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************* I'm less agitated now. Still in pjs, never got up. Hoping I'm not precipitating too much trouble in not getting ready for work this week. I'd normally try to prep a bit, but just can't motivate. Today just kind of sideswiped me. Can.not.get.pulled.in. Hopefully tomorrow will get back on track. |
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I am here. I have been unusually depressed lately. My home now looks like a pig sty. I think in part it is because I have not been exercising. Hopefully that will change soon, for my leg is much better now.
I am starting to lose weight again. This is unintentional. I think I have been overestimating in the calories that I consume. So if my intent is to maintain my weight though exercide, I have been burning too many calories. This makes sense to me. My daughter has been spending all of her time outside work with her boyfriend. I told my daughter that since her baby is on its way, they both need to work jobs. I said that when she cannot work any more, he may have to work two jobs if necessary to pay the bills. Now what did he end up doing? He quit his job and is now sitting at home with his mother. My daughter asked me if she will be the one to do everything. I said yup, it will be just you with this kind of boyfriend. I feel sad for her. |
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I am here. I have been unusually depressed lately. My home now looks like a pig sty. I think in part it is because I have not been exercising. Hopefully that will change soon, for my leg is much better now.
I am starting to lose weight again. This is unintentional. I think I have been overestimating the calories that I consume. So if my intent is to maintain my weight though exercide, I have been burning too many calories. This makes sense to me. My daughter has been spending all of her time outside work with her boyfriend. I told my daughter that since her baby is on its way, they both need to work jobs. I said that when she cannot work any more, he may have to work two jobs if necessary to pay the bills. Now what did he end up doing? He quit his job and is now sitting at home with his mother. My daughter asked me if she will be the one to do everything. I said yup, it will be just you with this kind of boyfriend. I feel sad for her. |
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I am doing fine. Life is ho-hum. The weather is terrible here. Well, tomorrow the summit occurs with Trump and Kim. I would like to see what happens for entertainment purposes. Just kidding. I hope it goes well. I feel ok. I was really exhausted last week but feel much better this week. My schedule was terrible last week. I was on emergency substitution for two days. I don't want to do this too many times where I get called and need to show up in an hour's time to work. I was really stressed. But, this week is the opposite. There is not much work so far. I am enjoying what I have. I eat what I like and am gaining weight like a bear. I need to put the brakes on my appetite. However, I enjoy eating at different places so am savoring what I eat for now. I probably will get tired of eating out again as I usually do. I am happy. Life is not bad. I have to work tomorrow and that is it for this week. So, I will try to enjoy my downtime and may be do some things I enjoy besides eating out. May be I will go to a park or go shopping. I will be ok!!
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Got married last week at the courthouse! I wore my wedding dress. We got a great picture of the 'kiss.' Yesterday I went to the ER with a horribly painful back muscle injury. I don't know how I did it. Can't work; I'm a massage therapist at a local spa. My husband has schizoaffective and bipolar and heard music and voices for the last two days. Our honeymoon got cancelled. We are happy in spite of it all!
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Glad you're narrowing down the possible cause...falls can be scary and dangerous.
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* Dx: Bipolar II (finally, after years at Bipolar NOS) * Rx: minimal dose of Lamictal My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in 2016. |
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My weekend was ok - didn't overeat...didn't undereat which is good. Still feeling low but surviving. Missing my sister and my eldest son. Missing how good I felt just nine months ago when I had to stop Lamictal. I'm going for my Lithium level blood test this week - hopefully it comes in close to 1.0.
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* Dx: Bipolar II (finally, after years at Bipolar NOS) * Rx: minimal dose of Lamictal My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in 2016. |
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so yesterday I had a seizure in quite an embarrassing place... I won't say too much, but it caused a lot (a lot) of hold up and I'm sure a lot of annoyed people
today I am going through then otions. I'm not really "good", but I'm not really "bad" (though leaning more towards bad) I've canceled all my appointments for this week (really not in the mood), and I'm just feeling like I'm forced to go on- like I don't have a choice in the matter, it's just someone saying "right, well, here's another week, go live it" |
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I'm still feeling really elevated today. Same as yesterday and the day before. It's never lasted this long inyears. I think I'm slowly losing it. It felt like my face was falling off last night and I was experiencing intense paranoia to the point where I thought about keeping a weapon by my side. I think I need to see someone. This isn't going well despite my feeling awesome. People are concerned, my friends won't talk to me. I don't want this to end, but I know I need help now.
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I>/\\/ Dx: Bipolar I w/ mixed features, BPD, ADHD, Anxiety, Gender dysphoria, ASD |
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Today's my son's 16th Birthday. We did a party for him Saturday. It went really well all the kids had fun. The pizza was gone and we only had a little cake left. I'm so not for today. I had soda Saturday and Sunday but I'm back to drinking water. I'm so grumpy today.
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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I’m home from the hospital now. I’m trying to adjust to being back in real life but it’s been a lot more difficult this time. I’ve still had strong urges to self-harm and I’ve been all dopey on all of my meds and being out in public is too much. Work is being awful. None of them messaged me once to ask how I have been while I’ve been off. My boss gave my office away to someone else. Im stressed about going back. Just lots of things that I can’t even explain here. I’m looking to get a new job because I can’t handle that place anymore.
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Poor daughter only had 1½ hours of sleep after driving with her best friend down to Kentucky to send his brother off to school. Her boyfriend is making Szechuan pork stir-fry for lunch so I'm staying out of the kitchen. Thankfully my husband and I already had lunch.
Really restless later this morning so I cleaned out the portable AC unit and swept the hallway and kitchen. At least I got my husband to get us drinks and treats so I can get out of the house for a while. I was also doing some writing. Now playing with music while waiting for gabapentin to kick in. I have a feeling I may have to change when to take some of my supplements so my other meds can work better. Other than the restlessness I'm doing okay. I'll make dinner later if the kitchen hasn't exploded by then with all the spicy stuff. LOL |
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I don't even know how to begin to explain how I feel. Just had a long cryfest and asking what has happened to my life?! But Mom says people love me and my husband offers his words of comfort. I've gotta keep living even if my demons won't let go just yet.
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Ohhh, this is so great!!! The recruiter got back to me after I said I wouldn't relocate to Seattle for their job, and he said "what about northern California?" Of course I said yes! Much better than Seattle weather for me. I didn't think he'd negotiate on location!! I thought the process was all over with since I said no to him.
Interview in two weeks. Yikes... I'm nervous as hell now. Thank God the recruiter was nice enough to provide me with prep materials. I might fail the interview, but I'm going to give it all I got. He told me all the financial stuff and I agreed to it. |
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Oh blue what great news!!!!! Thanks for sharing! good luck studying. bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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I'm here, did quite a bit today. The wound I got on my chin from falling yesterday has cracked open and is seeping a clearish liquid. Gross. I guess the medical glue the urgent care place used didn't last (also put steri-strips on it). I'm supposed to go back there tomorrow anyway to let them check it for infection and probably re-bandage it. It was my call whether I wanted stitches or not, and I decided against them.
My daughter has a day camp for the elementary-aged gifted & talented students in her school district this week. When she is home all day, she gets bored, so this camp is nice. Especially nice is that the school is FINALLY addressing the needs of the G&T students, instead of ignoring the fact these kids are super-bright and putting them in regular classes and going over and over and over procedures to pass the Texas state standardized tests for their grade (STAAR). This has got to be the worst idea the Texas legislature has come up with in the area of education, but the legislators seem to pat themselves on the back, thinking the STAAR test is brilliant, and it's especially great when they can add even more of them to the curriculum. Unlike many states, you cannot opt your child out of taking the standardized test in Texas. I'm sure part of her boredom comes from being an only child and getting to that age where she's starting to out-grow a lot of toys (but not wanting to part with them just yet). Both my sisters have more than 1 child, and they say they have to put up with them fighting and wanting your attention. I don't know. I grew up with 2 sisters, but my youngest was 5 years younger than me (not a big gap as adults, but huge growing up), and my other sister was a typical agreeable middle child, only 16 months younger than I am; she was like having a built in friend and would automatically do everything I wanted. Times were different then anyway. We lived out in the country; my mom would send us off on our bicycles and just give us a time to get home by (and nobody even had a cell phone back then). Nowadays, you don't feel so safe doing that.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Up to 150mg tonight on the clozaril. Sleeping a ton, headaches, violent/disturbing dreams, but not too bad I guess. I'm chipping away at my duties and I think I've got some things figured out. Nowhere near enough though.
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#SpoonieStrong Spoons are a visual representation used as a unit of measure to quantify how much energy individuals with disabilities and chronic illnesses have throughout a given day. 1). Depression 2). PTSD 3). Anxiety 4). Hashimoto 5). Fibromyalgia 6). Asthma 7). Atopic dermatitis 8). Chronic Idiopathic Urticaria 9). Hereditary Angioedema (HAE-normal C-1) 10). Gluten sensitivity 11). EpiPen carrier 12). Food allergies, medication allergies and food intolerances. . 13). Alopecia Areata |
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Woke up super irritable again today. And super tired. Like I fell asleep in group. I was gonna come home and take a nice long nap but I had to pick my son up from school because he apparently still has strep throat. I was so enraged at my cats for begging for food I atta odd one of them. Not to badly, just flipped her over on her back and rubbed the hell out of her tummy which she hates. I almost stabbed myself with scissors to calm down. I don’t know where this rage is coming from. I hope it’s not a side effect of topamax. That’s the only thing that’s changed. I’m not close to my period so it can’t be that.
Ugh I hope I feel better tomorrow. My son has to stay home from school so I don’t want to be ina rage all day taking care of him.
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#SpoonieStrong Spoons are a visual representation used as a unit of measure to quantify how much energy individuals with disabilities and chronic illnesses have throughout a given day. 1). Depression 2). PTSD 3). Anxiety 4). Hashimoto 5). Fibromyalgia 6). Asthma 7). Atopic dermatitis 8). Chronic Idiopathic Urticaria 9). Hereditary Angioedema (HAE-normal C-1) 10). Gluten sensitivity 11). EpiPen carrier 12). Food allergies, medication allergies and food intolerances. . 13). Alopecia Areata |
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