[scatterbrained04]

My mind had been so racy the last few days. You know you are mentally ill when good things fall at your feet and all you can think about is how worthless you are and that they couldn't possibly work out. I have myself not even wanting to try. I'm so stressed out.

[99fairies]

I am going through a pretty major meds change. It Is destabilizing me. But I know I have to just push threw while the meds kick in. Just totally sucks right now.

[emgreen]

You know you are mentally ill when good things fall at your feet and all you can think about is how worthless you are and that they couldn't possibly work out. I have myself not even wanting to try. I'm so stressed out.

Sorry the stress hasn't improved. You ain't worthless, though. Keep yourself centered emotionally. The Yin & The Yang...All that stuff. Things will unfold...Be patient! Not Stressed!

Originally Posted by bizi

check your vit d level could be low. should be 50-60. I take 5,000 units daily to keep my level high enough. sister gets leg pains when she forgets to take her vit d3.

bizi

Thanks so much for letting me know about this. I was on 2000 units a day. Last night I took 4000. Legs felt way better this morning. Started hurting again about noon tho. I think it might be it. Maybe I should start taking it in the morning?

[wildflowerchild25]

Still depressed. Hovering between three and four on mood scale. All I can think about is work and how I don’t think there’s any way I can go back but at the same time there’s no way to quit. I think some of the depression is situational and won’t improve with medication. I have about three weeks to get my **** together. If I weren’t depressed I’d feel better about the job but I don’t see how I can help the depression if it’s related to my job. It’s like a big circle.

[Guiness187055]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Still depressed. Hovering between three and four on mood scale. All I can think about is work and how I don’t think there’s any way I can go back but at the same time there’s no way to quit. I think some of the depression is situational and won’t improve with medication. I have about three weeks to get my **** together. If I weren’t depressed I’d feel better about the job but I don’t see how I can help the depression if it’s related to my job. It’s like a big circle.

I'm sure a lot of the depression you are dealing with is due to the manic episode you just went through.

[xRavenx]

I was so exhausted today. Luckily, I did not have any place to be. Tomorrow, I do have work though. I finally went up on the Seroquel, so I'm sure that my first day on the higher dose had a lot to do with how tired and out of it, I was today. Hopefully, tomorrow, I will adjust better, but it's going to be a very long day, so I'm anxious about it. Also, today my appetite was so extreme. That's unlike me, even when on Seroquel, unless I am on super high doses, like I was last year. Maybe that's another sign I'm having to adjust to this dose again.

[emgreen]

I could keep from thinking about shoulder surgery when it ws a month away, but the surgery is at 10:30 on Thursday! It's supposed to be a pretty painful recovery. I'l be forced to isolate, at least at first, to some extent. I hope that doesn't continue the ball rolling...

I had the oddest sensation, so odd. For a moment, while I was walking outside in the cold, blowing wind, I felt...like myself. It was fleeting.

I was a little stunned. It has been so long, I’ve been anxious for so long, that I haven’t felt like myself, like I have no identity. I can’t feel myself.

I just said my first and last name, my maiden name, to myself, as the feeling of myself slipped away. As I entered the building to go back to my desk and anxiety-provoking job, the feeling was gone.

[bizi]

I don't know how often you get to spend time outside but maybe you could do that more often. I glad that you had that experience if fleeting. Always have hope.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Thanks Bizi

I could use more air than I get, for sure

[bpforever1]

I have hypomania. I am on online dating sites looking for men but stop myself from meeting them. I still like the man with bipolar. He talks to me and gives me attention. He is not just looking for sex. I actually turned him down for sex yet he still talks with me. On the other hand, the elderly man is ghosting me. So, I blocked him everywhere. He does not need to message me again. He probably did not want sex because he never was interested in the first place in me. He just disappeared and ignores all of my messages. So, that is that. I should have known just because he is nice to me in person that he probably just wanted to be nice to say goodbye. I could care less. I don't need men in my life who don't care about me. I am happy with the man with bipolar again. He has ED but we will buy a vibrator together and be happy. Sex is not everything anyways. He writes me and acknowledges me. He puts a smile on my face.

[Moreta]

woooo i don't have hepatitis C. I'm not sure if they checked for a and b like they said. Still sick. So much junk coming out of my nose. Saw my GP for something else yesterday and she gave me a prescription for antibiotics if things get worse. I can't seem to wake up today. Feel fine mood wise.

[Wild Coyote]

I feel like I've been hit by a truck. Caught a stomach virus and have been vomiting for hours. Cannot take care of my mother (recent hip replacement). Hubby is home today taking care of both of us. He is so sweet.

Love to all!

WC

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I feel like I've been hit by a truck. Caught a stomach virus and have been vomiting for hours. Cannot take care of my mother (recent hip replacement). Hubby is home today taking care of both of us. He is so sweet.

Love to all!

WC

I hope you feel better soon and your mom’s recovery continues to go well.

[hopeless2015]

WC I hope you feel better soon

[liveforsummer]

I actually think the lamotrigine is helping. I've been more even keeled last couple weeks (few blips here and there but overall much better). I know I'm not out of the woods because a small thing can still make me react in a totally irrational/anxious manner. Bump up from 50mg/day to 100mg/day on Thursday. I'm very curious to see what that will do. I still think negative thoughts but they don't seem to impact me to the same degree.

Hugs to all struggling

[Sunflower123]

Having a really bad day. My thoughts are dark.

Hugs to all that are struggling.

[Guiness187055]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Having a really bad day. My thoughts are dark.

Hugs to all that are struggling.

Sorry to hear that big hugs coming your way

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Having a really bad day. My thoughts are dark.

Hugs to all that are struggling.

:-(. Feel better soon.

[emgreen]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Having a really bad day. My thoughts are dark.

I'm very sorry it's a hard road sometimes, but we all make it to the other side. Keep your eyes on the ball...

[winter loneliness]

Good day. No stress. Yea!!!

[Wild Coyote]

Stress exacerbates my depression. Quickly. I feel very weak while admitting this. Yet, maybe someone else can relate?

Love to All!

WC

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Stress exacerbates my depression. Quickly. I feel very weak while admitting this. Yet, maybe someone else can relate?

Love to All!

WC

Absolutely and thank you for stating that. How is your stomach doing today and is your mom doing okay? Thinking of you.

[emgreen]

I hear you about stress, WC. I'm trying not to think about it, but I'm having rotator cuff surgery tomorrow morning. I don't need the guilt, stress or depression. I hope to keep the pain to a minimum, but it's really gonna hurt! I hope your stress isn't causing too much depression for you. I know you've been through a lot lately.