[bizi]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Feeling down a little bit today. I hope it passes. I slept all day again and that may be why I’m feeling down. But I started feeling down yesterday. So I don’t know. Apparently hormonal birth control Can lower the effectiveness of depakote and lamictal. I might have to go up on lamictal to balance it out. But I’m only on 100mg so I’ve got plenty of room to go up.

My back is killing me today. I don’t know why it’s so bad today, maybe laying in bed for too long did it. It was killing in the morning too though. I couldn’t even bend over to shave my legs in the shower. I’ll have to shave tomorrow sitting down.

Sigh...I hope this is just temporary.

I thought the therapeutic dose for lamictal is 200mg?
bizi
((((HUGS))))

Originally Posted by cs71510

Try to push through for a job. Once you do I think you’ll feel better. Best of luck and perseverance to you.

hey cool being from vegas

I want to go their.. it's on my bucket list.

what is it like?

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by bizi

I thought the therapeutic dose for lamictal is 200mg?
bizi
((((HUGS))))

Maybe but I was doing so well on just 100 that it was never raised. So I guess it depends.

When it rains it seems to fall!

Last week our deck caught on fire. We may get a little money towards it to fix it, but not much after the deductible. Now one of my two front teeth hurts, especially when I bite something. We don't have dental insurance because it's so expensive and usually not worth it. Because of that, I haven't gone to the dentist in a long time. I do have clear wear of some teeth from grinding/clenching, my front teeth in particular. I wonder if the one tooth couldn't take it anymore. It's not loose, though.

My husband can sign up for dental insurance, but only during a certain period (January or February I think). That's a long ways off and only worth it for major procedures, like crowns and maybe root canals. Otherwise, we have to pay 100% out of our pockets. I dont think it has anything to do with a wisdom tooth pushing my teeth. I have plenty of room for that.

[Daonnachd]

Hey, all. I hope you are doing well.

I got up at half five this morning. Did some painting, eventually made coffee for my wife and myself, taking my son to work, and will be leaving for work, myself, soon, though after a bit more painting. I meet with my T this afternoon. It'll go well.

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by bizi

I thought the therapeutic dose for lamictal is 200mg?
bizi
((((HUGS))))

That’s what I was brought (200 MG) up to when I was on Lamictal.

[pirilin]

Life is good.

[Unrigged64072835]

Long day, though quiet in the morning.

Went to pnurse by myself. Very unnerving. Husband had to go pick daughter up so I was in the main waiting area for ½ hour after my appointment. I so wanted to scream when I left. I don't see her until October so I hope I recover!

Daughter is doing good with her training. Her perfectionism is showing, though. Had to remind her that she only has to do "good enough." She's still waiting for her online course completion certificate so she can schedule her re-evaulation. Hope it comes soon.

There was a bit of a misunderstanding with her friend's mom over picking up the couch and bed on Friday but that was straightened out.

Doing okay. Still have some anger moments but I'm working that out.

[yellow_fleurs]

Kind of posted about this in a thread, but basically think I am in a mixed episode again, (or hypomania +PMDD symptoms?). I am not really good at figuring out what is going on at all, honestly. It is not as bad as on the Lexapro, and I have more insight. Lots of energy despite less sleep, working hard on things late into the night, laughing and elated when I run into a friend, followed by having some thoughts immediately after that I won't put here due to TW, but I am safe right now. It is not so much that my mood switches totally so much as they are both there, but my reaction to feeling them both changes throughout the day if that makes sense. To be optimistic I am really glad I have not lost all insight like I almost did before, and that I am not super irritable for once, just a little on edge.

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Kind of posted about this in a thread, but basically think I am in a mixed episode again, (or hypomania +PMDD symptoms?). I am not really good at figuring out what is going on at all, honestly. It is not as bad as on the Lexapro, and I have more insight. Lots of energy despite less sleep, working hard on things late into the night, laughing and elated when I run into a friend, followed by having some thoughts immediately after that I won't put here due to TW, but I am safe right now. It is not so much that my mood switches totally so much as they are both there, but my reaction to feeling them both changes throughout the day if that makes sense. To be optimistic I am really glad I have not lost all insight like I almost did before, and that I am not super irritable for once, just a little on edge.

Hello there,

I’m not sure what type of phone you have iPhone or Android. However there are many mood trackers available for free. You can look at the reviews to help you pick a good one.

[Wild Coyote]

Having a hard day.
PTSD flashbacks.
Feeling hopeless.

Love to all.


WC

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Having a hard day.
PTSD flashbacks.
Feeling hopeless.

Love to all.


WC

I’m sorry wild coyote. I just want you to know it’s not hopeless. Hopefully you’ll feel better soon. We need you around here.

[Moose72]

I saw a couplefriends today. Talked to another on the phone. I guess I am friend needy. I also tried to figure out this ****ing cpap mess and STILL havent solvrd it. I get passedback annd forth. As far as bp is concerned seroquel is giving me a dry mouth and still somewhat sleepy but not sleeping in as late. My dreams have been vivid on it too. We have little money till the first but my daughter got paid and if she will share that would be nice. I bet she wont though. My mom asked me what kinds of things my youngest likes. I think shes taking me shopping tomorrow- i hope anyway. My youngest is underweight and isnt gaining though he does eat. His doctor wants him to eat 4000 calories a DAY! Hes stubborn and only eats a few thing but they need to be nutritious and calorie dense. Ive got high-calorie protein powder but he wont touch it.

[Scooter9]

The not so low feeling continues... maybe this is a trend. Tracking it in my journal and mood tracking app... see how it is over the next while.

I managed a couple of family emergencies.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Having a hard day.
PTSD flashbacks.
Feeling hopeless.

Love to all.


WC

So sorry.

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Having a hard day.

PTSD flashbacks.

Feeling hopeless.


Love to all.




WC

I’m hating your suffering. (((Hugs))))

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Wild coyote-
we're here for you

[Wild Coyote]

Thank you for your kind responses.

My new pdoc has stirred up so much stuff.
I see her again in a couple of days and I need to tell her to back off.
I have already expressed the fact that I am having a hard time coping with her method of gathering information, as much history-taking as possible within the first few hours of sessions. My last pdoc was not this aggressive. (He has told me, repeatedly, that he feels his being aggressive would set me back. I agree with him.)

Love to all.

WC

[Cocosurviving]

Tomorrow I have an appointment with a gastrologist. I’ve been having problems with my stomach getting upset for about four years. Today my grandmother lost her best friend. My mom said she’s been upset and crying all day. She will barely talk with anyone on the phone. It’s about time she act human. When my daughter’s boyfriend committed suicide. My grandmother quoted something from the Bible like that was going to make my daughter feel better.

My daughter found out today she lost her job. She had just got hired back last Wednesday. It was her fault she was fired. She got an attitude with a trainer because she was asked to complete trainings that she completed the first time she worked for them. Anytime you return to a job you will be required to complete the same trainings again. That’s protocol plus they’re paying you to take the trainings so what’s the big deal. I could understand if it’s unpaid but that’s not the case. She has a lead on another job that is suppose to start on the 30th.

[Victoria'smom]

Moose72- sometimes insurance pays for ensure with a dr.'s prescription.

[pirilin]

Originally Posted by Supreme Soviet

Checking in hard.

Specialized private marriage investigators in Japan confirm that bride and groom are completely free of yakuza affiliation before anything is signed. Nobody thought to mention any of this as I grew up in rural Connecticut, so my wife is mobbed up. Two of her uncles are heavy in the Sumiyoshi-kai, the second largest yakuza clan and chunky shareholders of Hawaii, which they use as a mid-station between Japan and the American mainland. So my wife can have me killed really easily. I live in fear.

Hi SS,

You not tol me where to dig da trash in Hawaii brotha.

I may not have slept, and had a pretty bad flashback about my past abuse, (and felt dizzy today because of the pain in my leg)

but it is a cooler day than yesterday, I have my tv shows to watch later, and I have something decent inside my tummy

(yes I actually ate yesterday without my teeth hurting me)

okay so they have only hurt me one day (on monday), but still it's an accomplishment I'd say

I also found a new song called 100 years by five for fighting.

okay I love it. it's an amazing song

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I also found a new song called 100 years by five for fighting.

okay I love it. it's an amazing song

I remember that song. It makes me feel old. Lol

In 1 week from this Saturday, I get my evaluation results back for my psychosis. I'm really, really nervous about the outcome. I think the ink blot test results are going to make me seem like a total nutjob. lol. I read about the test and its interpretations, and apparently I'm an extremely aggressive, angry person because all I saw in the ink blot pictures were demonic, bloody things -- or grotesque in some other manner. (They're not wrong there...)

It's been on my mind for quite some time now and probably won't leave me alone until I get the results back (Aug. 4) and discuss them with my therapist (Aug. 8). I don't think I'll come up as schizophrenic, though, based on the interpretations I've read, so that's good news for me, but of course there are no guarantees on anything.

In other news, doing ok. Not much going on here; same ol' same ol'. I applied for two jobs yesterday and I hope that my applications at least get reviewed by a person (since computers tend to automatically toss out applications that don't contain certain keywords). That would be an achievement on its own... And of course getting to the next step of being called would be great, too...