[Nammu]

Thanks for being envolved in the political efforts....it does make a difference! Hope the pain goes away with the headache and soon.

[leomama]

Had a good day at work for the most part, got to do something new as well as be in my favorite position all day. I don’t think tomorrow will be as good but at least I will have had one satisfying day this week and hopefully later this week I’ll have another good day.
My anxiety level is pretty high , but I’m trying not to pay too much attention to it. The person that always sticks me in the position I do not like and then says I can not do the position I do like is in charge for the next two days and then she’s gone. I’m just going to try to take it. I wish I could use stronger language to describe what it feels like but I don’t want to break any rules . Let’s just say I am not all submissive and I have to be submissive to multiple people at work which I find quite unpleasant at times. Hopefully things will improve.

[Cocosurviving]

Hi everyone , I’m feeling a lot better than I have been feeling. Still not up to working out but I did do some light cleaning around my apartment. I took the trash out and mopped the floor. I’m still very congested it’s terrible I can barely breathe. I went to the pharmacy and found decongestant. There has been some improvement

[Pookyl]

Buzzy buzzy buzzy.
Spoke to the community psych nurse.
Told her that I’m going to halve my Seroquel daily amount.
She said that if I do that I’ll end up having a spectacular crash and back in hospital.
She was very clever because she managed to get me to take PRN’s while on the phone.

I probably should ring my pdoc but she’s no fun.

[Sunflower123]

Went and got my driver’s license renewed yesterday (it’s early morning here). Glad that’s over with. The anxiety and negative thoughts were bad though and I’m stressed out. It’s exhausting! I just want to go to sleep, sleep 8 hours and hope that resets things.

Sending hugs to those that need them.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Went and got my driver’s license renewed yesterday (it’s early morning here). Glad that’s over with. The anxiety and negative thoughts were bad though and I’m stressed out. It’s exhausting! I just want to go to sleep, sleep 8 hours and hope that resets things.

Sending hugs to those that need them.

I have been wondering if you were touched by the tornados yesterday. So glad to hear from you!
I hope you do get some high quality sleep and feel better soon!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

Hi everyone , I’m feeling a lot better than I have been feeling. Still not up to working out but I did do some light cleaning around my apartment. I took the trash out and mopped the floor. I’m still very congested it’s terrible I can barely breathe. I went to the pharmacy and found decongestant. There has been some improvement

So glad you are starting to feel better!
I have been concerned.
Thanks for the update.

WC

[jacky8807]

I am walking around and reacting to the world like a human being but inside I feel like pieces of my mind are falling by the wayside. I feel like fragmented. I feel panic like I'm losing control but its under water.

[wildflowerchild25]

Same old same old right now. I’m cracking for sure. I always say I can’t keep going and then I do anyway, until I get hospitalized. Mother emphasized the fact that I absolutely cannot go to the hospital again. Thanks Mom I know that. You’re not helping.

Really want to harm myself but I guess I’ll be ok.

[bizi]

hugs to all who need them this morning.
(((((((HUGS)))))))
bizi

[Moreta]

Things are well. Talked to my t this morning. We mostly talked politics. lol. My dogs are being wild this morning. I really miss sweet tea. Made a pitcher of orange tea with stevia and it's lame. Finally a use for my $40 Vietri pitcher though ha. Haven't used that thing in 9 years. Going to go volunteer this afternoon, been working on chores this morning. Doing some laundry and put the dishes I washed yesterday away. Gonna make some breakfast now then wash the dishes and take a shower. Doing stuff is weird.

[leomama]

I need a day off where I don’t have to go anywhere or do anything, I haven’t had one of those in over a year.

[Tucson]

Today my depression, while still here, is improving. When I woke up, I was really depressed. I now have myself more functional once I got myself going. Still struggling. I have a meeting with my job counselor who is from a job placement agency. I sent her my resumes, so I shall see what she thinks of them. Yesterday, I had received my new fitness activity band. So I went on my first walk in over a couple decades. I walked a bit over four and a half miles. I think I overdid it. Otherwise, I am not doing much today. I may walk to the conveniece store next door. Sometimes it is depressing when I am feeling lonely. It is rare that I feel this way, so that is a positive thought. In other words, this will come to pass.

[251turnaround]

I think I'm as stable as I've ever been still. I like it, but I really do miss the mania, as destructive and unstable as I was. I miss having an unlocked consciousness and the drive to do and conquer anything I put my mind to. It feels selfish wanting that feeling again because of how much it affected the people around me.

[hopeless2015]

Doing ok, depressed about money but that's my own damn fault. I'll just have to deal with it, it's temporary. Everything else seems to be going ok

[Unrigged64072835]

I got 100% on my final. I'm just glad I'm done with this class. Once the college puts up its summer schedule I'll see if I can get a writing class in. Still only one class at a time, though. I need to better handle stress.

Been chilling out although I need to work out and take a shower, then plan meals for the rest of this week. Waiting for second prospective T to call this afternoon for a consult and appointment. She does EMDR so that might be helpful.

Rest of the week is busy. Appointments, med pickup, and taking cats to the V-E-T. It will be interesting to see if my daughter's cat will do the extremely long wail when she realizes where she's at. My daughter has to get lab work done because her doc is concerned about her cholesterol.

Mood is okay though jittery from the meds. Hopefully a long walk on the treadmill will help that.

Hugs to those who want them.

[Wild Coyote]

It's a gorgeous day here.

I am feeling VERY TRIGGERED.

Possible trigger:

My brother has called and is threatening to take his life. We'd lost our father to suicide. I have lost two brothers to alcohol-related events. This is the only brother I have left. He does this when he becomes stressed. Talked with him a long time. He knows I am available if he needs me; yet, this triggers me so much. I HATE IT when he does this; it's his "go to" behavior when stressed. My adrenaline surges/rushes. I shake.

All kinds of feelings have emerged. Ugghh!


WC

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

It's a gorgeous day here.

I am feeling VERY TRIGGERED.

Possible trigger:

My brother has called and is threatening to take his life. We'd lost our father to suicide. I have lost two brothers to alcohol-related events. This is the only brother I have left. He does this when he becomes stressed. Talked with him a long time. He knows I am available if he needs me; yet, this triggers me so much. I HATE IT when he does this; it's his "go to" behavior when stressed. My adrenaline surges/rushes. I shake.

All kinds of feelings have emerged. Ugghh!


WC

I’m so sorry your brother does that! nd I’m sorry you’re feeling so upset, I would be too. Try to take care of yourself and get your anxiety down a little bit. Maybe holding ice, journaling, etc. whatever works for you.

Thinking of you!

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Same old same old right now. I’m cracking for sure. I always say I can’t keep going and then I do anyway, until I get hospitalized. Mother emphasized the fact that I absolutely cannot go to the hospital again. Thanks Mom I know that. You’re not helping.

Really want to harm myself but I guess I’ll be ok.

You know what’s hilarious??? This was my post this morning, I was feeling incredibly horrible, wanting to SH and all that.

Now I’m like weeeeee the sky is bright the sun is shining I loooooove my life! And **** everyone at work who’s trying to bring me down!

Seriously I love everything right now, except like wtf is actually, for real going on with all this ****!!! Why can’t my brain pick a mood and stay there!!!!!!! Preferably hypomanic LOL. Except
Not bc I don’t wanna spend too much money.

Fact: I got a pdoc appt for today.

[liveforsummer]

Hugs WC, I’m so very sorry you are going through this.

[bizi]

wild cyote, am so sorry that your brother does this to you.
I know that it is his coping mechanism it just is not fair to you.
Maybe when he is more stable you can have a heart to heart conversation or bring him into therapy if he would go with you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[leomama]

At work so far so good.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bizi

wild cyote, am so sorry that your brother does this to you.
I know that it is his coping mechanism it just is not fair to you.
Maybe when he is more stable you can have a heart to heart conversation or bring him into therapy if he would go with you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Thanks!

He always says no to therapy, as does his wife. He knows the whole family has triggers on this topic. He does this to get financial help, even though he and his wife make almost 200% of the recent national average income. They mismanage their finances. He's been doing this for years. My dad did this for years, too, and people stopped responding.

Possible trigger:

That's when my dad took his life. So even though a person threatens repeatedly and for years, you just never know when it may be this time. I try to get with family and make a plan to get him to stop feeling suicidal, and stop making those types of calls. I try to give him advice on how to get out of the financial bind. He has many options yet and I help him to outline his options. Trouble is: He wants a "bail out" by someone instead of changing their budget, etc. While his anxiety is truly very high, a part of this is very manipulative. I care, and this sucks.

I am hoping H and I can go to a movie tonight or do something for distraction. This shakes me up.

Thanks, everyone, for the support.

WC

[seesaw]

Originally Posted by Nammu

No it's not nessary to be a permanent thing. I've read here where it's taken only like 6 months to get on it and others much longer, it depends on how well documented your history is. You got fired, spent a long time on leave for both IP and IOP had doctor documented leave from work. That is all in your favor. Seasaw was working until she got SSDI then went back to work when she was ready. There's lots of info on this in the insurance forum......I think in the work forum there's info on it too.

It's Seesaw, not Seasaw, lol, but yes, I got mine approved quickly, within a few months, I was only on it for 18 months then was able to go back to work. I was back to work for 18 months, then did another 7 months on it (there;s a time period where it can be automatically reinstated without reapplying after you go back to work) and now I am off it again. To get it on the first try it must be well documented, but also, I had private disability insurance that was approved first, so that helped me get my SSDI on the first try.

I'm happy to answer questions about it.

Seesaw

[bizi]

AF, walked on tread mill 3 miles and wore the wrong shoes ended up with a blister.
going to friends for dinner. I can't throw out my diet. need to eat small portions.
bizi