[Moreta]

I went and got labs yesterday. The nurse called and said they came back normal. Now I just have to wait till wednesday to see the GI dr. Most of the pain is gone. My abdomen though is still a bit crampy but not as bad as it was yesterday and the day before.

I'm so sick of health issues.

I am in a lot of pain today.

making me feel faint and making me really hurt.

I am not doing anything today. just watch tv and cook something later

I am still overeating

I didn't sleep

[Tucson]

A couple days ago, it happened again. At an intersection, my vision became very bright, everything starting to appear white. This only lasted about half a minute, and then went away. The time before this, everything went white. I could not see a thing except part of the outline of only some things. That lasted a couple minutes. If this happens one more time, I will start taking my Loranzepam. I believe this is caused by allot of stress, some sort of conversion disorder. My daughter had the keys taken away of her mothers car. She was using it when she should not have been. She has been behaving a bit recklessly lately. I am getting bitten up by allot of bed bugs. Time to call the exterminator. Every time I go to the next door neighbors house, something like this can happen. The place is infested by with them. Even an exterminator told me this. I just cannot go over there anymore.

I have been continuing my exercising by running. I am looking for good, inexpensive running shoes. I need them to be responsive but still comfortable. The two do not necessarily go together. I tried out a new pair of running shoes which made a difference. I am very happy that I am exercising. My health has been improving, and my mood is less depressed.

[Blueberrybook]

I am so done with trying to get help from places only to fail. My husband needs a better paying job than being a teacher We have too much money to get disability, and we barely can afford the mortgage on a house built in 1964. Don't know about the rest of the bills. I'm hugely panicky now, feel desperate & hopeless. Need to look into a nutritionist and don't have the energy to. The state's stupid website to get assistance requires a zillion documents I don't have scanned into the computer. Submitted some, buI I know I'm missing others. Need a form from the pdoc saying I can't work. He's supposed to call back. Called the hospital about reducing my bill because of being underinsured - voicemail. No word from the social worker I was supposed to hear from. Ugh!

[Moose72]

My stomach hurts. Nice. And my pdoc won't call me back. Guess there are too many others hallucinating or needing committed.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Tucson

The volunteering can help you take your mind off of your anxiety escalating problems at home.

I have found volunteering helped me in the past for that reason, and it also gave me a social outlet and made me feel good about helping others. For this reason I am looking into volunteering myself right now.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by Tucson

A couple days ago, it happened again. At an intersection, my vision became very bright, everything starting to appear white. This only lasted about half a minute, and then went away. The time before this, everything went white. I could not see a thing except part of the outline of only some things. That lasted a couple minutes. If this happens one more time, I will start taking my Loranzepam. I believe this is caused by allot of stress, some sort of conversion disorder. My daughter had the keys taken away of her mothers car. She was using it when she should not have been. She has been behaving a bit recklessly lately. I am getting bitten up by allot of bed bugs. Time to call the exterminator. Every time I go to the next door neighbors house, something like this can happen. The place is infested by with them. Even an exterminator told me this. I just cannot go over there anymore.

I have been continuing my exercising by running. I am looking for good, inexpensive running shoes. I need them to be responsive but still comfortable. The two do not necessarily go together. I tried out a new pair of running shoes which made a difference. I am very happy that I am exercising. My health has been improving, and my mood is less depressed.

Have you mentioned the vision changes to your doctor? I don't know if you already discussed in another post, but thought it might be worth it if it happened when you were not exercising and you don't know the cause. Take care!

Overall things have been good. I've been keeping myself busy. BP-wise I'm doing well but I have had problems with anxiety. I returned my work shirts today and start my class tomorrow morning. I still haven't gotten my oil changed, maybe Ill be able to recruit someone to go with me.

[Scooter9]

Feeling withdrawn and low.

I went out with family for the day yesterday so I was busy but not able to shake this low feeling. I see my pdoc in 9 days.

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by cln1812

I am so done with trying to get help from places only to fail. My husband needs a better paying job than being a teacher We have too much money to get disability, and we barely can afford the mortgage on a house built in 1964. Don't know about the rest of the bills. I'm hugely panicky now, feel desperate & hopeless. Need to look into a nutritionist and don't have the energy to. The state's stupid website to get assistance requires a zillion documents I don't have scanned into the computer. Submitted some, buI I know I'm missing others. Need a form from the pdoc saying I can't work. He's supposed to call back. Called the hospital about reducing my bill because of being underinsured - voicemail. No word from the social worker I was supposed to hear from. Ugh!

When my old computer was down and I had not purchased my new computer and printer yet. Me and my daughter would go to the library. We’re in Oklahoma and if you scan documents to an e-mail it’s free.

Originally Posted by cln1812

We have too much money to get disability, and we barely can afford the mortgage on a house built in 1964...

This confuses me. Are we talking SSDI? My experience is that only the applicant's income is counted. It's one of the (faulty) ways they decide if you can work (and is grossly unfair to those who have no one to help support them and/or live where the cost of living is higher because they have a set amount you can't earn over. They seriously once flagged me for earning $1 --gross-- over their amount ONE month(!) Don't get me started as they say..)

But yeah, anyway, that confused me...

[Blueberrybook]

I can’t get SSID because I haven’t worked long enough. Only about 2.5 years. This is SSI maybe? Anyway, the type where all your income including your spouses is included.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Cocosurviving

When my old computer was down and I had not purchased my new computer and printer yet. Me and my daughter would go to the library. We’re in Oklahoma and if you scan documents to an e-mail it’s free.

I am just beyond doing anything today. Maybe tomorrow. Today sucked. I have been beyond depressed. Stupidly made myself throw up after eating ice cream. I usually can’t make myself throw up easily but I used to be able to do it without much thought for ice cream and apparently still can.

[Moose72]

My mom came over and pinned my gi so she can take it to the tailor to be shortened. Its 3 inches too long in the arms and 5 in the legs and nearly a foot in the jacket!

Nobody called me back- not pdoc anyway. I cancelled my appointment for tomorrow. I give up. I feel like I dont matter because my problems are stupid.

13-year says he's feeling bad emotionally. I dont know more than that.

[Moreta]

Today turned out decent but **** if I know what I did today. haha. I did cook some breakfast for once and I went to fedex to drop off some packages and went to trader joes and was disappointed they didn't have their pumpkin stuff out yet. haha. it's my favorite time of year at trader joes when they have their pumpkin stuff.

[~Christina]

My husband is out of town , not coping well on all fronts.

So binge watching ER the BEST show on the planet ever.

On a side note cln yes your husbands income plays a huge factor in your receiving SSI , sorry.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

My husband is out of town , not coping well on all fronts.

So binge watching ER the BEST show on the planet ever.

On a side note cln yes your husbands income plays a huge factor in your receiving SSI , sorry.

Yeah, and they don’t consider the school is too cheap to buy supplies like markers, scissors, glue, balls, etc. Some of these things get used up, others have a way of walking away, but to be able to do labs in physics, he will have to buy different types of balls , marbles, rubber bands, notebook paper (which the kids just won’t bring to class), golfing pencils because they won’t bring anything to write with either, etc. These supplies do not have much monetary value when taken alone, but over the school year, he usually ends up having to spend significant money on this, even with using the dollar store as often possible. Then, they give him health insurance with a $7500 deductible, get a medical emergency like I did, oops, you are out $7500...but wait, it gets better, each family member has to contribute $2500 towards the deductible for it to kick in for them...so medical stuff is 100% out of pocket for my husband and daughter even though I ran the total deductible up to $7500 because neither one has yet had $2500 of out of pocket medical expenses.

I called the charity worker at the hospital. Voice mail. I am so depressed today. I jus5 want to give up.

I need a social worker or something and God, I cannot find one. Texas is truly the suckiest state to live in if you need any sort of social help! Oh, but they always ask if you are Hispanic or Latino, which makes me suspect there is extra help if you are. Apparently, I should qualify for less help because I am white, even if I grew up dirt poor...! This state and country are messed up!

Oh, and I could just get benefits if I divorced. The state would rather tear a family apart to get any sort of aid than keep a child living in a 2 parent home

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by cln1812

Yeah, and they don’t consider the school is too cheap to buy supplies like markers, scissors, glue, balls, etc. Some of these things get used up, others have a way of walking away, but to be able to do labs in physics, he will have to buy different types of balls , marbles, rubber bands, notebook paper (which the kids just won’t bring to class), golfing pencils because they won’t bring anything to write with either, etc. These supplies do not have much monetary value when taken alone, but over the school year, he usually ends up having to spend significant money on this, even with using the dollar store as often possible. Then, they give him health insurance with a $7500 deductible, get a medical emergency like I did, oops, you are out $7500...but wait, it gets better, each family member has to contribute $2500 towards the deductible for it to kick in for them...so medical stuff is 100% out of pocket for my husband and daughter.


I called the charity worker at the hospital. Voice mail. I am so depressed today. I jus5 want to give up.

Sorry your in such a mess. Practice some soothing coping skills.

Mindfulness , yoga, breathing and there’s always journaling and mundane things like cooking.

[scatterbrained04]

Frustrated. Pdoc won't let me go more than a month without seeing him even though I'm totally fine. Probably partially because I haven't been doing exactly what HE wants me to do with my meds. But he doesn't take insurance and it's getting so expensive. I just don't understand, and I'm so frustrated right now.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

My husband is out of town , not coping well on all fronts.

So binge watching ER the BEST show on the planet ever.

(((((( ~Christina ))))))

Thinking of you.


WC

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

This confuses me. Are we talking SSDI? My experience is that only the applicant's income is counted. It's one of the (faulty) ways they decide if you can work (and is grossly unfair to those who have no one to help support them and/or live where the cost of living is higher because they have a set amount you can't earn over. They seriously once flagged me for earning $1 --gross-- over their amount ONE month(!) Don't get me started as they say..)

But yeah, anyway, that confused me...

I did not reply to CLN’s post because I was confused. My stepdad (heart condition) gets SSDI and he had a good job for over twenty + years. He also receives retirement from that employer each month. My mother works full-time and they have not had any problems with SSA.

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by cln1812

I can’t get SSID because I haven’t worked long enough. Only about 2.5 years. This is SSI maybe? Anyway, the type where all your income including your spouses is included.

Oh I did not know SSA did that with SSI. I’m acquainted with a few people that receive SSI however their single.

[~Christina]

SSDI is just based on the persons work history credit , since cln hasn’t worked much she would only qualify for SSI , which that can only be given on total household income. If her husband makes over X amount ( I’m not 100% sure on amount ) she would not receive her benefit of like 770 I “ think” is SSI limit max

Sucks he has to pay for student supplies but SSI doesn’t care where household income is or not nor what it’s spent on.

My friends husband was on SSI , if she took more than 2 extra 4 hour shifts it put them over the limit and they didn’t receive his SSI Check.

Sucks but the government has some wacky rules and guidelines

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by Tucson

A couple days ago, it happened again. At an intersection, my vision became very bright, everything starting to appear white. This only lasted about half a minute, and then went away. The time before this, everything went white. I could not see a thing except part of the outline of only some things. That lasted a couple minutes.

This is a wild guess, and of course we are not allowed to diagnose each other on PC.

Could it be something like epilepsy?

[CantExplain]

Originally Posted by Moose72

My mom came over and pinned my gi so she can take it to the tailor to be shortened. Its 3 inches too long in the arms and 5 in the legs and nearly a foot in the jacket!

What's a gi? Wikipedia doesn't know.