In my defence I don't think the word homicide should be censored in any conversation will the Ritz to employ or to subtract from the initial word

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by 2ISAB

Interesting.
Do you often think about committing a homicide? Yeah I know....bad word...

No, but it's a valid question. I have actually not had a single violent thought towards another person, and haven't even wanted to lash out in anger in a way that could emotionally harm someone. Suicidal thoughts, yes, which is not common for me until recently.

[wildflowerchild25]

Just got back from a birthday party for my son. Boy was that hard! I don’t do well in social situations like that. I just can’t fit in with the other moms. I’m exhausted from the stimulation. I still have to cook potatoes and broccoli for dinner. I found out my boyfriend can only stay a couple of hours so I’m disappointed. I thought he’d stay the whole night. But at least I get to see him for a little while.

I’m amazed at how well the birth control controlled my pms this month. I am getting my period today and all I have is cramps. I had none of the rage and depression that I usually get. I’m so glad I made the decision to go on it.

I’m so tired! I hope I perk up before company gets here.

[Unrigged64072835]

Have a day off. Slept in, had strange dreams. Woke up tired. Now I've been dragging the rest of the day.

All the dishes are clean, dinner is marinating in the fridge, and the cat loves her new covered cat bed as she is sleeping in it.

I'm still okay though.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Despite my initial success at moving on and getting a life, I had a rough couple of days with SI (could that be the steroids for my hand?). I’m feeling hopeful and optimistic today. I hope the mood holds.

Best wishes to all.

Hey there, Jennifer -
So sorry you've been experiencing this.
Yes, prednisone could very well be adding to mood changes.
Please be very careful while on prednisone.

WC

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Just got back from a birthday party for my son. Boy was that hard! I don’t do well in social situations like that. I just can’t fit in with the other moms. I’m exhausted from the stimulation.

I have been there too. My daughter is 10, and I loathe going to kid birthday parties. I just never fit in with the other adults. The last party my daughter was invited to was at this huge multi-story golf driving range (with super expensive food as well). It was at least a 45 minute drive from hone, so I couldn’t easily leave and pick my daughter up later. Plus, the place was packed. OMG, I think that was the worst kid birthday party I had ever been to. They didn’t even invite any other kids from my daughter’s school whose parents I may have vaguely known. Mostly, the kids were from the girl’s church, in entirety different school districts than she and my daughter, so I only knew the parents of the birthday girl. Ugh, it was awful.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I made it through judo. Its such a good workout. You do one thing then 5 minutes later youre working on something else- a different part of thr body. I was very sweaty after class which means I at least tried hard! I threw one of the senseis several times too. That was a muscle memory that was in there! Ooh and this one girl punched me in the face. Lol. And before that, two of the senseis bonked heads. One of them even got a cold pack! It was all go today.

Based on which calorie burn calculator you believe, a 180lb person working out at judo will burn up to 921 calories in an hour according to discovery health.com. Based on the healthstatus.com's calorie counter, a judo player will burn 820 calories per hour.

And that doesnt count the warmup exercises. Still, I think that must be low. Judo is HARD.

[Cocosurviving]

Today was way much better than yesterday. Me and my oldest daughter had a serious talk. Then me and both my daughters had lunch at Schlotzskys and my stomach did not get upset. My oldest daughter K now has a full-time and part-time job. The part-time job is at a gluten free food store I’m going to stop by and try the food. The menu changes weekly. I’m officially on more allergy meds than psych meds. My daughters and I hit up Ulta. They were having a great sale. My oldest daughter loves make-up....I use too. We bought facial masks and body wash. I purchased a new pair of Toms today because my dog chewed up my last pair. We went to Barns and Noble. My younger daughter A picked out two books by Percy Jackson

[Miss Laura]

Feeling amazing. Meeting the guy from the other day before he goes back to England tomorrow. Can't wait. Meeting in a few hours

since yesterday evening, I have been massively overeating- making myself so sick too (I've not thrown up, not yet).

not sure what baught it on (if anything), but eating so much.

it's 10 A.M on sunday morning and I'm eating like their's no tomorrow

bashed my leg on my wardrobe yesterday, that still hurts quite a lot

no sleep

cool weather

[Daonnachd]

Vortex, I'm jealous of your cool weather. It's been 33ºC (and above) here for the past week.

I've not been able to talk with my mother or my siblings regarding her cancer as our phone needs paid. I can't make or take calls.

Originally Posted by vertigo

Vortex, I'm jealous of your cool weather. It's been 33ºC (and above) here for the past week.

I've not been able to talk with my mother or my siblings regarding her cancer as our phone needs paid. I can't make or take calls.

it's actually been really hot here too (unusually hot for this time of year), the cooler weather has been here for a couple of days now- something to do with an atlantic storm.

it's refreshing, but next weekend we are meant to go back to warm weather

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by vertigo

Vortex, I'm jealous of your cool weather. It's been 33ºC (and above) here for the past week.

I've not been able to talk with my mother or my siblings regarding her cancer as our phone needs paid. I can't make or take calls.

(((((( vertigo and loved ones ))))))

Thinking of you.

WC

Not a notable day other than the fact that my young parrot is finally starting to fly some distances since his flight feathers finally came in. That's good, but we need to take some extra precautions.

[Wild Coyote]

Enjoying a quiet day today. Feeling agitated. Lots going on around me.
Lots of negative family stuff I am trying to stay away from. Do not need it.
Love to All!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Not a notable day other than the fact that my young parrot is finally starting to fly some distances since his flight feathers finally came in. That's good, but we need to take some extra precautions.

Sounds like fun!

WC

[Moose72]

Watching orange is the new black season 6. Saw a cool big bonzai tree today. Was $70. Ah well. And my friend was looking up sex toys -again!- and sent me a link and i clicked on more and it turned out to be "one click" on Amazon! So now i guess a pair of "official police handcuffs" are coming on Friday. Lmao!!!

[Blueberrybook]

I've been busy today. Ran 8 miles this morning, walked 3 more. Less than yesterday though, so better. And I saw a first while jogging; a man was randomly riding a unicycle down the street. I run/walk on housing subdivision neighborhood roads that are less crowded. I honestly can say I have never seen that in my life before! Hubby goes back to work tomorrow (he teaches high school, the upcoming week is a lot of training with little time to get his room in order, and they are moving his room, but the really ridiculous thing is they are moving him from his old classroom to the classroom right next door). So hubby is stressed out. Not to mention tomorrow evening is the school supply drop-off night for my daughter's school.

Anyway, after cleaning up from the run, I went to the store for some groceries, especially things to pack in both my husband's and my daughter's lunches. My daughter is a picky eater and never will buy a school lunch. It's OK, I'm just glad she eats the healthy things I pack for her. Then, I prepped all the stuff - lettuce for salads, washing cherries, cherry tomatoes, cutting up the pepper.

After lunch, I did chores, helped my daughter a little with cleaning her room. It is a disaster area, she doesn't want to get rid of a thing, and my husband always backs her up, but I think once school starts, I'm going to sneak away some stuff, let my mom keep it at her place 4 months or so, and if it hasn't been missed, sell it at a garage sale or donate it to the church. I was able to start on cleaning out the refrigerator. I got the worst drawer cleaned, the deli drawer, so that's progress.

Tired now and taking a break. Still have to cook dinner tonight. Maybe somewhat hypomanic?

[pirilin]

I'm feeling great for my age group. I could be 39 again and not complain.

[Moose72]

How many steps is 11 miles? My son has a step counter on his wrist all the time and he said he's seen it go above 40,000!

An average person has a stride length of approximately 2.1 to 2.5 feet. That means that it takes over 2,000 steps to walk one mile; and 10,000 steps would be almost 5 miles.

Woah. 20 miles?? No wonder he's underweight.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Moose72

How many steps is 11 miles? My son has a step counter on his wrist all the time and he said he's seen it go above 40,000!

An average person has a stride length of approximately 2.1 to 2.5 feet. That means that it takes over 2,000 steps to walk one mile; and 10,000 steps would be almost 5 miles.

Woah. 20 miles?? No wonder he's underweight.

Usually anything above 25,000 steps is a lot for me and 30,000 REALLY a lot. I think my steps were estimated at 17 miles something yesterday. Right now, I'm 31,264, 15 miles estimated. Not sure just how accurate these things are though. And certain types of FitBits, you can give false steps to, just by swinging your arm and alternatively, it will not count steps when your arm is not swinging (pushing a grocery cart, carrying something in the arm with the FitBit on). So it's all just an estimation. And I never bothered to measure my stride length, which plays into it.

I actually use the GPS on my phone for estimating the mileage; it's much more accurate. It gives the same distance as when I drive a given route that I walk.

[yellow_fleurs]

Today was a bit better. Last night I was feeling really low and exhausted from feeling angry, but then a couple friend asked me if I wanted to go out for a drink. I haven't been letting myself drink on my own because I think I would be using it to self medicate, however tempting that is, but for a social reason felt it was okay. I limited myself to one drink, but I felt better getting out with friends, and if I am honest, think the drink took the edge off and calmed me down. Today I have been feeling kind of hyperfocused on my project, and a little anxious and irritable, but not so much I was uncomfortable. I am going to stay up and finish this paper tonight so I can knock it off my list. Nervous about meeting my coworkers tomorrow, but reminding myself it isn't that big of a deal. It's not like I am starting work yet.

[half_awakexx]

I really didn't want to go anywhere today, but was glad my dad got me out of my apartment. We went to a state park across the river and it was beautiful. I didn't admit it at the time as I was slightly irritable.
I'm nervous about going to therapy tomorrow. I have a new vehicle I'm driving and also, I tried to contact my therapist several times last week as it was a rough time for me and she didn't respond.
Hope all is well for everyone.

[Scooter9]

Went to a gathering/party yesterday after a busy day during the day.

My back was really hurting me - it's a muscle injury so I'm treating it with creams and Tylenol.

The gathering was nice - met some people I haven't met in a long time, plus met some people I had seen just the week before. Also went to the nursing home to visit our loved one there. She's getting transferred to another home in about 10 days.

I'm still feeling low but hanging on.

I feel more satisfied that I'm accomplishing something now that I'm lowering my lithium. I think I'm going to cheat and lower it faster than every 2 weeks...go with reducing it every week instead.

[Blueberrybook]

I ran over 10 miles again today, ugh. Need to do better.

I dropped off our xfinity equipment since our contract was up, they wouldn't notiate much in the way of a lower price, so we changed TV & internet back to U-verse, which has a promo on again. Stopped at Starbucks and got a frappucino & panini for lunch.

My husband went back to work today (teaches high school physics). My daughter will start 5th grade on Wednesday in her school district. We have plans to get together tomorrow with my sister and 3 nieces, have lunch, make ice cream, etc. I love my nieces but 3 under 7 is chaotic, and everyone is vying for attention. I hope it won't be too exhausting.

On the other hand, I actually spent time cooking dinner yesterday, ran so far today, already finished the laundry. I might be hypomanic. But also, I get like this a day or 2 before I start my period, and it's supposed to start any day now. I don't know why, it's so contradictory, but I am almost hypomanic every time my period starts. So it could just be that.