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#251
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Ahhhhhh yes dump her instead of reverse would have been nice But shes saving you money , she obviously isn’t helpful. Are you interested in finding a new T ?
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#252
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Found out H did not get the job he interviewed for
![]() I feel so guilty with having the BP and not being able to work and contribute to finances, but every time I try, the more and more I decompensate, the worse and worse it gets. This was not the life I ever imagined myself having. I see the T tomorrow, the pdoc on Wednesday, rheumatologist on Thursday. I hate having so many appointments.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#253
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I’m not really fussed. I might review it again next year.
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Pookyl ———————————————————————————— BP1, GAD, Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, Claustrophobia Psych meds: Saphris, Seroquel XR, regular Seroquel. PRN Diazepam and Zopiclone |
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![]() Don't feel guilty Bipolar is terrible and its nothing to feel guilty about. Granted I know where you are coming from, it's very easy to feel down in the dumps when you cannot work. Your list looks a lot like my list. T again on Wednesday, primary doc Thursday, and a Cardiologist two weeks from today. I hope all of your appointments go well. ![]()
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#255
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I'm thinking I'm "starting" to become psychotic. My heads loud. I'm drowning it out with loud music.
Possible trigger:
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Dx: Me- SzA Husband- Bipolar 1 Daughter- mood disorder+ Comfortable broken and happy "So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk My blog |
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#256
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The only art crate builder on Oahu shut down and I'm a cabinetmaker wired into the art market. If people take their clothes off, they're gonna bang.
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And once again I am awake listening to the rain. I slept an hour, up an hour, asleep for a while but waking up coughing over and over and now I've been awake for another hour.
One of these days my body is going to give up hoping for the .5 mg of Klonopin I dropped almost a month ago. One thing is clear and that is that we will be doing this taper very, very slowly.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD. Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily |
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#258
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Hubby and I will be going to vote in about an hour.
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Leaving for ECT within the next hour or so. I like the drive down and back. It's nice. I saw my dead grandma last night--that was kinda weird and I think I cried a bit. I'm excited to go to Boston this weekend! Whoo! I'm listening to Tropical ***** Storm right now too. Everything feels good, like my blood has been replaced with happiness and excitement.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#261
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Although, ugh, it sucks when you live in a solid strong Republican or Democratic area. Makes you feel your vote doesn't matter much. Our voting area was intensely gerrymandered in the 1990s and not changed after it came to light ![]()
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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![]() Hope the ECT helps.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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Ran this morning, but on the plus side, I did not run again after dropping my daughter off at school. I really, really wanted to, got out headphones and key, locked the door, and was tying the key onto my shoelaces when I talked some sense into myself and unlocked the door instead, went inside, and took a bath. I am feeling a bit guilty about that though. Stupid ED.
Today, I see the T. We're going to work on healthy coping mechanisms other than exercise. Which I obviously really need.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#265
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Alfred, Lord Tennyson, a poet that many believe had bipolar disorder was quoted as saying the following: "It's better to have tried and failed than to live life wondering what would've happened if I had tried." |
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Saw an alien warp to another galaxy. It was small and yellowish white. It was about the size of my hand. It appeared out of the darkness on the left side of my head, and it was spinning a little, albeit kind of slowly.
I wish I could have explored the galaxy, but I wouldn't have fit through such a small warp. Plus, no oxygen I bet. Dangerous. I want to explore other galaxies though. We haven't been able to as a human race, so this could be a scientific breakthrough. So this is good news on my part. I'm pretty happy about this ![]() |
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deffenetly one of those days where you just think what's the point?
why am I here? I honestly don't know why things are so bad half the time, I think half the time I'm just fed up of life and thinking... oh not again, and half the time i just focus on all my regrets like today.. not really much of a reason to be depressed, but you know... today I sat in a chair and filled up on junkfood go me. where's my medal. that sort of thing |
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Last night was one of those long nights where I question if my stability has come to an end. Though I took my meds as usual could not sleep.......and not sleeping is always the precursor. Takes more than just one night but it always alarms me. My unstablized self is so bad and I've spent so much time in hospitals, an experience I don't care to repeat especially here, where I've heard terrible things about the psych wards. Ah.......it magnifies in the dark. I finally did get some sleep and dreamed I was 5 and was trained to blow up the school. I refused and there were repercussions for me bucking the system, but in the end it all worked out and they were able to see they didn't need to blow things up to get results.
Still nervous about what tonight will bring. Think the whole ordeal is nervousness over the election. Healthcare is primary as is ability for those on disability to live. Do vote today.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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I left work early due to hallucinations and extreme anger. I'm waiting for the doctor to call back with my blood test results to see if I can start lithium. It's frustrating because I already have the pills. I'm just not allowed to take them yet.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#271
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It's even horrible to be a patient in a regular hospital (such as when I had my ulcer operated on, stupid IV alarm went off every time I moved my arm, nurses took forever to respond to the call button, etc.). Even, for goodness sakes, after having a normal birth and the normal postpartum hospital stay (no C-section, no complications). The first time my husband, baby daughter & I finally fell asleep in the hospital after she was born, we were all woken at 5 AM. They dragged in a huge doctor's scale to weigh me, and it's not like I had issues with water retention beyond the norm for pregnancy. Why they saw fit to wake us all up at that God-awful early hour just to get my weight on a huge doctor's scale, I will never know. Couldn't it have waited until 8 AM at least? Then, of course, my daughter would not go back to sleep for forever ![]()
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#272
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I got up at 6:30 feeling great. Been going ever since. The men came and put in the new water heater. Just waiting for it to warm up. And I voted.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#273
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Went and cast my ballot. Hardly anyone there voting when I went, quick in & out. Makes me very glad I did not stand in the awful long early voting line people on NextDoor were complaining about. Early voting is always awful here, especially the first & last days. Though one time I went with my daughter when she was a toddler; she got so fussy & cranky, I got moved straight to the front of the line.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine, There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in. --Leonard Cohen |
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#274
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All under control. By the enemy.
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]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. |
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I thought today was good but now my child is totally being a teen. Will his brain mature in just one more year? Of course not. He's uber smart but squeaks by in school. I wish all he'd done is have sex... Teens are difficult. His girlfriend eggs him on- and vise versa.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 4.5 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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