[Daonnachd]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

new cd decided to jump after I played it only twice- spent a while cleaning it, only for it to jump again today

Vortex, I'm sorry the food didn't sit well, that you're in pain, and that you didn't sleep. As an avid music lover, I'm especially sorry that the disc is skipping. I just had the same experience listening to one of my favourite Wolfstone albums. I guess that's one of my fave all time albums. What did you use to clean it?

Things are getting better, I think. I took 2 days off this week to avoid me flipping out over something nonsensical just bc I’m in some weird revved up cranked state, and it definitely helped. I always feel conflicted after doing this — I’m glad I had the insight and ability to do what I needed, but I also still think I should be capable of pushing through the rough patch without having some grand meltdown.

I have a lot of yard work to do this weekend. My neighbors are annoyed with the large pile of mulch that has been sitting on my driveway since May. Not sure what to do with it. I already mulched everything.

Originally Posted by Pookyl

My health issues are starting to get me down. After 10 days of back pain I’m still struggling to walk.
I saw my GP this morning. Nothing like running through every thing that’s wrong with me to make me feel like crap.

Sorry to hear that, Pookyl. Do you know why you have back pain? Or did it just start suddenly out of nowhere? I've had mild back pain that's started suddenly out of nowhere and it was extremely frustrating. Then I had back pain from when I fell 8 steps down the stairs recently. Had to go to the chiropractor and luckily that helped. I don't know if you've tried a chiropractor or not, but that's one route you could take in the interim. That may ease the pain, but obviously the effectiveness of few chiropractic adjustments is patient dependent.

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

I awoke at 3:30, fully alert - again. So I got up and put yesterday's freshly washed sheets on the bed in the other bedroom. We have guests coming today to stay the night. And our refrigerator still hasn't arrived.

...But I feel fairly well in spite of it all.

Damn. The fridge still hasn't arrived? I remember you ordering one a while back.

That's sounds sucky and frustrating. Does your work at least have a fridge you could use in the interim for your leftover lunches? I'm not saying use the fridge for all of your personal stuff, as that would be abusive unless you got permission to do that. I'm just saying that if you ordered lunch out during your lunch break that if you could leave your leftover lunch in the fridge and eat it tomorrow. (Sorry, I'm not up to date with this thread.)

[Moose72]

Sitting in the lobby waiting for judo to start.

Originally Posted by raging vortex

food didn't agree with me last night and made me quite ilkl

despite this I can't control the overeating and it's just as bad today as it has been for a long, long time

nwew cd decided to jump after I played it only twice- spent a while cleaning it, only for it to jump again today

- I am in a high amount of pain with my back and my legs

- I didn't sleep, though did read my book a little

Sorry to hear about everything. It sounds like you're ok today food wise after feeling ill? Or is your stomach still bothering you?

If you're overeating, what about chowing down on some veggies and fruits if you're not doing that? Or you could eat stuff with whole grains (e.g., brown rice or whole grain bread, as long as neither of those things are ultra processed since ultra processed whole grains are no different than bleached rice or bleached bread). They're both satisfying and healthy for you, except the whole grains may have high carbs. You can also fill your remaining hunger with some water.

I like to make Mexican rice with whole grain rice with veggie stock, and honestly, I can't tell the difference between white rice and whole grain rice. And veggie stock doesn't taste much different than chicken stock when you make the rice if you do it right. Most of the flavor comes from the tomato sauce/paste, onion, and cumin anyway. That's just one example of healthy food I like to make that tastes great.

As for your cd, are you sure your cd player isn't making scratches or causing the skipping? Try cleaning out the cd player with canned air. If not that, then disassemble the cd player by undoing the screws and cleaning the cleaning the laser. It's super easy: How To Clean Portable Compact CD Player Laser Lens Eye - How To Fix & Repair Things Yourself

Originally Posted by Moose72

Sitting in the lobby waiting for judo to start.

Have fun with judo.

I've never done judo, but it sounds like loads of fun. I'm just a chicken.

[downandlonely]

I don't like anything that even vaguely involves fighting

Feeling pretty good today, for a change.

I know this is gross, but I had been struggling with some stress and hadn't taken a shower in a few days until today. Now I feel a lot better.

I'm still struggling with constipation. Normally, miralax gives me bad, bad diarrhea, but I haven't had any. I've got a blockage for sure, as I can feel it stuck in the same spot again.

I wish I could see a GI doctor right now because it's urgent, but I have to wait 2 months. Ugh. The idea of going to the ER to see a GI doctor soon is becoming more and more appealing because I'm afraid that I'm damaging my insides, or that they're already damaged and getting worse. I might ask my GP if she can order some kind of x-ray or CT scan and interpret it herself, but I doubt she can help. I guess it's worth a shot, though.

I seriously think I need to go off Lexapro, as I think it's part of the culprit (besides the possible narrowed colon), but I always have terrible withdrawal from that stuff. Crying spells, severe depression, suicidal thoughts, heightened anxiety, brain zaps, confusion, balance/coordination issues, etc.. It's no fun and I've literally tried it 5 times (2 under the guidance of my pdoc and 3 on my own) and failed every time. Oh, and I know that Rexulti is exacerbating the condition as well, and every AP has done this to me, but if I go AP-free, then I get persistent psychosis regardless if I'm in an episode or not.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Have fun with judo.

I've never done judo, but it sounds like loads of fun. I'm just a chicken.

If its being thrown that youre chicken of ou learn all the easy steps first before you ever have to take a fall from a throw. Once that happens it should be automatic.

[Moose72]

Why do i feel like ive gained 50 pounds overnight?

[Wild Coyote]

It's a beautiful Fall day here.

My niece came by to visit and have lunch. She's an angel!

My mood fluctuates. This is good news, as it was stuck in depression only. Today, I have enjoyed some glimpses of hope.

Love to All!

WC

[wildflowerchild25]

Still holding steady today. I took my son to the arcade nice and early so it wasn’t crowded. He had a great time. Got a whole bag of useless junk lol. My back only hurt a little bit with all the standing - without even taking Advil. So I’m glad for that. Maybe the second round of injections will take care of the problem. The amount of pain I’m in right now is back down to the annoying level instead of unbearable so that’s good. I can deal with annoying.

I cleaned out all the trash from my car as well. Even the trash jammed under the seats. I wiped down the seats a little bit and cleaned out the cup holders as best I could. I think I need to get my car detailed. It’s pretty bad since I’m not that clean of a person so I don’t keep up with it. By the time I get to it it’s too frustrating for me to clean properly. Plus I have leather seats which are easier to clean in some respects but I need special leather cleaner and a scrub brush to really get them clean. I’d rather have someone else do it. I’m lazy.

My SIL and BIL are coming up soon. I’m trying to get my brother and his wife to hang out tonight too but they just had the week from hell with a stomach virus between them and my baby niece so I’m not sure if they will. I haven’t seen them in like three months despite the fact that they live ten minutes away. They seem to put her family above me a lot. My moms still mad at them for blaming her for my niece’s hand foot and mouth disease two months ago (long dramatic story) so she doesn’t want to go. She’s being a baby. Like always.

Anyway I’m glad my mood is better for now.

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

It's a beautiful Fall day here.

My niece came by to visit and have lunch. She's an angel!

My mood fluctuates. This is good news, as it was stuck in depression only. Today, I have enjoyed some glimpses of hope.

Love to All!

WC

So glad you’ve found some hope! You deserve it.

[Blueberrybook]

Horribly forgetful. Having an extremely bad day.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

So glad you’ve found some hope! You deserve it.

Thank you!
I know you know feeling glimpses of hope is a big deal!
You and yours are in my thoughts and prayers.

WC

[Moreta]

I'm ready to bring down the patriarchy. Getting real sick of men.

[Unrigged64072835]

At least we were able to take a walk in the woods before being cooped up in the house again. It was interesting because we had a lot of rain from Gordon and one side of the dam was really high. You could see the watermarks up on the trees. It was pretty amazing.

Having this installer for five days straight makes me appreciate my alone time. And my independence!

Won’t be able to do cleaning tomorrow because the installer will be here and I’ll be having an endoscopy Monday so I’ll be reading more books for a while.

Love and hugs. Good night.

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Feeling pretty good today, for a change.

I know this is gross, but I had been struggling with some stress and hadn't taken a shower in a few days until today. Now I feel a lot better.

I'm still struggling with constipation. Normally, miralax gives me bad, bad diarrhea, but I haven't had any. I've got a blockage for sure, as I can feel it stuck in the same spot again.

I wish I could see a GI doctor right now because it's urgent, but I have to wait 2 months. Ugh. The idea of going to the ER to see a GI doctor soon is becoming more and more appealing because I'm afraid that I'm damaging my insides, or that they're already damaged and getting worse. I might ask my GP if she can order some kind of x-ray or CT scan and interpret it herself, but I doubt she can help. I guess it's worth a shot, though.

I seriously think I need to go off Lexapro, as I think it's part of the culprit (besides the possible narrowed colon), but I always have terrible withdrawal from that stuff. Crying spells, severe depression, suicidal thoughts, heightened anxiety, brain zaps, confusion, balance/coordination issues, etc.. It's no fun and I've literally tried it 5 times (2 under the guidance of my pdoc and 3 on my own) and failed every time. Oh, and I know that Rexulti is exacerbating the condition as well, and every AP has done this to me, but if I go AP-free, then I get persistent psychosis regardless if I'm in an episode or not.

Does your GP know about the constipation? Wouldn't hurt to let her know at least and maybe she can give some advice or some guidance as to when to go to the ER. I don't usually deal with constipation, but got constipated when I started lamotrigine and had to take a laxative. Fortunately for me it worked within a couple of days, but it was very unpleasant until it did. Hope you feel better soon, and don't wait until it is really serious before going to the ER if it does get bad.

[Pookyl]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Sorry to hear that, Pookyl. Do you know why you have back pain? Or did it just start suddenly out of nowhere? I've had mild back pain that's started suddenly out of nowhere and it was extremely frustrating. Then I had back pain from when I fell 8 steps down the stairs recently. Had to go to the chiropractor and luckily that helped. I don't know if you've tried a chiropractor or not, but that's one route you could take in the interim. That may ease the pain, but obviously the effectiveness of few chiropractic adjustments is patient dependent.

I have osteoarthritis down the full length of my spine and a fused cervical vertebrae or 3. I was also born with a chiari malformation etc. I can’t go too much into other reasons why I have pain without risking my anomynity. I am according to my neurosurgeon a rare specimen in the neurosurgical world.

Sometimes sleeping in the wrong position is all that it takes to set things off. I think that’s what happened this time because I woke up in pain. I’m seeing a physio which helps. He’s very good. Sitting in the sunshine also helps. I suspect it’s all in my head but I find sunshine so soothing.

[TheSeaCat]

I had another somewhat decent day. I ended up spending most of the day watching football with the family, team lost which made me irritated. It would be nice to see them win for once.

Anyway I hope you all are doing well tonight.

[Daonnachd]

I didn't self harm even though I had the urge to do so earlier today. It came out of nowhere when I was all by myself. I simply endured. It probably didn't help that I had the Jar of Flies album by Alice in Chains playing.


Now we have guests over for the night. A childhood friend of my wife, the friend's daughter, and someone I've never met before. I hope tomorrow I wake up at 3:30 again so that I have some quiet time to myself. I'm sure many of you can relate.

[bizi]

I took a shower today!
oops wrong forum/thread.
bizi

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Why do i feel like ive gained 50 pounds overnight?

I gained 50 pounds over 3 years seriously.
bizi

[Moose72]

I came home from judo and lunch around 4 and laid down because I was sore and tired. Now I just woke up and its midnight. Im screwed!