[Blueberrybook]

Hugs to everyone who needs one.

It's 3:50 AM, and I can't sleep. H has a big job interview this afternoon, and I'm anxious about it. I kept waking up all night. Poor H fell asleep with a bunch of materials in his lap, prepping. We think he stands a decent chance at this job, and it would be such a relief to us should he get it.

We really could use some good news for a change.

I got 0 sleep. Now it's time for work and I'm screwed. Been up 27 hours at this point. Thank God it's Friday though.

I hope everyone else got better sleep than me

[Daonnachd]

I'm going to see my mother today.

[Nammu]

Hope she is doing well Daonnachd

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

I'm going to see my mother today.

You will be in my thoughts. Best wishes for you both.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

I'm going to see my mother today.

I hope you have a nice visit. Thinking of you and your mom.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

I'm going to see my mother today.

I hope things are going well

[Blueberrybook]

And depression rears its ugly head...so depressed and anxious today.

I hope it has to do with H’s job interview and not my stopping Wellbutrin. I haven’t been this down in a long while. Ugh, I hate this stupid disease

Im in a friggin walmart parking lot two towns away waiting for a cardiology appointment. I had class this morning and didn’t want to spend all day and all my gas driving back and forth.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by spikes

Im in a friggin walmart parking lot two towns away waiting for a cardiology appointment. I had class this morning and didn’t want to spend all day and all my gas driving back and forth.

I hope your appointment goes well.

[Sunflower123]

Back on my feet after going through a bad time with a depressive episode so hopefully it’s not SAD rearing it’s ugly head. I tend to do better when I’m productive and I’m slowly getting back up to speed. I have some trips/activities coming up that I’m looking forward to including hiking in the Smokies, a drum circle and seeing the Christmas lights at Biltmore.

Can you believe it’s already November? It will be Christmas before you know it.

Warm wishes to all and hugs for those that need them.

[liveforsummer]

Decided I’m not getting out of bed. Other than to replenish water or snacks. Gonna read and doze. Takes the stress out of wasting time all day long trying to decide what to do and stop and start multiple things. I feel tired again... gonna close my eyes

[Moose72]

Doing errands at the mall with peter. Im his ride.

tough week, very depressed and lots of blackouts (so depressed I didn't come here)

wednesday was halloween, not a bad night I suppose, though a lot of my plans (all of them?), fell through one way or another

still reading the sisterhood, reading it slowly... not so much enjoying it, but when it's finished I will go on to something better I am sure

[Moose72]

Power went out. Animal or bird caused it. Meh

Originally Posted by Moose72

Power went out. Animal or bird caused it. Meh

When I lived with my parents, we'd get squirrels trying to nest in the power lines.

I forget what you call those big boxes on the telephone poles, but that's where they'd try to start nesting. These white things: https://c.stocksy.com/a/mYs200/z9/686388.jpg

Was pretty annoying. I felt bad for the poor power workers who had to pick out a fried squirrel with their hands.

This has been a just horrible week for me at times! I may have an extremely stressful weekend, too.

I was already not feeling well today, then my husband's work colleague sent me an email. I confess to overlooking the email subject line and the email that preceded hers. When I read her email I immediately interpreted it as some kind of tragedy. I was literally just on my way out the door to go to my therapy appointment. I quickly responded that she was "scaring me" and asked if I should call my husband. I said I'd look for her response when I got to my destination. When I did I was shaking and slightly crying. I opened my email while sitting in the parking lot of my therapist's office and found her email explaining that what she wrote had something to do with a celebration for hubby. I finally read the email that preceded hers and it was a celebration announcement my husband was not happy about. I had been catastrophizing all kinds of things. Did his sick colleague die? Did hubby get laid off? Did he have a car accident?

I think his colleague has learned that I'm a little "off".

[yellow_fleurs]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

I've had to start and stop then restart my box several times in a year before to get a positive effect. Too early and I get manic. I never start it until mid-November because of this. Some years I am able to use it and some years I can't. Right now I am not sure I'll be trying it at all this year since I'm having trouble sleeping already. I'll have to see.

Have you had a vitamin D level checked lately? That can really help with the symptoms you mentioned and a deficiency is really common.

Thanks, I appreciate you sharing your experience with it. I may try it again and track my moods to see if it is in fact linked. Hoping I can find a way to get it to work for me. Also, thanks for the suggestion about vitamin D. Although I recently have been taking a supplement, I have had really low vitamin D before and have not had it checked. I should probably just go get a physical and make sure everything looks good.

[TheSeaCat]

Last day of EMR training in the books and I am exhausted; so exhausted. I am glad today was the last time I must wake up at 6am. The next two weeks I am training with another referral coordinator within the group. It’s another moderately sized office with several physicians and midlevel’s so nothing different. I just hope this Seroquel hangover goes away, I don’t remember it being this bad the days leading up to my termination, granted it could also be the three-month medical leave I took. I have been drinking entirely too much coffee which I know isn’t good for my heart; I need to slow down my intake before visiting the Cardiologist. I have to see my primary doc sometime next week to address the Seroquel indigestion again. I just don’t know how to work that around my schedule since his hours don’t coincide with the hours I’m supposed to work, I might just have ask the boss if I can leave early sometime next week.

Out of all the people I’d expect to be upset about my new job, I’d never dreamed it would be my cat. He sits at the front window and cries till I get inside and hug him. I’m thinking he might need to visit the vet because I think he has separation anxiety not to mention those three months I was off he was glued to me at the hip and now I’m leaving early in the morning and not getting home much before 8pm most nights. I’m gone from his life for more than twelve hours. He was very mad at me the first day. He’s also being unusually aggressive towards the boyfriend which isn’t like him.

Hugs to everyone that needs one

[Faltering]

This morning was a fight with the voices. The pdoc's office called and said I can't take lithium yet because my creatinine was high (barely). I'm wondering if it's because I did heavy exercise before the test. I have to get blood work done again. If I can't take lithium then I don't know what I'll do. What I'm taking now is clearly not effective anymore. Work continues to get more stressful and I can't cope. I shut myself in my office and struggle behind closed doors. My boyfriend just got upset and left without me because I never want to do anything. I don't have any energy or desire to. So now I'm just sitting here crying. I need help but I don't see the psychologist until the end of the month.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

When I lived with my parents, we'd get squirrels trying to nest in the power lines.

I forget what you call those big boxes on the telephone poles, but that's where they'd try to start nesting. These white things: https://c.stocksy.com/a/mYs200/z9/686388.jpg

Was pretty annoying. I felt bad for the poor power workers who had to pick out a fried squirrel with their hands.

Wow yeah. I can see that happening. And THEN our tv got stuck on "tv" setting which was all "snow"! I fixed it by using the buttons on the tv instead of the remote. And NOW our water heater is broken! No hot water.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Faltering

This morning was a fight with the voices. The pdoc's office called and said I can't take lithium yet because my creatinine was high (barely). I'm wondering if it's because I did heavy exercise before the test. I have to get blood work done again. If I can't take lithium then I don't know what I'll do. What I'm taking now is clearly not effective anymore. Work continues to get more stressful and I can't cope. I shut myself in my office and struggle behind closed doors. My boyfriend just got upset and left without me because I never want to do anything. I don't have any energy or desire to. So now I'm just sitting here crying. I need help but I don't see the psychologist until the end of the month.

(((((( Faltering))))))

I am so sorry you are suffering.
I hope this gets sorted out soon.


WC

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Today I went to the dentist for the 2nd day in a row. This time I was supposed to have 2 fillings and then a gingivitis cleaning. They wound up finding another cavity during the cleaning so I got another filling. Two day total: 5 fillings, one gingival cleaning, one crown. Not bad. Now I go back in 6 weeks for another cleaning (traditional kind) and 4 more fillings, all in one day. Then I will just need 2 more crowns to be done. I hope. One crown this year and one the next with years starting in October.

I slept better again last night so I'm hoping a trend is starting. Tonight I'm worn out from all the dental fun so hopefully I'll do well again.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

Today I went to the dentist for the 2nd day in a row. This time I was supposed to have 2 fillings and then a gingivitis cleaning. They wound up finding another cavity during the cleaning so I got another filling. Two day total: 5 fillings, one gingival cleaning, one crown. Not bad. Now I go back in 6 weeks for another cleaning (traditional kind) and 4 more fillings, all in one day. Then I will just need 2 more crowns to be done. I hope. One crown this year and one the next with years starting in October.

I slept better again last night so I'm hoping a trend is starting. Tonight I'm worn out from all the dental fun so hopefully I'll do well again.

I've had a lot of dental work this year. I have to get a little more done this year. I get worn out, too.

Oh, and I, too, have needed special cleanings due to "dry mouth" caused by meds. I have had to have them every three months.

I hope you sleep well tonight.


WC

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Thanks WC!

It's ridiculous all the things these meds can do that we'd never think about. I've had to have a lot of work done on my front teeth from vomiting all the time when I was on lithium and got toxic easily and frequently, along with a lot more for dry mouth repair.

I now have a water pic and fancy electric toothbrush combo that they think might help, along with a special rinse and a prescription fluoride toothpaste which I've used in the past but had trouble not gagging on.