I feel better today than I did yesterday. Probably because I know my hubby will be home at usual time today. Also, I've decided to lower my Seroquel XR by a teeny bit. My psychiatrist is not available to consult on this, but from years of experience, I know he'd be OK with it as long as it's just a small reduction.

[Unrigged64072835]

Last day of physical therapy for a while. I'm really sore.

Husband and daughter are working on the parking thing now. She's also doing the online program although she didn't need to because she passed the main test. Whatever.

I also had to reschedule my ENT appointment and I won't see him until September, over a month later. That way we have the whole day to move the kids. I sure hope this works out.

Contractor rep has been an *** about the window replacement. He doesn't know our HOA and the history we've had with them. If he doesn't answer today about taking it off the order we'll call his boss tomorrow.

Since I've been in pain I didn't get much done at home.

See regular T tomorrow. I'm going to tell my husband I want to see her by myself because I don't want him to be upset. I just to need to unload.

[Scooter9]

I had a really early start today but the good side is that I was out and got my favourite coffee. I did some things around the house and spoke with a friend while also going for a walk.

I also went out to look at some toilets since I need to replace the ones I have now (they're broken and I've tried to fix them... they're the same brand and model and failed at the same time).

I'm meeting with the real estate agent later to get my loved one's house listed for sale. I hope it sells quickly and for the price that's wanted.

Mood wise I'm still low but I was busy enough to be distracted. The waves of despair were absent today... a nice change.

[wildflowerchild25]

I went to an open interview yesterday for that paraprofessional position. It went really well. I got a second interview for next Wednesday. It sounds like a good job that I would be good at that wouldn’t be too stressful. I hope I do well on my next interview.

I haven’t slept much during the day this week, yay! I’ve been insanely bored but at least I haven’t been sleeping. I really need to get my lazy butt in gear though and do some cleaning. I haven’t done it because my boyfriend hasn’t been over in awhile (I’ve been to his house) so I’ve had no one to impress. But it’s getting bad. So I’m gonna try to do it tomorrow.

I’m hoping that if I don’t get this job I at least get unemployment so I can get SOMETHING. But I hope I get this job. I think I have a good chance. A better chance than the other ones I interviewed for. So we will see.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

I'm dogsitting while my mom is away. We have a fenced in dog yard and a while ago I let the dogs out only to hear a ton of barking. When I investigated they had a snake trapped. They were just barking at it and it was just posturing at them.

I managed to get them inside ad went to see what kind of snake it was. I did this by walking outside the fence. The snake suddenly appeared outside the fence. I'm not afraid of snakes but that startled me. I looked it up and it's fine but I don't know if I should let the dogs back out. When I checked again it was still there, outside the fence but hiding in the bushes along the fence.

So now I guess I have to take the dogs out on leashes until dark. I don't really have a plan for snakes and can't ask my mom because she is severely phobic about snakes and would have a hard time ever going into the yard if she knew about it.

And now the dogs want out...

[Pookyl]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

The waves of despair were absent today... a nice change.

This is an excellent description for where I’m at today.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Crap. I just got a postcard asking me to call to reschedule a doctor's appointment. I have a bad feeling this means my family dr. is leaving because if it was just a day or week then it wouldn't be worth it to them to send out postcards. And I love my family doctor. I guess I'll find out tomorrow.

[Miss Laura]

Feeling good it's 12:40am and I'm not long home from being out with 2 friends. We had a great catch up. I told them a lot of stuff that's been going on.

I think I'm possibly more ill than I want to believe but talking to them tonight they have reassured me and I feel better known they think I'm doing good and shouldn't be concerned. I haven't told them I'm off my meds though as they would go bananas at me. I'm doing good though

[Blueberrybook]

I had a good morning. I'm OK today, but I slept some this afternoon. I have a bit of an upset stomach and am not sure if it's caused by going back on Protonix (proton pump inhibitor - PPI) which my gastro-doc told me yesterday I should NOT have stopped (oops - so I started it again this morning), or if it's because I think my cycle will start soon. Probably my cycle. Frustrating, my 2 tracking programs always are very close in agreement. I'm not sure if I entered something wrong last month, but now one says 2 days late and the other says I'll start in 3 days. Who knows?

I am trying to update a playlist to an old cracked iPhone...sometimes, I think iTunes made this harder than it needs to be on purpose.

We are planning to go to a local junior college around 9 PM tonight. The astronomy department is setting up some large telescopes and as the skies are clear, you are supposed to be able to see 4 other planets. I don't think it will be widely attended; I only found out about it on accident, browsing the halls of the University of Houston Clear Lake while my daughter had a STEM camp there in the afternoon a couple weeks ago, and I was reading flyers on the wall walking around the campus.

[Wild Coyote]

Gorgeous day today!

Spent time with yet another nephew while he is home on leave, just before deployment. He is very happy in the military. He looks great!

Hope to sleep tonight.

Love to All!

WC

It's also a beautiful day here in Sydney but I feel miserable because the government is busting my balls over this disability support pension crap already got enough sickness I don't need this anyway ..

Stay positive and keep looking forward for opportunities and maintain a healthy lifestyle.

Yep, miserable, but grateful also for having you people in my life. I was going to delete my account.....social suicide? Lol

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Gorgeous day today!

Spent time with yet another nephew while he is home on leave, just before deployment. He is very happy in the military. He looks great!

Hope to sleep tonight.

Love to All!

WC

Tell your nephew thanks for his service

My cousin went into the National Guard and was a paratrooper in Iraq. I'm so thankful for his service.

He's been back home and safe for a bit, albeit with some back problems (but who wouldn't get them from being a paratrooper). He can't serve anymore and it kills him inside, but he was very happy in the national guard.

[wildflowerchild25]

Ever do something wrong socially and then obsess over it? I accidentally took this guys parking spot at my son’s camp today and he was mad about it, although he wasn’t rude or abusive. He was just like are you serious? I apologized but I don’t think he thought I was sincere. But what does it matter anyway, I’ll probably never see him again unless he’s dropping his kid off at the same time again. And even then he won’t harass me, he didn’t harass me today. But I still feel bad.

I’m feeling very lazy today. I know I have to do some cleaning. But I don’t want to. I’m pretending it’s because I don’t want to aggravate my back but really it’s because I’m lazy lol. I’m bored. I’m just laying in bed right now.

Sigh. I’ve gotta get up eventually.

today I officially signed up to spotify (it took me long enough, but I finally got round to it)

been messing around on the site this afternoon looking at all the playlists... pretty cool really. lots to choose from.

had my shower today which was gross as always, and, once again, failed to rest at all last night (making it almost another week without rest)

I need some more cola (oxygen), running out

[Miss Laura]

Have literally done nothing today other than get up and have a bath. I didn't get to sleep until 5am ish and was up at 9am ish. I've now gotten over to my parents house to stay for the weekend like I do every weekend. My plan is to do nothing today

Feeling good looking into seeing a counsellor but don't know off ill be allowed to since I'm under the care of community mental health team.

[wildflowerchild25]

I’m wondering if I really need my AP. I’m not sure if haldol has an effect on mood like other APs do. I’m wondering if since I’m stable I really need it. I only get psychotic when in an episode (both manic and depressed). Like could I just take it PRN instead of daily? Seems safer. I don’t want TD which I know is a bigger possibility with haldol.

Hmmmm. Pdoc appt on aug 14. Will discuss.

[Blueberrybook]

I'm hot. I slept late (for me). We were up late last night because we went to a telescope setup at a local community college last night. It was really neat. You could see 3 planets (Saturn, Jupiter, Venus), several star groups, of course the moon. It was really cool to be able to view Saturn with the rings in a telescope and Jupiter with 4 of its moons and the red spot. The other setups were neat too, but those were my favorites. We got home late though.

After coffee this morning, I decided to go on my run. OMG, the heat! I was definitely too hot, run over 6 miles, walked about 1.25 miles. The high today is 98 degrees with a heat index around 108 degrees. It is hot!

I'm still doing OK moodwise And I got over 7 hours of sleep last night, which is why my run was so late. Loving the returned sex drive on Adderall. Even when I got manic/hypomanic, I never had a sex driving on meds, only when I'd get the bright idea to stop all meds and even then it would barely last as hubby would often prompt me straight to the pdoc. He definitely notices the changes in me - obvious money spending, speaking fast, talking over other people, a slew of projects started, jumping from thing to thing, etc. I think it's the talking over everyone, especially our daughter, that gets to him most, prompting him to tell me to call my pdoc. I am loving having enough energy mostly to not have to nap in the afternoon. Yesterday afternoon, I napped, but I only had around 4 hours of sleep overnight (was just very restless in my sleep), so I was tired.

[otroo]

Got a little mania and anxiety going on today as well as some excitement. The wife and I are going to get Lasik on the ol peepers. I hate my eyes being touched and I am not looking forward to them zapping them. I am excited cause I might never have to wear glasses again except for maybe some readers and I am good with that.

[pirilin]

I had an appointment. Lung capacity test. At 2PM EST. Today.
The Amazon delivery service brought my order of a new keyboard, mouse and pad, at 1:13PM.
WHAT TO DO, WHAT TO DO!!.
Being the reponsible adult that I am, I did what was expected of me. Reschedule.

[Moose72]

I am at Starbucks waiting for a friend to show up. Drinking water and chewing mint gum. I got up at 730 (not too much later than usual) but then took a nap when I got home from breakfast with same friend- until 230! Now its 330! My pdoc told me that seroquel shouldnt make me sleepy in the morning- ha! I'm still thinking the same thoughts about having sex with all my friends, its just that Im not verblizing them now. My youngest went to his girlfriends house to help her with her summer school homework- math i think. How nice of him. Im glad he didnt have to go to summer school! Always close with the nimner of absenses he got tbis year. Tomorrow is Saturday lunch with 5 people- 3 friends plus me and my youngest. Since im broke at the moment one friend said hed buy lunch for me and N. Isnt that nice of him? Its something to look foreword to. Judo is tomorrow too but its the art fair and ita takrs up almost all of downtown so I dont want to have to navigate around it so im not going to judo. Ill go on monday. Besides- i gotta figure out this seroquel thing- i cant sleep my life away!

[Blueberrybook]

Refilled my meds. I'm a walking pharmacy

[giddykitty]

Well my keyboard is being wonky now too, in addition to the mouse, so any ttemps at writing this month have gone down the drain. I know, i know, there is pen and paper. Guess im just a little discouraged and want to focus on my half *** attempt at other things i have to doooooooo...

See? Wonky

What else? My appointment got rescheduled for the test results (frustrated and disappointed), so I wanted to reschedule my pdoc appointment because we were going to discuss the results then. The reschedule dates are probably not going to work for me either. I dunno. I probabaly can push it back more and still have enough meds. Scheduling is the worst sometimes though!!

[Scooter9]

My mood today is still low...just the third day on higher dose of Latuda. I got up late - would have been later if my wife wasn't after me.

I had some arguments with the family today. I backed down to avoid escalating things. But I ended up having to buy a toilet on my own... it weighs 100 pounds so it's not easy to manoeuvre on your own. I did it though I wish i had my son's help.

I have some work to do around the house... some stuff broke. I might just call a handyman to get it done sooner.

I also visited a retirement home for a loved one. It's freaking expensive and you have to get your own furniture, cable tv, internet and phone. Plus you have to pay for services like medication administration, assistance with bathing, and escorting when walking from place to place. All I'm learning from this is to stay healthy and stay independent as long as possible.

[scatterbrained04]

I'm just sitting here waiting on the dryer to quit running so I can finish packing clothes for our beach trip. Leave tomorrow. Packing is so overwhelming. And I'm not looking forward to an 8 hour car ride. I'm so glad I'm going with lots of family. Makes me way less anxious. Priority number one is to not forget meds. I may toss them in my bag tonight even though I'll have to fish my morning meds out.

[Miss Laura]

I'm upset.... just came off the phone to my Twin. She is my rock. We fell out she was drunk and was being sarcy. Snywsts long story short she wanted me to call her. She's been seeing a counsellor through her work since March 2017. It started off as a few sessions as she was having boyfriend trouble then it's escalated. She's never once told me.

She says she thought of killing herself in Dec 2017 cause my Dad was very nasty to her. He said she and I caused my Mum's heart attack and stroke (obviously we didn't but he blamed us as he normally does). He's never said to me I caused her health problems but he told my Sister (Twin). She says her ex boyfriend talked her down from doing anything. I'm like why haven't you turned to me. She's protecting me and I'm protecting her from bipolar.

I said I worry that the bipolar hits her and my Nephew. She has a higher chance being my identical twin. I'm the only one in the family with a diagnosed mental illness.

We cried a lot. We were on the phone for an hour and a half and it's 1:45am. We are all stressed and wired cause Mum is home and is still unable to communicate with us like she use to. My Sister and I are mourning the lost of our Mum as it looks like she's not here half the time.

I just want my Mum back she's only 62. Still young. I want to do the stuff we use to do together but that's never going to happen.