[Moose72]

I've been reading them and posting them to my blog. Somehow it seems very serious and silly at the same time.

[scatterbrained04]

No, but I'd really like too...

[emgreen]

I have no desire to, nor do I think it would be particularly healthy for me. I think I've made much progress over the decades & have no desire to look back. I fear remembering too much of the past might taint my present & future.

[wildflowerchild25]

One Ike my therapist at my IOP read back my first encounter with the psych nurse. She was wondering why I had been hospitalized and I couldn't remember. Apparently I was a real ***** and said a lot of nasty things, including how I don't care about safety contracts because I'll just say I'll be safe and then do whatever the **** I want. It was a real eye opener for me. I didn't remember being that bad. I would t really want to know anything else out of my records tbh. That was bad enough for me.

[Victoria'smom]

I would love to read my psych record but my husband and I have decided it's not in our best interest to read it.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I have read some. I only had them bc I needed info the apply for disability. I don't suggest it.

[Nix]

Mine just pissed me off and I stuck them in a back drawer never to be seen again.

if they were given to me, I would probably tear them up.

or something

i've read some rubbish stuff from a crap therapist, which turned out to be all fake

that woman was in narnia I think

[Sunflower123]

If given the chance to read them, I would decline. I don't see how that could be helpful but I can see it doing some harm.

[99fairies]

No way!! I would never want to read my records. I can only imagine how triggered I would be!

[scatterbrained04]

I'm starting to think I'm an odd ball for wishing I could read mine. Maybe I'm looking for insight or clarification of certain things. I don't think my pdoc would let me read it though.

I think it would be upsetting, so I don't want to read mine.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

I'm starting to think I'm an odd ball for wishing I could read mine. Maybe I'm looking for insight or clarification of certain things. I don't think my pdoc would let me read it though.

When I read mine I just think "Am I that crazy?!"

I have not, however usually when I'm discharged from somewhere, they send a letter to my GP and I get a copy. There's been some real crap in there.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

I'm starting to think I'm an odd ball for wishing I could read mine. Maybe I'm looking for insight or clarification of certain things. I don't think my pdoc would let me read it though.

If you truly wish to see it, your pdoc would have to have quite an argument in order to not let you see your chart. By law, you have the right to review your chart. Just be sure you really want to see it before citing your right to see it.

You can always ask him how he feels about you reviewing your chart.


WC

[Wild Coyote]

I was adamant about seeing my chart many years ago. My then pdoc sat with me while I reviewed it. I was so anxious, I had totally dissociated. The chart could have been in gibberish and up-side-down for all I know. I don't remember a thing, except turning pages and trying to look like I was taking it in. Lol.

I obviously was not ready to see my chart.


WC

[~Christina]

My T and I would revisited many of my past history etc

It helped me so much seeing on X date 3-6-9-12 ect..... months later how things have changed. It really helped me see how much I have moved forward and I was proud of myself and all the things my T helped me work through. I saw my T weekly unless he or I was in vacation for 6 years..

I can see why to some people it would not be helpful. For me it was wonderful Even my IP stay records.

Prior of my moving he wrote up a summary of our work and it was a wonderful help in getting my new Pdoc

[Miss Laura]

I don't think it would be healthy for me to read my notes either. I mean I am emotionally unstable at the best of times. One thing my CPN (Community Psychiatric Nurse) does is read if I saw the Psychologist or Psychiatrist and what they said. So technically I know what they have said about me. But I think if it was detrimental to my health he wouldn't read it out to me. I have no idea what I was like way back in 2010 when I first became ill and started seeing my team. I don't think I want to know tbh!

[liveforsummer]

Didn't even know we could read them!

[*Laurie*]

I read mine years ago. They were boring...kind of perfunctory.

[Fuzzybear]

Some of it. Boring as ****. The definition of lack of empathy by whoever wrote that bs. Grrrrr

[ComfortablyNumb5]

I got a hold of my records for SSI and what I read caused a lot of grief. I was so pissed. I’m not even going to repeat what they said but one nurse commented on my friggin looks. Not my clothes or demeanor, but my actual physique. I flipped! I don’t want to read anymore ever again. I know my lawyer has copies for SSI and I hope I won’t have to address them at my hearing.

When I denied my illness, my pdoc read out loud the notes from the first day I sought treatment. It was boring... and insulting.

I doubt the rest of my notes say anything exciting... Though more likely, it's probably random scribbles that I can't even read, as my pdoc's handwriting sucks ***. So he'd need to read them out loud like he did before if I ever want a chance at understanding his chicken scratch. But I don't want to be insulted again.

[BipolaRNurse]

I've never read my records, and even though I'm curious, I really don't think I want to. I think it would be too distressing. When I applied for disability in 2014, my attorney obtained them for me so I never had to deal with it. After my hospital stay there were a few notes in my patient portal account, but otherwise there's nothing in that but my diagnosis for each visit, which never changes.