[Miss Laura]

Have restarted my meds after about 2 months off them

Feeling great

Meeting maybe a guy tomorrow but I don't know

Had the Chiropractor and Opticians this afternoon. I'm really happy as my eyes are ok they thought I might have some thing sinister maybe a tumour but all is good

Met my friend for coffee this afternoon too

Called my volunteering and quit. They are different since the restructure and it's not been good.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Miss Laura

Have restarted my meds after about 2 months off them

Feeling great

Meeting maybe a guy tomorrow but I don't know

Had the Chiropractor and Opticians this afternoon. I'm really happy as my eyes are ok they thought I might have some thing sinister maybe a tumour but all is good

Met my friend for coffee this afternoon too

Called my volunteering and quit. They are different since the restructure and it's not been good.

Glad to hear you are back on meds. Hopefully, they help.

[Moose72]

After ages of having a cpap that wont start and then if it DID it smelled like melting plastic.... I got a new CPAP today!! After 7 weeks of back and forth on the phone calling all sorts of medical equipment places and my doctor and faxing paperwork and and and... I got a brand new cpap! Not my old one "fixed". NEW!. I tried it at the place. I think ill like it- especially after sleeping without one for the last 5 days.

[Moose72]

Also, since I didnt sleep well without a cpap last night(s) I'm dying for a nap but I have judo tonight a 5:30. I feel like taking my meds early -including Ativan- and just zonking out. I dont feel I have the gumption togo. Run hop fall throw pin etc in judo. What is wrong with me?

[yellow_fleurs]

Well today I am feeling okay, and wondering what all the fuss was about in my mind recently. I stayed up all night working on my paper and finished the draft. I have been trying to do it for a week and couldn't focus, so I feel accomplished. I know I shouldn't stay up all night, but I feel calm and not agitated today or anything. I also got to meet my mentors for my new job, and see the office. The office has big windows so I will get sunlight, my mentors seem nice, and a schedule should be good for me. And it looks like I will be able to get away and see my pdoc still without much problem. That is a huge relief, because I didn't want to have to reschedule my next appointment or anything.

[half_awakexx]

Mood is up. I feel excitable and a bit anxious as well. Monday is not looking too bad. Just need to get through the next hour before my therapy appointment. Hopefully after that I'll go to the gym and work out with my brother. I enjoy having a work out buddy. He is such a great motivator too...keeps me from flattening myself with weights
After that, I plan on practicing self care and allowing myself to relax.
Hope everyone's Monday is turning out okay. Hugs to those that need it/want it.

[Blueberrybook]

Yep, I think it might be hypomania. I did a ton of chores today. This is not much like me as I generally am a horrible housekeeper.

Or is it just my normal self? I wish I even knew. I have been on psych meds nearly half my life (except around 6 months pre-pregnancy and most of my pregnancy, I think I had Zoloft, maybe some Xanax at the end of it). I don't even know what my normal is any more.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by cln1812

Yep, I think it might be hypomania. I did a ton of chores today. This is not much like me as I generally am a horrible housekeeper.

Or is it just my normal self? I wish I even knew. I have been on psych meds nearly half my life (except around 6 months pre-pregnancy and most of my pregnancy, I think I had Zoloft, maybe some Xanax at the end of it). I don't even know what my normal is any more.

You changed your avatar!

average day

cooler weather (which was nice), did some organizing of my dvds and updating of my music collection

food was average, though I say that.. I am still eating a hell of a lot (tried to slow down today, but no. won't work)

felt a little triggered this evening (memories from being on the ward)

[Wild Coyote]

I have been very agitated by Ambien. I have stopped taking it and am trying to lose the agitation. Have been mostly isolating because the agitation has been overwhelming. Agitation and memory lapses. I need to get it out of my system and see what's left for agitation.

Love to All!

WC

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Moose72

You changed your avatar!

Did that a few days ago...that’s me now. The old avatar was taken before I had my ulcer surgery.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I have been very agitated by Ambien. I have stopped taking it and am trying to lose the agitation. Have been mostly isolating because the agitation has been overwhelming. Agitation and memory lapses. I need to get it out of my system and see what's left for agitation.

Love to All!

WC

Sorry about about the Ambien. I didn’t have a good experience with it either. It gave me panic attacks instead of putting me to sleep. Seroquel has honestly worked best for me (chronic bad sleep, from a child up). I used it in low dose, like 25-50 mg for sleep ages ago, back when I was diagnosed with depression. It worked well even then. I think I went off it when I moved from my university town to Houston and changed pdocs.

[Tucson]

@ch1820: FWIW running and walking together for ten miles IMO burns for me 1200 calories at the very least, probably for yourself quite a bit more. This is not including fatigue near the end of the run. I walk one minute and run for 15 seconds. I am not trying to invalidate what you are doing. I am just concerned.

I have ran a measily four miles. cln1820 blows my doors off. If I had half her stamina...well anyway, I fell asleep for several hours. I have not been sleeping much, maybe four hours a night. This is very unusual. I seem to not want to go to bed late in the evening.

My credit card has been going up a couple hundred dollars a month, but most of that is really necessities, like gas, or bill payments that I did not reimburse from my cash account. Looking at this, it now appears to me that I have been overspending by about maybe $100 or $150 a month. Not good. So far my additional spending has not become entirely out of control...so far. I have been eating out too much. We are talking about an occasional Big Mac, and $2 pancakes at Denny’s. I also have been purchasing too many expensive PF Chang meals. I have been bored with my usual meals, but this is no excuse for spending more money on food. Then there is that $100 device I have used for my running.

I have recently been exercising with my stepson. He is a very good person who is kind, helpful, and with a very quick mind. He had to go to Special Ed while in high school. In some ways he has more available intelligence than his brother who was able to graduate high school a year early with an opportunity to go to college. Go figure.

I need to take a shower and get my place cleaned up. If my ex girlftriend were to show up, she would not be happy with me.

[Moose72]

Now that I skipped judo- its just ending now- I feel extremely guilty. Blech. Don't know what I'll have for dinner. I want to visit with my "buddy - 13".

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Now that I skipped judo- its just ending now- I feel extremely guilty. Blech. Don't know what I'll have for dinner. I want to visit with my "buddy - 13".

Welp he said no. Figures.

Well, just got back from my funeral trip for my grandma.

I was really overwhelmed by it all and now I'm just sad. I never want to go back there again because of all the memories, but at the same time, I should return in a few years to show respect to her and my grandpa.

I'm just exhausted from getting only 3 hours of sleep last night. I couldn't sleep in the airport because the plane kept getting delayed and I had to pay attention. I already had a 2-hour layover. I wasn't a fan of them making it 6, especially when I arrived @ 4am at one of the airports and waited until ****ing 3pm to land in Boston.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Well, just got back from my funeral trip for my grandma.

I was really overwhelmed by it all and now I'm just sad. I never want to go back there again because of all the memories, but at the same time, I should return in a few years to show respect to her and my grandpa.

I'm just exhausted from getting only 3 hours of sleep last night. I couldn't sleep in the airport because the plane kept getting delayed and I had to pay attention. I already had a 2-hour layover. I wasn't a fan of them making it 6, especially when I arrived @ 4am at one of the airports and waited until ****ing 3pm to land in Boston.

Sounds like a tiring trip.
Welcome Home!

WC

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Well, just got back from my funeral trip for my grandma.

I was really overwhelmed by it all and now I'm just sad. I never want to go back there again because of all the memories, but at the same time, I should return in a few years to show respect to her and my grandpa.

I'm just exhausted from getting only 3 hours of sleep last night. I couldn't sleep in the airport because the plane kept getting delayed and I had to pay attention. I already had a 2-hour layover. I wasn't a fan of them making it 6, especially when I arrived @ 4am at one of the airports and waited until ****ing 3pm to land in Boston.

So sorry. Funerals are draining and sad. Flying is so exhausting too. I hope you will be able to rest and take care of yourself now.

[Scooter9]

A busy day today. Getting lots of little things done around the house despite my strained back.

I visited the temple with my wife in the afternoon. She's east Indian and goes pretty often to the temple but I only join her once in a while. It was quiet and the overall experience helps center me.

We visited the nursing home. It was a stressful visit due to what we talked about.

Mood is still low but I'm hanging in there.

[Moreta]

ugh. Had an allergic reaction to getting tuna water on my hands last night. Hands still hurt a bit from it. I'm so sick of this ****. Why can't I just be well for once. I got overheated yesterday and it felt like my blood pressure was low so was stumbling around trying to do things last night. Always fun to try to walk when you feel like you're gonna pass out. I've been told that when I see my dr in september to ask about mast cell activation syndrome, ehlers danlos, and POTS. I'd rather not though. Ha. I don't want it to be that. I still feel like I'm gonna pass out a bit. Maybe I should just try to sleep a bit more.

[Miss Laura]

I'm great again

Again took my meds this morning

Took my shirt course of sleeping tablets did not work I got to sleep at midnight until 3am.

Was meant to be meeting a guy today but he's cancelled no idea if it's ever gonna happen. I'm majorly irritated by him

Flat day today nothing to do cause I was planning on seeing the guy

Getting out of the funk finally. Made pancakes for breakfast and I'm about to go for a walk.

[Faltering]

I think I'm depressed again. I've been letting important things go. This morning I missed a mandatory staff convocation because I couldn't convince myself to get out of bed. My co-workers were looking for me and I had to tell them I'm sick. I feel so bad about it. I feel like I'm losing control.

[Scooter9]

I've been so low for so long I just had to try something new.

So today I went to a nude beach and got naked along with everyone else. I layed on my towel completely naked, the sun on all my skin. I even got a beer. I'm glad I did it.

I'm still feeling low and depressed but I feel a sense of accomplishment that I did something I have wanted to try.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

I've been so low for so long I just had to try something new.

So today I went to a nude beach and got naked along with everyone else. I layed on my towel completely naked, the sun on all my skin. I even got a beer. I'm glad I did it.

I'm still feeling low and depressed but I feel a sense of accomplishment that I did something I have wanted to try.

That's so neat! Ive never done that. Im proud of you.