[Sunflower123]

Doing ok this morning...going into another busy week.

Warm wishes for everyone to have a peaceful Monday. Sending hugs to those that need them.

[Moose72]

I reported the water heater. It seems theyre coming today. Downstairs is clean - bedroooms not so much but i dont think they'll have to go upstairs.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm less impulsive today. I snapped at my husband because he just doesn't give a **** about teaching. He was going to make coffee in the middle of class. IDK, he can't get "fired" because it's volunteering and no one teaches the teens except him.

[Moose72]

Lately Ive been skipping things. This past weekend I skipped judo then on Sunday I skipped church choir. Actually I didnt even go to rehearsal Thursday night. I sleep way in on those days. But.... I went to see my friend Saturday and took my youngest to a donut shop then we went to lunch with friends. Is this some version of depression or just sheer laziness?

[Moose72]

Aaaaaand.... I can't go to judo tonight because there's no one to take N3 to his piano lesson.

However, the guy is here to fix my water heater! Yay! EDIT: We need a new water heater. They're coming back tomorrow.

My sister and I have planned so many interventions with my dad that my brother nixed. I had had enough and wanted to do something, finally! My sister gave her blessing for me to contact my dad's psychiatrist. I don't think dad has seen that psychiatrist much (if at all) in the recent 12 months, but I believe that doctor may still be calling in refills for the medication(s) my dad takes.

I wrote and mailed (it's in the mail, no taking it back) a letter telling my dad's psychiatrist that we're concerned about Dad's heavy drinking while possibly taking psychotropic meds. I didn't tell the doctor what we think he should do, I just told the doctor we are concerned and that Dad has injured himself a lot, had blackouts, and withdrawal shakes in the mornings. I also wrote to the doctor what our family history of mental illness is. I have a strong suspicion that if the doctor ever asked in the past, that Dad said little or nothing. Dad has a history of lying, making up stories, and omitting important information. I also told that psychiatrist about Dad's behavior/symptoms. Again, I didn't offer any thoughts on a diagnosis for him. I just provided symptoms, feedback from others, and again, the family history.

I have been so extremely stressed these last few weeks. It's been painful. I'm glad I see my psychiatrist this week, and also my therapist.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

My sister and I have planned so many interventions with my dad that my brother nixed. I had had enough and wanted to do something, finally! My sister gave her blessing for me to contact my dad's psychiatrist. I don't think dad has seen that psychiatrist much (if at all) in the recent 12 months, but I believe that doctor may still be calling in refills for the medication(s) my dad takes.

I wrote and mailed (it's in the mail, no taking it back) a letter telling my dad's psychiatrist that we're concerned about Dad's heavy drinking while possibly taking psychotropic meds. I didn't tell the doctor what we think he should do, I just told the doctor we are concerned and that Dad has injured himself a lot, had blackouts, and withdrawal shakes in the mornings. I also wrote to the doctor what our family history of mental illness is. I have a strong suspicion that if the doctor ever asked in the past, that Dad said little or nothing. Dad has a history of lying, making up stories, and omitting important information. I also told that psychiatrist about Dad's behavior/symptoms. Again, I didn't offer any thoughts on a diagnosis for him. I just provided symptoms, feedback from others, and again, the family history.

I have been so extremely stressed these last few weeks. It's been painful. I'm glad I see my psychiatrist this week, and also my therapist.

Your dad reminds me so much of my dad. I couldve written this post. He should've died a handful of times but miraculously is still with us.

[wildflowerchild25]

I feel less like smoking today. I really wanted one this morning but since I didn’t have any and had no time to go buy them I resisted. The rest of the day has been easier. Of course the weather helps. It’s chilly and rainy here. Not a good day to sit outside. Glad I don’t have to.

Work went well today. My poor girl was in pain all day and we couldn’t figure out why until we went to change her at the end of the day. She was really constipated! I’ll spare you the gritty details but suffice it to say she’s not constipated anymore lol. I hope she feels better tomorrow and gets it all out. It really upset me to see her so upset, especially since she can’t talk and tell us what’s wrong.

It’s a short week this week. We have off Thursday and Friday for the NJEA convention. Thursday I’m taking my car in to be looked at but no plans for Friday yet. Might take my son to my grandma’s or to my sister in law’s just to get out of the house. I’m supposed to go to my grandma’s on Saturday though so maybe to my SILs house instead.

Happy to be happy.

[~Christina]

Saw my Pdoc , regular 3 month appt.

We agreed that altho I am just not doing well at all that based on my past, Med changes rarely help , they usually make thinks much worse. Yes I know odd but that’s how it works for me.

So time to wait this out unless I am just unable to stay safe. But no Ip for me .. I told my husband just duct tape me to the wall until I’m coming out of it , yes I am serious about this.

Dark and dreary gray day here , matches my mood but I must clean have skipped 2 days so it’s really annoying me.

Hugs to all

[Blueberrybook]

Still depressed but ran again this morning. Still needing to gain weight and really need to stop it. ED in a turmoil right now.

Went out and got groceries, then prepped all the veggies. I don’t know why celery has to be such a pain to clean and cut. But I can put the prepped veggies in containers for quick snacks and easy salad (just add lettuce). Seemed to take an age to do today though.

I need to pick up my daughter from school soon. Hopefully, she had a good day because she woke up with insomnia around 5 AM.

I'd like to urge everyone of age in the US to vote tomorrow. There are many issues that affect those with mental illness, significantly. Or ones that don't now, may very well in years to come. Everyone's vote makes a difference. Not voting is often regrettable. Around 40% or more eligible voters don't vote. Imagine that!

Not registered to vote? Though in some states it's too late to register on election day, in several states there is same day registration. See http://www.ncsl.org/research/electio...istration.aspx for details.

Don't know where to vote? Visit Polling Place Locator - Vote.org to find out.

[Pookyl]

Fired by my therapist yesterday :/

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

Fired by my therapist yesterday :/

((((((( Pookyl ))))))

[scatterbrained04]

Frustrated because I just found out my Latuda is going to be $60 more a month under my new insurance plan for this plan year. It jumped from a Tier 3 med to a Tier 4 med. Thank God for Latuda's drug discount card. It'd be $200/month without it! Now I'm scared to fill my son's other ADHD med that'd typically be a Tier 2. Will it be a Tier 3 now? Ugh. Insurance companies!

[MJLouise]

Hi guys, quick check in because i know I've been gone a while. We flew to the states last min to be here for my dad after his stroke and to help my brothers and sisters. Pdoc started me on lithium before I left on the condition I'd do the weekly blood work here for the first month and fax her the results. So I'm on 450mg and feel much calmer and less depressed already- almost zen like. I may need to up the dose a bit but so far so good. Im starting to wonder if my anxiety is a manifestation of the bipolar disorder- part of being really depressed and tired then the anxiety builds and I cant cope with things. Im still mildly depressed but definitely feel myself coming up. Pdoc said I coul add a half pill in the morning but Im hesitant because its an extended release tab...wont that release it all at once if I split it? It does have a line down the center so maybe it works differently? Its the european version lithium carbonate retard (extended) 450 mg so that would be 450 and 225, for a total of 675mg...

My dad is still in the ICU it was a really bad hemorrhagic stroke, he has 2 brain anyurisms. He has at least another week before he goes into the step down unit to get evaluated and decide if he will go to acute or sub acute rehab. either way we're looking at a long long rehab period and possibly nursing home care after.

The other drama is my two younger brothers, my youngest brothers 24 with disabilities and my dad was his main caretaker, my other brother whos 28 wants to do it- their very close and love each other a lot but my 28 year old brother has very little cash he's a chef with a girl friend and baby. So Im here trying to navigate the disability system to get my youngest brother disability and food stamps and all that. He's already on managed medicaid but I have to find services to handle his doctor appointments and transportation.

Its a very complicated trip and it looks like i wont be returning to germany for at least a month if not longer. My husband has to go back friday.

All I can say

Thank God for lithium. It is absolutely the only reason I'm not breaking down every 5 seconds.

I spent ALL day on philosophy. This morning I finished a first draft of an essay and then I spent 6 hours reading a chapter that I have an online quiz on due Wednesday. I wanted to finish it and take the quiz today (which I got a 90 on) because I have ECT tomorrow and who knows if I'll be able to remember or focus after that. During a break I made cookies too; those were DELICIOUS! I'm kinda wondering if I'm heading hypomanic because I've been pacing around the house all day. Also did laundry and cleaned a bit. Awesome day. Except my cat was being naughty; she hit my other cat and jumped up on the counter and almost licked the cookies.

[TheSeaCat]

I am so exausted it’s not even funny I stayed up late working on a paper and woke up feeling very hungover. First day of referral training with another referral coordinator went really well; she liked my binder idea. She and I also went out to lunch together. I know I shouldn’t make work friends that it doesn’t end well.

I had therapy today after work, he is happy that I am liking my job. I’m just scared of something going wrong and having everything taken away again. Stupid anxiety and PTSD.

Hugs to everyone

[Sunflower123]

This SAD and daylight savings time is kicking my butt. I’ll be ok one minute and think I’ve escaped it then be down in the dumps the next. I’ve been on the couch the entire day although I’ve had things that had to be done and appointments to keep. I can feel the spiral and it scares me. It’s overwhelming me.

My daughter is struggling a great deal and I’m trying to manage that from here. I had really hoped (and still do) that she has not inherited my mental illness. She’ll see a pdoc in December for diagnosis. It breaks my heart.

I’m going to try to remain positive and do as someone on this forum advised someone else: take it bird by bird. Good advice.

Sending hugs to those that need them.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

This SAD and daylight savings time is kicking my butt. I’ll be ok one minute and think I’ve escaped it then be down in the dumps the next. I’ve been on the couch the entire day although I’ve had things that had to be done and appointments to keep. I can feel the spiral and it scares me. It’s overwhelming me.

My daughter is struggling a great deal and I’m trying to manage that from here. I had really hoped (and still do) that she has not inherited my mental illness. She’ll see a pdoc in December for diagnosis. It breaks my heart.

I’m going to try to remain positive and do as someone on this forum advised someone else: take it bird by bird. Good advice.

Sending hugs to those that need them.

(((((( Jennifer ))))))

Thinking of you and yours.
Love and Prayers,

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I'd like to urge everyone of age in the US to vote tomorrow. There are many issues that affect those with mental illness, significantly. Or ones that don't now, may very well in years to come. Everyone's vote makes a difference. Not voting is often regrettable. Around 40% or more eligible voters don't vote. Imagine that!

Not registered to vote? Though in some states it's too late to register on election day, in several states there is same day registration. See http://www.ncsl.org/research/electio...istration.aspx for details.

Don't know where to vote? Visit Polling Place Locator - Vote.org to find out.

Yes! Vote!
I am proud to be able to say: Everyone in this household has already voted!
(Absentee Ballots are a great idea!)

Approx. 2000 people in my town voted by absentee ballots!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Am retrying Lamictal. The first trial. many yeas ago, did not go well. It seems to be going fine. I am a bit light-headed and feel drowsy. All-in-all, it' going well.

H has been away for work. He is home now. It's good to have him home.

It is getting dark way too early.

Love to all.


WC

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Pookyl

Fired by my therapist yesterday :/

What ???????? Why?????? Is this a good thing for you ?????

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

This SAD and daylight savings time is kicking my butt. I’ll be ok one minute and think I’ve escaped it then be down in the dumps the next. I’ve been on the couch the entire day although I’ve had things that had to be done and appointments to keep. I can feel the spiral and it scares me. It’s overwhelming me.


My daughter is struggling a great deal and I’m trying to manage that from here. I had really hoped (and still do) that she has not inherited my mental illness. She’ll see a pdoc in December for diagnosis. It breaks my heart.


I’m going to try to remain positive and do as someone on this forum advised someone else: take it bird by bird. Good advice.


Sending hugs to those that need them.

I could have written that myself 100% ! My daughter does have Bipolar and struggling also right now.

Today sucks loudly

Hope you feel better soon

[Pookyl]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

What ???????? Why?????? Is this a good thing for you ?????

For the following reasons (as per t):
I’m seeing so many psych people that I don’t need to see her as well
I’ve got excellent insight and I know what I’m supposed to do
There’s nothing more she can add to the picture

I suspect that part of the reason she wants to move on is because I’m a smart arse.
I don’t know if it’s a good thing. Purely from an ego perspective I would’ve preferred to be the dumper not the dumpee 😁

[Moose72]

I’m going to try to remain positive and do as someone on this forum advised someone else: take it bird by bird. Good advice.

This is from the book by the same name. At age 10, the author's brother was all undone because he had a project on birds due the next day that he'd had 3 months to prrepare; he seemed defeated by the books on birds that hadnt been cracked open. Is father bent down to him and said, "Just take it bird by bird".