[Moose72]

The Starbucks guy (wanted to make out last weekend and I didn't) called and said he doesn't want anything but friendship anymore and he wants the tattoo cancelled. (i told him I'd do it because I didn't tell him I'd already cancelled it!) It was a great conversation that added up to we're on the same page now: we're just friends!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Still down on my life, but trying to make the best of it. Made some procrastinated and dreaded phone calls (phone phobic, so big deal!), then rewarded myself with the fun thing on the list -- bought tickets to 2 live music shows coming this fall!!!!! Really can't afford to (even though reasonable prices), but I desperately need some FUN! It's been FAR too long.

So, I'm excited.

BF extremely unlikely to be able to go to one (he'd probably hate the other, lol!), but I am very, very used to doing everything solo. Doesn't stop me from having fun. (Sure, company would be nice, but unrealistic.)

Woohoo!!!!!

AWESOME!!!


If I lived nearby, I'd love to offer to keep you company at concerts! I LOVE music!

We do need things to look forward to. I am constantly investigating the area concerts -- local and bigger events, too.

I just came home from having fun with a local band. I hit all of the concerts/performances I can attend.

I am glad you are so excited!!! I am excited for you!!!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Just coming home from a local concert. Much fun!!!
I attend all of the performances I can attend. I am lucky we have such an artsy community and all types of concerts are available, especially all summer long!!! Attending helps me to cope with the rest of my life.

I hope everyone has a peaceful night tonight and a FUN weekend, too!

Love to All!


WC

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Just coming home from a local concert. Much fun!!!
I attend all of the performances I can attend. I am lucky we have such an artsy community and all types of concerts are available, especially all summer long!!! Attending helps me to cope with the rest of my life.

I hope everyone has a peaceful night tonight and a FUN weekend, too!

Love to All!


WC

Awesome! I'm glad you had a good time!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by cln1812

Awesome! I'm glad you had a good time!

Thank you!!!
I have a lot of anxiety and also additional PTSD symptoms. I work hard at forcing myself to attend. I am usually glad I did go.

So many events in this area are free (subsidized by the arts councils, etc.) in this area. We are very lucky to live in this type of a community.

I am glad you are feeling better.


WC

[wildflowerchild25]

Today was a good day. I actually didn’t sleep at all! So I should sleep tonight. That would be nice as I had a ****** night’s sleep last night. Too much caffeine late in the day. You would think I would know not to get a latte at 7pm!

I thought I would see my boyfriend today but he had a concert to go to. But, he’s coming to dinner tomorrow! He’s going to meet my SIL and BIL for the first time. I’m so excited! I’m afraid he’s going to cancel though. I hope not bc I’m making dinner for everyone. I’ll be so upset if he does. Besides the fact that I miss him. I only get to see him once a week. Our schedules just don’t match up, especially since I have my son to take care of and he has his own son to take care of on the weekends. I guess he’s not getting his son this weekend though.

So yes, a good day. Tomorrow is my son’s friend’s birthday party. We are going to the planetarium. Should be really cool!

[Scooter9]

A busy day today. Despite my back pain I painted the bathroom. It needs a second coat so I get to do it again tomorrow.

Helped clean around the house. We went out for dinner after going shopping and visiting the nursing home.

Still feeling low but hanging on.

I reduced my lithium, this is the second day. I'll be off it in 4-6 weeks because I'm tapering slowly.

[Cocosurviving]

My day was just awful

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

My day was just awful

(((((( cocosurviving )))))))

I am sorry your day was awful.
I hope you can get some peaceful rest tonight.


WC

[Miss Laura]

I'm still doing great. I had a magical day yesterday and today isn't nearly going yo top that unfortunately.

I had 2 hours sleep last night and slept an extra hour in the morning.

Everyone is telling me I'm manic and need to start that meds but I don't know what to do I'm torn. I feel good. I'm bombarding my friends with messages and I am annoying I apologise but I don't get it

Last night felt so ****ed up.

Two years ago, after my grandpa died, we went to a specific restaurant with a lot of people, including my grandma, and sat down at a long table. Well, last night, we did the same thing after my grandma had died, going to the same restaurant and sitting at the same table. I hated every second of it. It felt so ****ed up. It bothered me all night and even bothers me this morning.

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

I'm still doing great. I had a magical day yesterday and today isn't nearly going yo top that unfortunately.

I had 2 hours sleep last night and slept an extra hour in the morning.

Everyone is telling me I'm manic and need to start that meds but I don't know what to do I'm torn. I feel good. I'm bombarding my friends with messages and I am annoying I apologise but I don't get it

I'd rather be manic than depressed.
And W would rather have me manic than depressed.
I can't speak for friends, though.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

I'm still doing great. I had a magical day yesterday and today isn't nearly going yo top that unfortunately.

I had 2 hours sleep last night and slept an extra hour in the morning.

Everyone is telling me I'm manic and need to start that meds but I don't know what to do I'm torn. I feel good. I'm bombarding my friends with messages and I am annoying I apologise but I don't get it

Sounds manic to me. Call. You might feel better at least

[Miss Laura]

I'm seeing my team next week got my CPN and I'm seeing my Counsellor maybe for the last time next week too. I can't call at weekends as they finish on a Fri and you straight to crisis team and I'm not that far gone.

I'm not even telling my friends in going to Edinburgh on Tues Lol! To meet a guy they'll go nuts

[Moreta]

I am so sick of opiate withdrawal. It really does suck.

[Blueberrybook]

Ran today. 11 miles. Walked 3 miles home.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Last night felt so ****ed up.

Two years ago, after my grandpa died, we went to a specific restaurant with a lot of people, including my grandma, and sat down at a long table. Well, last night, we did the same thing after my grandma had died, going to the same restaurant and sitting at the same table. I hated every second of it. It felt so ****ed up. It bothered me all night and even bothers me this morning.

I'm so sorry for your loss and the weirdness of last night. I think I would have felt the same way.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

My day was just awful

I'm so sorry

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

I'm still doing great. I had a magical day yesterday and today isn't nearly going yo top that unfortunately.

I had 2 hours sleep last night and slept an extra hour in the morning.

Everyone is telling me I'm manic and need to start that meds but I don't know what to do I'm torn. I feel good. I'm bombarding my friends with messages and I am annoying I apologise but I don't get it

It seems manic to me. I think you should contact your pdoc as soon as possible. I am able to call mine over the weekend, but if you don't have a number to call, it sounds like you need an urgent appointment with your pdoc on Monday.

I know it feels so much better to be manic than depressed, but mania can definley can quickly spiral your life out of control.

[Miss Laura]

Hey we can't request appointments like you guys can. I can call the crisis team but I hate doing it as I feel guilty for calling them. At weekend or at night it would be a number called NHS24 they would ask questions then put me to a social worker etc then consult a psychiatrist all through phone. I'm not that far gone for that though I would be wasting people's time

Originally Posted by cln1812

It seems manic to me. I think you should contact your pdoc as soon as possible. I am able to call mine over the weekend, but if you don't have a number to call, it sounds like you need an urgent appointment with your pdoc on Monday.

I know it feels so much better to be manic than depressed, but mania can definley can quickly spiral your life out of control.

[Moose72]

I made it through judo. Its such a good workout. You do one thing then 5 minutes later youre working on something else- a different part of thr body. I was very sweaty after class which means I at least tried hard! I threw one of the senseis several times too. That was a muscle memory that was in there! Ooh and this one girl punched me in the face. Lol. And before that, two of the senseis bonked heads. One of them even got a cold pack! It was all go today.

[Scooter9]

I went for a long overdue haircut as soon as the place opened this morning. The stylist commented on how long my hair had gotten.

I painted the bathroom with my son. The last time we painted together he was 7. he's 21 now. Always nice to do things with him.

Going to a party tonight. There will be drinking. I'll try not to overdo it.

Mood wise I'm still low. Trying to stay busy.

[Sunflower123]

Despite my initial success at moving on and getting a life, I had a rough couple of days with SI (could that be the steroids for my hand?). I’m feeling hopeful and optimistic today. I hope the mood holds.

Best wishes to all.

[yellow_fleurs]

Started off the day with a cheap matinee movie with friends that got me laughing. Laughing is always a good thing Also got my favorite bubble tea as a treat. I am generally still feeling really angry/irritable today, worse than yesterday, and like I almost want to tear off my skin at some points. Again, not over anything, just an inner mental and physical discomfort. Want to punch walls and things to let out the agitation, but have not yet. So, this is possibly getting worse each day off the Lamotrigine, and I really hope this is just a discontinuation type thing, because I am now worried maybe I was more stable on it actually. Too soon to tell I guess. Back to distracting myself from how I feel if possible.

Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs

Started off the day with a cheap matinee movie with friends that got me laughing. Laughing is always a good thing Also got my favorite bubble tea as a treat. I am generally still feeling really angry/irritable today, worse than yesterday, and like I almost want to tear off my skin at some points. Again, not over anything, just an inner mental and physical discomfort. Want to punch walls and things to let out the agitation, but have not yet. So, this is possibly getting worse each day off the Lamotrigine, and I really hope this is just a discontinuation type thing, because I am now worried maybe I was more stable on it actually. Too soon to tell I guess. Back to distracting myself from how I feel if possible.

Interesting.
Do you often think about committing a homicide? Yeah I know....bad word...