[pirilin]

Man, it's a dogs life.
Eat, sleep, bark a little to justify the salary.
I hope they don't fix me. I need my sex.

[yellow_fleurs]

Still not at all tired despite only sleeping a few hours the past couple of nights. I think I will be up again. I know I should not drink coffee, but still have been (but only a cup or so a day, not overdoing it). I thought it was just insomnia, but the fact that I am wide awake and energetic despite it has me wondering if this could turn into hypomania. It's a weird situation, because if the Lamictal is contributing to this, I am about to increase the dose and it could get worse, but if it is going to help I won't know until I increase it, too. I am afraid this will backfire.

[Moose72]

It's 8:00 and Im in bed already. I keep sleeping way in- up at 12:15 pm today- from the seroquel. Pdoc said this wouldn't happen. I have to take my youngest to the dr at 12:25 tomorrow to get weighed. (Hes underweight.) I dont really have any plans after that. (Except judo at 5:30.) Which reminds me: I hate when people ask me "What do you do all day?" When they find out im on disability. I find that insulting. No matter what I say its never enough you know?

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Still not at all tired despite only sleeping a few hours the past couple of nights. I think I will be up again. I know I should not drink coffee, but still have been (but only a cup or so a day, not overdoing it). I thought it was just insomnia, but the fact that I am wide awake and energetic despite it has me wondering if this could turn into hypomania. It's a weird situation, because if the Lamictal is contributing to this, I am about to increase the dose and it could get worse, but if it is going to help I won't know until I increase it, too. I am afraid this will backfire.

It sounds a bit like hypomania. I didn't think Lamictal tends to cause hypomania. I could be wrong, and I'm sure everyone's different. I think it can cause insomnia but I don't think it is associated with increased energy and alertness, at least I've never had that be the case. Maybe it could by cycling and a coincidence about the Lamictal? But everyone reacts differently to meds, especially once you're on a cocktail. Are you on meds to counteract mania, like an AP?

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Moose72

It's 8:00 and Im in bed already. I keep sleeping way in- up at 12:15 pm today- from the seroquel. Pdoc said this wouldn't happen. I have to take my youngest to the dr at 12:25 tomorrow to get weighed. (Hes underweight.) I dont really have any plans after that. Which reminds me: I hate when people ask me "What do you do all day?" When they find out im on disability. I find that insulting. No matter what I say its never enough you know?

Are you on the regular release Seroquel or on the the extended-release? I think some people tend to do better on one type of Seroquel than the other. Is it possible tomorrow to call your pdoc and ask to try the other version? Seroquel XR knocked me out all day, but I do fine on the regular release. A lot of other people have the opposite result though; the extended release helps them and the regular release turns them into zombies.

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Still not at all tired despite only sleeping a few hours the past couple of nights. I think I will be up again. I know I should not drink coffee, but still have been (but only a cup or so a day, not overdoing it). I thought it was just insomnia, but the fact that I am wide awake and energetic despite it has me wondering if this could turn into hypomania. It's a weird situation, because if the Lamictal is contributing to this, I am about to increase the dose and it could get worse, but if it is going to help I won't know until I increase it, too. I am afraid this will backfire.

Actually “I” had Lamictal cause me hypomania. I was on it from the end of 2012 to Oct of 2016. I have not had “any” hypomania since I stopped taking it. I never figured it out until I stopped taking it.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by cln1812

It sounds a bit like hypomania. I didn't think Lamictal tends to cause hypomania. I could be wrong, and I'm sure everyone's different. I think it can cause insomnia but I don't think it is associated with increased energy and alertness, at least I've never had that be the case. Maybe it could by cycling and a coincidence about the Lamictal? But everyone reacts differently to meds, especially once you're on a cocktail. Are you on meds to counteract mania, like an AP?

Thanks for the response. Yeah, I think you are right that it might be a little bit of hypomania based on other things like wanting to stay up and do work all night, start projects, etc. I have been cycling pretty quickly since stopping Lexapro 7 weeks ago so this is quite possibly related. Well, hopefully I will find out when I increase to 200 mg if it is helping or not. I am only on Lamictal right now, no other meds like an AP.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

Actually “I” had Lamictal cause me hypomania. I was on it from the end of 2012 to Oct of 2016. I have not had “any” hypomania since I stopped taking it. I never figured it out until I stopped taking it.

Thanks, that is good to know. It is hard to tell when you are on a med if something is caused by it or would happen anyway. That is a while that you were taking it. Can I ask you take any other meds with it or after?

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Thanks, that is good to know. It is hard to tell when you are on a med if something is caused by it or would happen anyway. That is a while that you were taking it. Can I ask you take any other meds with it or after?

Yes I was taking Lithium for mania and Risperdal. I had been on them for a while. Lamictal was new. I started spending money all the time. I constantly struggled with money the whole time I was on Lamictal. I was just impulsive with money. I use to hate being at home. I always wanted to be out doing something. I had a lot of energy. After I tapered off Lamictal I remained on Lithium and Risperdal. I have not had anymore problems with impulsive speeding. I love being at home now.

I did so much yesterday. I prepared all meals, I cleaned my parrot's whole cage, play area, flooring below, and switched up a couple of his toys (and played with him a lot). I also completely organized my side of our walk in closet. Then I straightened up my dresser of paperwork and miscellaneous stuff, then went to the guest room and tackled a mountain of paperwork, sorting it into piles by category, then filing some, putting other stuff away, recycling some, and putting other stuff in the shred box. I also cleaned the kitchen and repaired my husband's favorite shorts, sewing a rip and sewing the button back on. I also finally filled my husband's and my pill boxes and ordered some refills.

Wow! That is incredible for me. And I swear I wasn't hypomanic. I will say that both my husband and I were so extremely tired that we fell asleep at 7:30 pm. That is why I'm up at 2 am writing this.

disgusting meal last night, made me feel quite ill

no sleep again (so it's now been all week)

today a little irritated because no one gave me the information I needed about something until the very last moment

but good apart from that I guess

a little depressed

I was a cleaning machine yesterday and seem to be a cleaning machine today. I do have a lot more energy and motivation than usual, but don't think I'm hypomanic. My hubby's nephew and his girlfriend are visiting for a few days from Europe next week. That is definitely a motivator. Hubby and I worked so hard yesterday that we both fell asleep at 8 pm. We're trying to do these tasks ahead of time to prevent last minute stress. I still need to plan meals. We have activity ideas in mind (rain or shine).

make " a little", " a lot"

turns out I'm really struggling as the day goes on

[Blueberrybook]

I've been busy today. Took a long run this morning. I was grateful the clouds came out during my cool down walk because it was already hot at 7 AM. Even when it was still dark, it was 80 degrees with horrible humidity. We are supposed to have record heat today. Usually, August is the hottest month here, even the first 2 weeks of September. I got all 3 of our cats inside. One of my cats is a huntress and loves being outdoors, but the high today is 100 degrees with a heat index of 105-110. It's 91 now, feels like 100 degrees, so I wanted the cats all inside today, at least until the heat advisory is over, which is at 9 PM.

Before it got too awful, I had to go to Walmart and get a few groceries, prep some vegetables for snacking. I don't know why celery has to be such a pain to prep, but if I don't do it right away, we never end up eating it.

I read a bit more of my library book, making it to the last 1/4 of the book and am enjoying it. I think the Adderall is either helping my concentration which is letting me be able to enjoy reading again and also be less forgetful. I went grocery shopping and had a list, didn't use it, but I consulted it before checking out, and I had gotten all the items on the list, which is a nice change.

Still in a good mood but had a bit too little sleep last night. I think I'm going to try a nap this afternoon.

Day 2 of periods should just be outlawed, they feel so miserable. It's really not fair that men don't have to go through this every month because it SUCKS!

[yellow_fleurs]

Slept 8 hours last night, so at least I broke that cycle of hardly sleeping. Still feel wired, and just a bit weird. It turns out I am about to start my period a little early this time. So, this is the second month of what might be hypomania right before my period, which is just really odd for me. I always get classic PMDD-like symptoms. I would rather feel better like this, but it also kind of concerns me that I cannot tell if this is related to the Lexapro and stopping it, or starting Lamictal, but something definitely switched. I kind of worry I permanently switched something in my brain by being on Lexapro for 4 months. Well, I need to do a paper tonight, so at least I have energy. Now that I caught up on some sleep last night I imagine I will be up late tonight. We shall see.

[giddykitty]

checking in. I forget, did I tell how I had to reschedule my neuro psych results appointment. well, i might have to reschedule again (lands on my period week, since the topic has come up lately and as you might remember mine suck and i'm in bed at least one full day of the week) anyway

so reschedule, but then that pushes it back into August and God, just so many things will be happening. We are planning some travel and the kids will be back, so I've gotta plan and pack and do it all with kids hanging on. (oh they're so darling though, but you know, gotta get stuff done).

I've been feeling a little better lately. well, it's conflicted. I gained a little weight again and that sucks, but I'm more motivated to exercise and I've been trying to get that done. Now I just have to balance the diet with that (eat less but eat more when I need the fuel).

[Scooter9]

Feeling semi low today - if that's a reasonable way of describing it. I'm not feeling as low as I was a couple of days ago. Hopefully this sticks.

I'm staying busy even though I'm not motivated. Taking on a minor construction project tomorrow... fixing a closet that broke from too many clothes in it, then replacing a toilet and starting a painting project. It's a lot for a day but I'm far behind.

[Tucson]

I have intraday episodes of substamntial depression. Part of this is me being angry with myself. I have not been taking care of myself, and I have not been looking for a job. I am not being responsible. My ex wife chastised me for not taking car of my home, letting it get pretty dirty. I felt like a child. But she is right.

[Moose72]

I just came from judo. Im at my "friend's" house. Saw someone in judo i always got along with; wanted to ask him on a date; then i remembered hes married. But we get along like a house afire.

[wildflowerchild25]

Feeling down a little bit today. I hope it passes. I slept all day again and that may be why I’m feeling down. But I started feeling down yesterday. So I don’t know. Apparently hormonal birth control Can lower the effectiveness of depakote and lamictal. I might have to go up on lamictal to balance it out. But I’m only on 100mg so I’ve got plenty of room to go up.

My back is killing me today. I don’t know why it’s so bad today, maybe laying in bed for too long did it. It was killing in the morning too though. I couldn’t even bend over to shave my legs in the shower. I’ll have to shave tomorrow sitting down.

Sigh...I hope this is just temporary.

[Tucson]

I am afraid to personally apply for a job. There is one place that will probably give me a job. This scares me. So I did not call. This triggered a bad episode of depeession. What am I to do when I have a job? I may be very drepressed and show up late.

I am also very sad for other reasons like what I mentioned yesterday here. It probably is a good idea to understand a romantic relationship with my ex is not a good idea. She will be in my life anyways. I have been and still am there for her. I will do anything to help her. I did this before I started having these feelings. I have always been there for her. I care for her very much. I even make her laugh which makes me feel good. She is the first woman that I have ever loved while in my fourties. She will always be special to me. But I need to move on with my life.

I saw a YouTube on ECT. When I saw what happened, I became distressed. Patients have this done several times a week for several weeks. This is an awful thought to me. Terrible. But it works.

Checking in hard.

Specialized private marriage investigators in Japan confirm that bride and groom are completely free of yakuza affiliation before anything is signed. Nobody thought to mention any of this as I grew up in rural Connecticut, so my wife is mobbed up. Two of her uncles are heavy in the Sumiyoshi-kai, the second largest yakuza clan and chunky shareholders of Hawaii, which they use as a mid-station between Japan and the American mainland. So my wife can have me killed really easily. I live in fear.

my teeth were quite painful yesterday

shame, because for once in a while, I actually had something decent to eat (which I could have enjoyed more if it wasn't for the pain)

*struggles to find other things to say*

not much happening in the world of the vortex.. same old no sleep and all that kinda thing

[Miss Laura]

Have had a blinding headache since Friday. It's right behind my eyes.

Got to admit I'm feeling good

Going away to lunch with a friend then I'm out again for dinner with another friend. Once in my life I'm a social butterfly.

Looking into befriending for myself. There us nothing in my area other than the organisation I actually volunteer with. I can't go there as I work there

[cs71510]

Originally Posted by Tucson

I am afraid to personally apply for a job. There is one place that will probably give me a job. This scares me. So I did not call. This triggered a bad episode of depeession. What am I to do when I have a job? I may be very drepressed and show up late.


I am also very sad for other reasons like what I mentioned yesterday here. It probably is a good idea to understand a romantic relationship with my ex is not a good idea. She will be in my life anyways. I have been and still am there for her. I will do anything to help her. I did this before I started having these feelings. I have always been there for her. I care for her very much. I even make her laugh which makes me feel good. She is the first woman that I have ever loved while in my fourties. She will always be special to me. But I need to move on with my life.


I saw a YouTube on ECT. When I saw what happened, I became distressed. Patients have this done several times a week for several weeks. This is an awful thought to me. Terrible. But it works.

Try to push through for a job. Once you do I think you’ll feel better. Best of luck and perseverance to you.