way from the States. However, I am not going to put all my eggs in one basket and enjoy my life as it is. I don't understand his intentions either about me. I understand he likes me but truthfully I have no interest in meeting him in the States. I also told him about my illness and it is nice he accepts my illness. On the other hand, the thought about being in the States in the middle of nowhere and having no contact with my family and having no friends is not really exciting either. I was married once before and my parents cut me off. I have no interest in being cut off again. Also, I can't do anything in the States in terms of a decent job. I am happy where I am now. Of course, I like his attention and his interest in me but am realizing it is not healthy to be putting all of my energy into someone whom I've never met. I don't think he will be happy I won't communicate as much anymore. But, I am getting anxious about what he is expecting from me when I had no intentions of getting too serious about him in the first place. I am going to live my life to the fullest with what I have. I have it good and as the saying goes if it is not broke, then why fix it.

I'm so happy with myself today. After struggling for so long and so hard, not being able to read a single page in a book, I managed to read a book for an HOUR AND A HALF today. Granted, I used Ritalin and an audiobook, but who cares! I was able to read and that's all I cared about.

It means a lot to me being able to get one of my old hobbies back. I really missed it. It sucks that I can't read without Ritalin and an audiobook, but it is what it is. We can't have it all.

Thanks to everyone who suggested an audiobook! Worked like a charm.

[piano97]

Not good today. Very depressed and empty. Slept 3 hours daytime and feel disconnected and zombie. Time moving weird. Bad anxiety yesterday but I worked through it, made myself do errands twice. I think I was OK last night, which seems very very long ago. I don't know how to explain the time distortion stuff, I get this when depressed. I feel like no one understands at all today. I had been doing fairly OK since a med change a couple weeks ago. Family stuff and holiday I don't know wha to do. I don't drive well anymore as far as highways/interstates. My sister said would pick me up thursday and she changed her plans now. My dad said I could do t-give with his family, but that he didn't know if he could pick me up (2 hours away). I don't want to do any of it. I just feel low and empty and that's it's painful to be awake. Cycling is the most awful thing I know of. I guess good news is it will pass, but it may just pop me back up too high then crash again. I'm sick of meds and feel like they are total BS today. I know I can't go off them either. And why? Will it make me very sick, or from discontinuation syndrome. Everything just feels and seems awful today. I know this is cognitive distortion but I feel very trapped in it at the moment.

[wildflowerchild25]

Still tweaking the meds. I expressed my concern to my program pdoc about my increased hunger and low energy so she reduced the zyprexa and upped depakote, with the thought that I won’t need an AP if I can stay out of mania/depression. This is what I have thought as well. I will talk to her about keeping zyprexa on hand for a prn though.

However depakote is also a weight gainer so it’s hard to say which drug is causing the overeating. I hope I can somehow get back on track and not gain all the weight I lost from the summer time!

[Sunflower123]

Well I apologize. That temporary break didn’t work out well. If I can encourage or brighten somebody’s day, I want to. The word balance is not a strong part of my vocabulary and I desperately need that. I care and worry about my friends here. Please bear with me while I attempt to become more balanced.

My mom’s fiancé died last night. I didn’t care for him (and I really tried). Her grief is breaking my heart. It’s hard to watch a loved one suffer. She has lost 2 close friends in the past 6 months in addition and she seems lost right now. Doing my best to provide comfort and keep her busy.

Sending big hugs to everyone who is struggling.

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by glennk

Any updates? Are you feeling any better?

Hello...I’m feeling a bit better today. I ate all my breakfast and lunch. I slept a lot today. I’m suppose to go in for a few hours tomorrow. I might call in tonight. Thanks for checking on me that was sweet.

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by GoldenSnitch

Sorry about your cold and physical pain but I’m glad you had a good chat with your daughter

Thank you. It really made my day to knew some of what I talk to her about she is retaining.