[Moose72]

Help! I can't stop! I can't stop thinking and moving... Going going going..... My body is yelling at me but I just ca't!! I run, I rock, I rock and run.... I dance and bop around and talk talk talk talk talk- all silly sometimes mean things. Supposed to take seroquel 300 tonight but I just can't stop. Will that even work?

[pirilin]

Feelin groovy.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Anniversary of major loss today.
Just trying to get through the day.
Thank you so much for your compassion and support.

WC

I am sorry so Grief is so hard to deal with.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by vertigo

Didn't sleep well. My mother is in the hospital for some sort of mass in her lung.


Today I see my T. We're going to be working on a WRAP.

I am so sorry. Do they know anything about it yet? My mother-in-law passed away from something similar to mesothelioma. She was never a smoker and had masses all over her lungs. However, my father-in-law was a steel worker/welder; he came home covered in absestos a lot of the time, and she was the one cleaning his clothes. That's how we suspect she got it. But she had nearly a 10 year run with it, finally turning very bad the last 1.5 years.

I hope the mass will turn out to be nothing, but that is frightening.

[Daonnachd]

I just finished my session with my T. We worked on the WRAP and she gave me a book of poetry for my birthday.

As I closed the door my MIL called telling me that she can't drive me to ECT this Friday, after all. She's going to an appointment of my FIL's. I don't begrudge her going with him, it just screws me.

[Moose72]

I can't stoppppppppppp!!!!!!!! HALLLLLLLLP

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I can't stoppppppppppp!!!!!!!! HALLLLLLLLP

Do you have any prns, like a benzo? Or maybe you can take the seroquel early.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Do you have any prns, like a benzo? Or maybe you can take the seroquel early.

I just took the seroquel not even 5 minutes ago although I suddenly started feeling better about 10 mins before. That was awful. It lasted all day! I am guessing its either mania or psychomotor agitation- or both??

[wildflowerchild25]

Both I’d say! I hope you feel better soon!

A friend thoughtfully emailed a link to a

on Flat Earth Theory.
I won't watch it because I might not be able to handle the truth.

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by Supreme Soviet

A friend thoughtfully emailed a link to a

on Flat Earth Theory.
I won't watch it because I might not be able to handle the truth.

If the earth is flat why haven't the cats pushed us off the edge yet?

Originally Posted by vertigo

I just finished my session with my T. We worked on the WRAP and she gave me a book of poetry for my birthday.

Birthday, eh? Happy Birthday, vertigo!!
(Is it today, or??)

Sorry your ride fell through.

[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Birthday, eh? Happy Birthday, vertigo!!
(Is it today, or??)

Sorry your ride fell through.

Hahaha. Thank you. It's later this week, but since this is as close as she'll see me to it we exchanged gifts today. (Her birthday is this weekend.)

[pirilin]

Originally Posted by Supreme Soviet

A friend thoughtfully emailed a link to a

on Flat Earth Theory.
I won't watch it because I might not be able to handle the truth.

Go ahead. Watch it. It's an ad to push a book.
NcStationary (of all names) should be pushing sleeping aid videos.

[Miss Laura]

Eventually fell asleep at 3am but woke at 5am. This has been like this for a week and a bit now. I'm surviving on very little sleep. I feel good otherwise. Stayed in bed until 8am what's the point in getting up?

yesterday turned out not a very good tuesday.

- I had lots of flashbacks (made worse by the fact that one of my soap operas is showing a storyline that triggers me right now), so I'm going to try and avoid it

- my food came out so bad I had to throw it away and cook something else (then felt terrible for throwing it away)

- I didn't rest which was a given really.

throat still hurts from monday's lemon juice too

mood is still okay though which is a plus

[Moreta]

Oh man. My legs hurt. I started working out a few days ago. Maybe I shouldn't do dancing to work out. I wanted to go for a walk today too. Maybe I'll feel a bit better in a few hours. My dog needs exercise as well. I know it'll get better. wooo. man. If anyone wants to know I've just been doing videos off this channel on Youtube. Dance Fitness with Jessica

[yellow_fleurs]

Slept 12 hrs last night and still drowsy. My mind feels slow, and I don't have motivation to do much of anything. Kind of want to sleep and cancel all plans. Can I really be crashing so quick from lowering my lamotrigine? Guess we shall see. The answer is probably, if this reaction is anything like the lexapro, although I find it so odd that it would be similar since considering how different they are from one another. Going to keep a careful eye on this the next couple of days to make sure it doesn't get too bad. I will take depression over that other state any day, though. Time to make myself shower and get moving.

[Daonnachd]

Saved! My best friend has agreed to take me to the hospital once again for ECT this Friday. It's a bigger deal than it initially sounds since the hospital is two hours away on the north shore of San Francisco Bay. Distance and Friday afternoon traffic, but he's willing to drive his vehicle both ways. I'm so grateful. That's the news of my day.


I wish all of you peace and stability.

...and RABBIT, RABBIT!

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by vertigo

Saved! My best friend has agreed to take me to the hospital once again for ECT this Friday. It's a bigger deal than it initially sounds since the hospital is two hours away on the north shore of San Francisco Bay. Distance and Friday afternoon traffic, but he's willing to drive his vehicle both ways. I'm so grateful. That's the news of my day.


I wish all of you peace and stability.

...and RABBIT, RABBIT!

What a great friend! Glad you have the support and that it worked out.

[Moose72]

I am manic yet I want to cry sometimes because it makes me crazy to be manic! Its hard! I never do cry I just get that idea for a second then its back to mania thoughts.

[hopeless2015]

I left work at noon yesterday and slept most of the afternoon. Called in sick today and slept most of the morning. I'm not depressed but I just dont feel *right" guess I'll just let myself rest. I actually have time built up that will cover my time off so it's not unpaid time.

Hugs to all!!!

[Blueberrybook]

I had a hard & stressful morning. First, my running program messed up. Then, I had to deal with a bad AAA mistake, a possible job interview that turned out I got the email too late to interview, and calling the cell phone company because my daughter's phone stopped texting correctly after we moved over to Ting for our cellphones (runs on Sprint network). That took ages, but finally it's working. I'm eating a protein bar and then lying down without my cellphone near by. I've been getting a lot of automated telemarking calls. It occurred to me at one point I had to get a new phone number and couldn't port the old number over, and the new number is not on the national do not call registry (should that thing even work, I don't know). I only put my new number in a few days ago, and they said it could be 31 days until it works. Those automated calls make me furious, some of them are in Spanish even & I don't speak any Spanish. I don't know how to stop them. If anyone does know, please PM me.

[Unrigged64072835]

Originally Posted by vertigo

Saved! My best friend has agreed to take me to the hospital once again for ECT this Friday. It's a bigger deal than it initially sounds since the hospital is two hours away on the north shore of San Francisco Bay. Distance and Friday afternoon traffic, but he's willing to drive his vehicle both ways. I'm so grateful. That's the news of my day.


I wish all of you peace and stability.

...and RABBIT, RABBIT!

Rabbit rabbit! And glad you got a ride!

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Slow day today. My husband is worn down and depressed. He's taking a short nap before getting my daughter. Hopefully she passed her final test so she can work and he'll only have to make one trip until she gets her license. He also wanted a microscope but our savings was wiped out for her move. I hope we can do it later this year or early next year. They said they'll pay us back but I'm not counting on it. I just feel bad for him. I could drive but it would have to be in our car, not hers. She needs the drive time. I don't feel safe in her car. I need to be off the ground more to see.

Did the budget and it's good for this month. I can pick up some things for the house and have a little left for my birthday at the end of the month. Don't know what I want to do yet. I originally thought clothes but my closet is packed and I don't need fall clothes. Summer colors didn't match my skin tone and I already have a ton of blue outfits. Maybe some music instead.

I have to do labs the end of the week. Not looking forward to it because I don't know about my blood sugar or some of my liver enzymes. Guess I'll know in a couple of weeks. Seeing a new GP next month so this will be fun, not.

I'm still a jumble of emotions from everything but I think I'll be okay. Looking for a new direction, or get into a couple of things I've put off.

Hugs for all of you and double if you're suffering. WC, I do hope you find comfort really soon.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by vertigo

Saved! My best friend has agreed to take me to the hospital once again for ECT this Friday. It's a bigger deal than it initially sounds since the hospital is two hours away on the north shore of San Francisco Bay. Distance and Friday afternoon traffic, but he's willing to drive his vehicle both ways. I'm so grateful. That's the news of my day.


I wish all of you peace and stability.

...and RABBIT, RABBIT!

That’s a good friend. Great that you got a ride. Happy birthday!!